Discussion wounding oneself with the intention to receive help

[123die]

Hello!
The title might sound really weird, but bear with me for a moment.
I need help. I don't want to die. I want to get better. I just can't live *like this*. But no one in my life whatsoever is understanding the urgency of my situation and I feel like it is because I don't seem 'ill enough' to receive the help I'm in need of. Sucks, but I'm pretty sure that's how it is. So, I'm going to show them that it really is urgent. I'm going to badly wound myself somehow so that they see that the help I need and have been *asking for* is in fact truly emergent. I just don't know the best way to do this. Cutting myself is out of the question. My top ideas so far are:
-jumping from the third or fourth floor of a building (i looked up statistics and from what I can gather this is most likely not going to be fatal)
-getting hit by a car
-chugging cough syrup
-overdose
I understand that all of these are going to be painful, and that is part of my plan. Put myself into immense violent physical pain as a cry for help, as I've run out of other options. Talking doesn't seem to do anything. I'm resorting to drastic measures, because nobody will help me if I don't.
What do you think? Do you think the ideas I listed above are going to do the trick (violent and dramatic but not likely to kill me)?
Thanks <3

 

[seventeenangels444]

First of all, I am sorry that you have to consider such methods in order to receive the help you deserve.
Second of all, nothing is 100% sure. I mean there are indeed people that survived falls from 1000 feet, but there are also people who died by falling from only 5 meters, simply because they landed unfortunately. What I am trying to say is that a small overdose could possibly kill you.

So I think your prime goal is the hospital? Then, some alcohol and non-perscription sleeping pills should do the trick. It's nearly impossible to be killed by them, but the combination of those pills and alcohol will make it look like you intended to end your life.
Edit: Do it in a more or less public place.

I wouldn't consider anything else, beside slitting your wrists awfully, to avoid possible disabilities.

 

[Misanthrope]

What country are you in?

 

[BobbyPellitt]

Try leaving out of the blue, bringing as little belongings as possible, and stay hidden without communication whatsoever for a day or two. When you come back and they asked where have you been, tell them you almost CTB but changed your mind at the last moment to give life one more try.

 

[Meant2Die]

If you play with tightening some rope around your neck, like really trying to choke yourself out by just pulling on ends, especially rubbing it back and forth around the neck the chaffing will create red marks and red dots due to bleeding under the skin called petechiae. Since they only happen in a line like pattern in the area where you'd have rope to a smart onlooker they can quickly deduce you were trying to hang yourself. That might help any kind of story , like leaving for a few days, that you come up with.

 

[forever21]

Go to the ER. Say you have stomach pain and took paracetamol 2 hours ago. Say you took 5-10 gramm. You don't have to take them, just lie. I would not advice to actually take them. It really hurts. And paracetamol is a famous drug suicidal people take without getting harmed. But nether the less don't take that much.

 

[Brick In The Wall]

I think if the people you're worried about aren't taking your cries for help seriously, maybe they aren't exactly worth all the effort. I wouldn't attempt any type of injury to signal a call for help. As @seventeenangels444 stated anything can be potentially fatal.

My suggestion would be to just completely ghost these people. If they actually care they'll come looking to reach out to you. If they don't care then the suicidal gesture wouldn't have changed this anyways.

 

[123die]

What country are you in?

north of the medicine line (canada)

First of all, I am sorry that you have to consider such methods in order to receive the help you deserve.
Second of all, nothing is 100% sure. I mean there are indeed people that survived falls from 1000 feet, but there are also people who died by falling from only 5 meters, simply because they landed unfortunately. What I am trying to say is that a small overdose could possibly kill you.

So I think your prime goal is the hospital? Then, some alcohol and non-perscription sleeping pills should do the trick. It's nearly impossible to be killed by them, but the combination of those pills and alcohol will make it look like you intended to end your life.
Edit: Do it in a more or less public place.

I wouldn't consider anything else, beside slitting your wrists awfully, to avoid possible disabilities.

is it okay if i dm u to discuss this further?? you seem to have some really good ideas so i wanna give you more details about my situation if thats okay!

 

[Jean4]

I'm in the USA. Why don't you walk into the ER and say you are suicidal. They will have to put you on a hold for observation and you can get help :)

 

[seventeenangels444]

north of the medicine line (canada)


is it okay if i dm u to discuss this further?? you seem to have some really good ideas so i wanna give you more details about my situation if thats okay!

Of course!

 

[Misanthrope]

As a Brit I am clueless as to Canadian systems so I am a little reluctant to suggest anything as I do not know what the consequences would be. But most mental health services look for certain red flags, of behaviours, words used, and statements of intent. If you want to get a response whilst not putting your health on the line you can wave those red flags and make yourself someone else's responsibility. You can make this stick further by writing a note that states how you feel and conveys some of your desperation. You already meet the criteria of being a danger to yourself as you are pretty much ready to jump off a building! Maybe in your note reference a very tall public building, where if you turned yourself into pavement pizza in broad daylight that would look very bad in the press. Especially as writing that down makes you liability at that point. So even if you have a neglectful system in place this may swing it that they may not want to take the risk.

However all of this may not make the people you want to care take you seriously still. But you would wind up getting some help. How effective that help maybe I don't know I am not Canadian. But maybe with those services being involved that may be enough to potentially shake those around you into taking how you feel a little more seriously as other agencies are involved. I can't say as I don't know your life story and the main players in it. If they don't give a shit already it is unlikely they will give a shit even with an incident.

It is all a risk but you are on this site and have named yourself 123Die and ready to lacerate yourself. Pretty fair to say you are in a lot of pain right now so maybe getting help not from them but what services are in your area may help to reduce that pain whilst simultaneously bringing them on board. Seems a better route than risking your physical health which may compromise you being able to get better if sickness is added into the mix. You have a right to help and shouldn't have to hurt yourself to get it.

 

[123die]

As a Brit I am clueless as to Canadian systems so I am a little reluctant to suggest anything as I do not know what the consequences would be. But most mental health services look for certain red flags, of behaviours, words used, and statements of intent. If you want to get a response whilst not putting your health on the line you can wave those red flags and make yourself someone else's responsibility. You can make this stick further by writing a note that states how you feel and conveys some of your desperation. You already meet the criteria of being a danger to yourself as you are pretty much ready to jump off a building! Maybe in your note reference a very tall public building, where if you turned yourself into pavement pizza in broad daylight that would look very bad in the press. Especially as writing that down makes you liability at that point. So even if you have a neglectful system in place this may swing it that they may not want to take the risk.

However all of this may not make the people you want to care take you seriously still. But you would wind up getting some help. How effective that help maybe I don't know I am not Canadian. But maybe with those services being involved that may be enough to potentially shake those around you into taking how you feel a little more seriously as other agencies are involved. I can't say as I don't know your life story and the main players in it. If they don't give a shit already it is unlikely they will give a shit even with an incident.

It is all a risk but you are on this site and have named yourself 123Die and ready to lacerate yourself. Pretty fair to say you are in a lot of pain right now so maybe getting help not from them but what services are in your area may help to reduce that pain whilst simultaneously bringing them on board. Seems a better route than risking your physical health which may compromise you being able to get better if sickness is added into the mix. You have a right to help and shouldn't have to hurt yourself to get it.

I'm going to pm you and maybe this all will make a bit more sense. And thank you for that thoughtful response, I appreciate your time ~