Story yesterday i've talked to my Grandmom

[Lestat_201]

ok yesterday (in the night) i slept in the old bedroom of my uncle, because i used to do this in the summer season, in this bedroom there is a Pic of my Mathernal Grandmom and Grandpa (both are passed away), is the picture of their wedding and i talked to my grandmother (obviously to her picture) and i make her a promise, i promise her that we (me and her) would meet again very soon. that's what i want to do, i want to meet her again, i want to be with her again (and maybe this will not be possible because i don't believe in Heaven or hell, i don't believe in god, but i hope she is somewhere), she is the only person i love, i don't love anyone here, i don't feel anything for all the ppl of my family, the only person i love and i want to be with is her. i want to stay with her and i really want to do it (even if i know she would not agree with this) but i need her and i want again the part of me that his gone when she passed away. I make her this promise and i, one day, will keep my promise.
I told her that i love her, i say "i'm so sorry" to her for what i think, for my beahviour.
idk, i just hope she heard me, she heard my voice. I just Hope she knows that she will not be alone anymore.

 

[hereornot]

I Hope talk with mine soon...