Venting Wow, last few hours here and I don’t know how to feel (SN)

[GeorgeJL]

I will be keeping an eye on this thread tonight.

 

[Whatshername]

I find it quite bizarre how you're here being critical about "priorities" tbh, given you recently spent the best part of two days tone policing the exposing of an obvious chancer and bullshitter.

And quite ironic considering she is one of the reasons people are distrustful of these threads.

Wait... who are you calling a bullshitter?

He wasn't talking about you. If you're going through with this, good luck and peace. Believe me, we don't wish you ill.

I'm out now, don't want to derail the thread any further.

 

[Kukubananas]

Update 1:53am: in my car. A little worried now. I read the Tagamet box and my meclizine box and both say to take 30 minutes prior. From what I've been reading on threads it says to take an hour before. Taking one more dose of Tagamet and Meclizine just to be on the safe side. I'm a little anxious not going to lie... doing it in my car at night is kind of terrifying. My street is completely dead though because everyone has work tomorrow not afraid of getting discovered. Gonna have another cigarette and try to calm down. Be back in about 15 minutes.

Update 1:53am: in my car. A little worried now. I read the Tagamet box and my meclizine box and both say to take 30 minutes prior. From what I've been reading on threads it says to take an hour before. Taking one more dose of Tagamet and Meclizine just to be on the safe side. I'm a little anxious not going to lie... doing it in my car at night is kind of terrifying. My street is completely dead though because everyone has work tomorrow not afraid of getting discovered. Gonna have another cigarette and try to calm down. Be back in about 15 minutes.

Oh man I wish I was drunk this is fucking terrifying. Finished my smoke making my mixture. It's 2:02 am
Also recording goodbyes on my phone. Did not write a physical note. Will screenshot my note and make it my homescreen

 

[sunny cat]

i hope you have a peaceful journey. take some deep breaths and visualize yourself succeeding happily. and remember, if tonight isn't the night there will still be people here (myself included) who will welcome you back with open arms. safe travels /

 

[Kukubananas]

i hope you have a peaceful journey. take some deep breaths and visualize yourself succeeding happily. and remember, if tonight isn't the night there will still be people here (myself included) who will welcome you back with open arms. safe travels /

I don't think enough people prepare for this moment. A part of me is happy to be going, leaving all my troubled thoughts and burdens on earth. Another part of me is scared to go and scared for what's to come. I feel like I've delayed this enough and I'll ultimately always have these feelings no matter when I go. I'm having regrets now of not saying I love you to everyone before they went to bed.

 

[Rachel]

I don't think enough people prepare for this moment. A part of me is happy to be going, leaving all my troubled thoughts and burdens on earth. Another part of me is scared to go and scared for what's to come. I feel like I've delayed this enough and I'll ultimately always have these feelings no matter when I go. I'm having regrets now of not saying I love you to everyone before they went to bed.

You sure youre ready to go? Its 100% your choice of course
M

I don't think enough people prepare for this moment. A part of me is happy to be going, leaving all my troubled thoughts and burdens on earth. Another part of me is scared to go and scared for what's to come. I feel like I've delayed this enough and I'll ultimately always have these feelings no matter when I go. I'm having regrets now of not saying I love you to everyone before they went to bed.

Maybe wait till you get alcohol? That way your last moment is a little more peaceful. Plus youd get your change to say your goodbyes

 

[sunny cat]

I don't think enough people prepare for this moment. A part of me is happy to be going, leaving all my troubled thoughts and burdens on earth. Another part of me is scared to go and scared for what's to come. I feel like I've delayed this enough and I'll ultimately always have these feelings no matter when I go. I'm having regrets now of not saying I love you to everyone before they went to bed.

it's only natural for us to have our regrets. i think everyone has regrets for everything they do, it's just a matter of whether or not the regrets outweigh the outcome. if you feel like you aren't ready, there's no shame in waiting just a bit longer. it's your last act— why not try to make it perfect? delaying and perfecting aren't necessarily the same things.

