Yet another day passes

[goodoldnoname923]

I mean whats the point right?…i wake up feeling like shit feeling anxious lost etc etc…thinking about blue and the messages again…then just depressive feelings of hopelessness sadness and self hate…then of course there is the loneliness and isolation…i just feel disconnected from the world like no one is there anymore…i've spent most the day either playing gran turismo that does little for me anymore or just browsed SS which i've felt some comfort even got some laughs on here but in the grander scheme of everything i still feel awful and miserable…i don't have the strength to CTB but i don't have the strength to go on either…i'm just stuck in constant limbo

Disconnected and isolated from the world yet not emotionally ready enough to accept my fate and go i just wake up everyday suffering with an inability to pull myself out of it but not enough emotional energy to take myself to the final destination…I'm hopeless just letting my days pass one at a time…achieving and accomplishing nothint but not wanting to just suffering and enduring endless pain…and even though people tell me they care and i know they do i just feel like no one does

I still feel alone i still feel isolated i still feel abandoned…I want to leave this planet but no one wants me to…everyone keeps clinging on for me because they know I won't…sometimes i feel I'm ready then I'm not then i am and it's just emotionally exhausting….i don't know what to do…

 

[lizzywizzy09]

I hear you. Just want to die.

 

[goodoldnoname923]

I hear you. Just want to die.

the thing is I literally could (mind you takes some effort) but I don't…i want to i just…cant get into the mindset

 

[lizzywizzy09]

the thing is I literally could (mind you takes some effort) but I don't…i want to i just…cant get into the mindset

I don't even have the option. I need to go, preferably before the year is out.

 

[goodoldnoname923]

I don't even have the option. I need to go, preferably before the year is out.

What methods have you considered? What do you have accessible to you?

 

[lizzywizzy09]

What methods have you considered? What do you have accessible to you?

I wanted to try SN. But I'm in Canada so the odds of it getting passed customs are probably nil. I'm honestly too fucking dumb and too chickenshit to plan anything else.

 

[goodoldnoname923]

I wanted to try SN. But I'm in Canada so the odds of it getting passed customs are probably nil. I'm honestly too fucking dumb and too chickenshit to plan anything else.

If your really serious about going (not saying your not just ye) i'd advise looking around they maybe a method that calls out to you,don't force yourself to do a method your not comfortable with nor do one your not fully informed on

And be sure your absolutely certain. Would you like to tell me about your suffering at all perhaps i could get a better understanding for your situation

 

[lizzywizzy09]

I'll pm you.

If your really serious about going (not saying your not just ye) i'd advise looking around they maybe a method that calls out to you,don't force yourself to do a method your not comfortable with nor do one your not fully informed on

And be sure your absolutely certain. Would you like to tell me about your suffering at all perhaps i could get a better understanding for your situation