Would you rather ctb or live?

[human909]

So i know everyone here and including me are struggling with something but what would you do? get recovered and live or just ctb and get life over with?

 

[FuneralCry]

Personally I'd never wish to exist, I'd never wish to be conscious of anything at all, to me existence is an abomination that just causes suffering all for the sake of it and problems there was never a need for at all, if it's up to me I'd choose to erase my existence like I never suffered at all. Existence just feels like a mistake to me, I suffer just from being burdened with this torturous, futile existence and I find it completely undesirable to exist in every way, I'd always prefer to not exist than suffer so unnecessarily in this existence I never would have chose with no limit as to how much agony I can feel just to die tortured by old age, the thought of suffering until old age is so horrific to me.

I also have no interest in existing as well and I find it a tragedy how this existence was even imposed, I'll always see existence itself as the ultimate problem and it's a problem that only ceasing to exist can bring me relief from, I'd be so relieved to be permanently free from all future suffering in this existence I never would have chosen, non-existence is the only peace for me, it's all I see as desirable, I'd always prefer to be at peace for all eternity than be conscious enslaved in this existence of pointless suffering capable of suffering to unlimited amounts, I personally could never see any point, value or benefit to existence rather I see it as something that just causes harm and suffering torturing existing beings until death takes away all anyway.

 

[JaJu]

As much as I'd love to ctb and cease to exist like FuneralCry, I need to be assured and shown proof that there's a guaranteed way with as minimal pain/discomfort as possible while being accessible. I may not have researched enough into it, but I don't think there is a best method and would therefore rather continue surviving one day at a time gripping onto the tiniest bit of hope and possibility rather than risking a miserable attempt and further increased suffering.

 

[ijustwishtodie]

I'd want to ctb. I don't want to live.

 

[wiggy]

If not for material circumstances under my control, I'd much rather live.
I do believe this is a false dilemma though. We're all going to check out at one point, catching the bus is only a change in itinerary.

 

[yousaidimsweet]

i don't want to ctb, i think about that more passively. i just wish i never existed to begin with. there's a large part of me everyday that fights to keep finding reasons to live and recover from the many scars and trauma of my past. that, and i want to go painlessly but i'm not sure if that's a realistic expectation.

 

[Anonymousa]

Depends on if there is an afterlife. If after death is non-existence then instant ctb as I will no longer have to struggle to get what I want or feel any pain as you can't feel anything in nothingness. If there is an afterlife then recover so I can do the things I want to do with my life so I don't have regrets after death.

 

[pthnrdnojvsc]

I would never want to live even for one minute in this hell. I would never want any kind of life / existence / consciousness.

this hell was imposed on me . i didn't ask to be here. and i will never accept any kind of suffering or any kind of consciousness nor existence for me

boggles my mind some want to be immortal. by the law of probability then everything will happen to you with immortality the worst suffering imaginable for a trillion years with immortality will happen only a matter of time with immortality or unlimited number of lives. the law of probability states that given enough time everything will happen to you . for example in a 90 year time span there are more chances of something horrible than in a 30 year time span. i'm glad at least i don't believe in any after life nor reincarnation.

 

[Depressive_Thoughts]

I have mixed feelings when comes to ctb, sometimes Iits all I want, some other times I just want to try and recover... I don't know, its messing my head up

 

[cosmic-realism]

If that narc monster of a pretentious male parent drops dead,I will live

 

[bananaolympus]

I want to live but life gets more difficult every day, i plan to ctb in a few years but if things continue to deteriorate this quickly i might be gone soon

 

[guineapiglover8503]

i really wish there was an in between option because it feels different day to day haha