 

[Kukubananas]

You sure youre ready to go? Its 100% your choice of course
M

Maybe wait till you get alcohol? That way your last moment is a little more peaceful. Plus youd get your change to say your goodbyes

I thought you couldn't drink and take sn

 

[Rachel]

I thought you couldn't drink and take sn

Oh. Maybe not? Im honestly not too familiar with that method since I had another one picked out for myself. But if thats the case, scratch that...

 

[Kukubananas]

I do feel shame. Some people here are very mean. I'm not doing it for them, I know, but I feel like if I don't do it today I'm delaying the inevitable. I don't want to go through this again but at the same time I wish I had more time. I wish I had someone with me. I wish life wasn't so fucked up. I wish things could get better now. Maybe I'm just emotional and need to rip off the bandaid.

 

[Didymus]

Update 1:53am: in my car. A little worried now. I read the Tagamet box and my meclizine box and both say to take 30 minutes prior. From what I've been reading on threads it says to take an hour before. Taking one more dose of Tagamet and Meclizine just to be on the safe side. I'm a little anxious not going to lie... doing it in my car at night is kind of terrifying. My street is completely dead though because everyone has work tomorrow not afraid of getting discovered. Gonna have another cigarette and try to calm down. Be back in about 15 minutes.

Oh man I wish I was drunk this is fucking terrifying. Finished my smoke making my mixture. It's 2:02 am
Also recording goodbyes on my phone. Did not write a physical note. Will screenshot my note and make it my homescreen

Alcohol is not advised

 

[GeorgeJL]

How's it going?

 

[GeorgeJL]

RIP

 

[Karangel25]

I can't wait to do this when I get mine

 

[GerMann]

I don't understand this timeline, sorry.

 

[StGerman]

Safe journey RIP

 

[Macc Lad]

no doubt see you logged in , in the next couple of days!

 

[aneurysm]

no doubt see you logged in , in the next couple of days!

you can't tell if she is logged or not because of her privacy settings

 

[John434]

I do feel shame. Some people here are very mean. I'm not doing it for them, I know, but I feel like if I don't do it today I'm delaying the inevitable. I don't want to go through this again but at the same time I wish I had more time. I wish I had someone with me. I wish life wasn't so fucked up. I wish things could get better now. Maybe I'm just emotional and need to rip off the bandaid.

You shouldn't feel shame
And yes, some here are feeling less to others pain, maybe so caught up in their own.
To take this last and final step in your journey is tough, to know all of everything will end by your simple choice is not only overwhelming but so powerful it can almost make you sick.
All I can say is, when you are ready, you won't be,
When the time is perfect, it's actually isn't ,
To look at that glass, knowing if consumed
All that you know of physically, emotionally, is over
It's scary
I personally, am here for you, know you aren't alone
When you find that calm sulcist, you will know it's time.
Best wishes in this journey we all here have in common.

 

[GeorgeJL]

You shouldn't feel shame
And yes, some here are feeling less to others pain, maybe so caught up in their own.
To take this last and final step in your journey is tough, to know all of everything will end by your simple choice is not only overwhelming but so powerful it can almost make you sick.
All I can say is, when you are ready, you won't be,
When the time is perfect, it's actually isn't ,
To look at that glass, knowing if consumed
All that you know of physically, emotionally, is over
It's scary
I personally, am here for you, know you aren't alone
When you find that calm sulcist, you will know it's time.
Best wishes in this journey we all here have in common.

I'm pretty sure she ended it last night.

 

[John434]

I'm pretty sure she ended it last night.

If they did
I hope they found the serenity they were looking for
Sleep well

 

[Macc Lad]

I'm pretty sure she ended it last night.

we'll see!

you can't tell if she is logged or not because of her privacy settings

clever!

 

[aneurysm]

I'm pretty sure she ended it last night.

what makes you so sure? just curious

 

[Ifonlysheknew]

Wherever you are,
May tranquility and relief be with you
Sending love