Story Wtf with me?

[love_peep]

fuck, I don't understand what's wrong with me. I'm already tired of being an eternally depressed asshole who doesn't want and can't do anything. I feel like a fucking vegetable. A friend came to me from far away and I am very boring and depressive and always let everyone down. I'm sick of it that I'm so stupid that I can't do anything but lie on the bed and smoke. In short, I'm really tired of all this. I don't really want to talk to anyone anymore. I only eat because I have to, and my personality died back when I made my first attempt at ctb. Which unfortunately was not successful. anyway, thank you guys so much for supporting me here. I'm having a very difficult time right now, it just seems to me

 

[Baron]

I can relate. There is nothing I ever do, all I do is sit in my room all day. I'm not motivated to do literally anything. Sometimes standing up after laying in bed for a while is hard for me. I never do anything and I hate myself for that. I don't change anything and I hate myself for that. I accept that I'll never change and I hate myself for that. I hate myself for hating myself. I wonder if there's anything I don't hate myself for.

 

[love_peep]

I can relate. There is nothing I ever do, all I do is sit in my room all day. I'm not motivated to do literally anything. Sometimes standing up after laying in bed for a while is hard for me. I never do anything and I hate myself for that. I don't change anything and I hate myself for that. I accept that I'll never change and I hate myself for that. I hate myself for hating myself. I wonder if there's anything I don't hate myself for.

Im 19 and this is sad that my brain just broken when i was 18 i know a lot of shit and i can do this but i hate myself cuz im very lazy and stupid guy who don't understand that I need to improve my skills but im tired and i don't have motivation. I don't have family, i don't have parents my friends dont support but i try dont ctb but i dont promise that i don't ctb in the future

 

[FuneralCry]

I understand feeling so tired of everything, it must be really dreadful feeling trapped in that situation. But anyway best wishes.

 

[love_peep]

I understand feeling so tired of everything, it must be really dreadful feeling trapped in that situation. But anyway best wishes.

Thanks