Would you want to hide your suicide from someone or let a certain person know about it?

[noname223]

I mean afterwards when it happened.
I feel pretty bad currently and think a lot how other people would cope with my suicide.

There are some people I would like to hide my suicide from: my bullies I don't want that they feel they achieved what they wanted. It is a long time since I was in school but I still would like to hide it from them. Which might will happen.

There was a certain patient in the clinic who always told me I was way too deterministic and negative towards the future. That kind of made me angry because he did not know my full story. I am not sure how my suicide would affect him. I am kind of agnostic about it I think whether he should know it.

There were a lot of therapists who accompanied me. On the one hand I would like to protect them from the news on the other hand it would be kind of dishonest. And I think my story would have the wrong lesson if the outcome was not told.

There were a lot of people who treated me like shit in my life. I am not sure whether my suicide would let them feel guilty. I mean when I am dead does this even matter?

 

[dra1ncoreslwt]

I honestly wouldn't like the news to spread too much, family and friends finding out is kind of inevitable, because I still have close connections, unless I had a silent suicide far away… which I doubt I can achieve, they'd probably report me "missing", either way, big part of me doesn't want it to be a huge deal, and if I left a suicide letter I'd want it to be personal, not just a goodbye, since I wouldn't want untied ends or close people to blame each other for my decision… anyways im sure with time you can figure out what you want, either way things aren't forever(aka things stop mattering after time moves on) if theres a reason that can keep you on living I say try, if not however hope you find the peace you're looking for <3

 

[FuneralCry]

If I was to ctb then I wouldn't care if people knew about it, it isn't like I know many people in the first place, as after all I won't be there at that point. Whatever happens in this world after I cease existing could never be my concern and anyway we all have to die and lose everything someday. I view my existence as being so incredibly meaningless and insignifcant, I bet that someday nearly everyone who exists now won't even exist in the memories of those who continue to stay here.

 

[trist]

i want as few people as possible to know about it. i just want everyone to completely forget about me the moment i die but i know that's impossible.

 

[Forever Sleep]

Yeah- I'd prefer it if a lot of people didn't find out. I don't want them to be upset. Still- what might be worse is them trying to get in touch at some point and worrying what has happened. I guess a lot would have to find out- one way or another.

 

[leavingsoon99]

Neither. It's my decision. I don't want anyone who cares about me to be hurt by it. However, no one is dependent on me. No one is going to be devastated by my passing. While they may be sad, it's nothing that a simple goodbye note with an explanation won't solve.

I. Am. Hurting. To hell with what other's think of me and how they'll remember me. I'm not doing this for attention.