Water-Lily

Water-Lily

Enlightened
Dec 26, 2020
1,193
People love pointing out how smart, kind, and strong I am

My co workers especially are very encouraging in helping me get my masters degree. And some new friends seem to like me

But they don't know the damage I carry inside. The mental break downs, toxic avoidant behaviors, and things I do that harm others
 
  • Hugs
  • Like
  • Aww..
Reactions: BorderlineSuicidal, figure8, Homo erectus and 10 others
M

Misfit72

Student
Aug 25, 2020
156
I'm very sorry to hear that - people have a very superficial idea of what we are. I don't think I have value either.
 
  • Like
  • Hugs
Reactions: Homo erectus and todiefor
W

WantsToJumpAlready

Member
Jul 17, 2023
27
People love pointing out how smart, kind, and strong I am

My co workers especially are very encouraging in helping me get my masters degree. And some new friends seem to like me

But they don't know the damage I carry inside. The mental break downs, toxic avoidant behaviors, and things I do that harm others
I really feel this, co-workers, colleagues, classmates, etc. would be shocked to know I struggle so severely. People always think I'm an over achiever with their shit together, I'm in leadership positions often and people have looked up to me in these roles forever. No one ever suspect someone like me to even be on a site like this. It feels like I'm a fraud sometimes, it's almost like living a double life.

It's an indescribable feeling when people look at you like you're this certain person you present yourself as while being completely blind to extreme opposite side that's my actual reality.

Granted while you may struggle with breakdowns, avoidance, and accidentally hurting others, it's probably also true that you're also kind, smart, and strong as well.
 
  • Hugs
  • Like
Reactions: Homo erectus and Misfit72
lilohsuu

lilohsuu

Member
Jul 20, 2023
34
I miself im not broken, but yes is possible. Im just not interested enymore in enyrthing, probably my fault. Well, suicide he we gow
 
  • Like
Reactions: Homo erectus
Homo erectus

Homo erectus

Mage
Mar 7, 2023
560
Like entropy, the effort required to reduce suffering is creating more suffering elsewhere. Total suffering is always increasing.
 

Similar threads

disabledlife
Replies
5
Views
133
Offtopic
KuriGohan&Kamehameha
KuriGohan&Kamehameha
Dr Iron Arc
Replies
11
Views
437
Offtopic
casual_existence
casual_existence
Pluto
Replies
1
Views
100
Recovery
Hvergelmir
H
N
Replies
2
Views
225
Suicide Discussion
TAW122
TAW122