Would you numb your feelings if you could?

[noname223]

There is a Juice WRLD Song called Numbing all your feelings. Juice uses drugs to achieve that.

I think my emotions are less since I am taking antipsychotics. Mostly it is beneficial but I also barely can cry anymore.

There was a time I used benzos. But withdrawal Symptoms started after a while. The way benzos numb you is amazing but the withdrawal is a nightmare. However, I think maybe it is more a way of getting high. There are probably different way of numbness.

There is for example anhedonia and this is More of a torturous numbness.

I never Drunk intentionally alcohol in my life. Some say alcohol can numb you. But wouldn't the opposite occur if someone takes it who is not used to it? I don't want to experience myself Drunk. I would surely Do bullshit and get addicted to it. And it has so much calories. :0

My answer is: It depends

 

[Pluto]

 

[Reflection]

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This, if I have to become a heartless robot just to stay "alive" then no thanks.

 

[ShatteredSerenity]

My cocktail of antidepressants and antipsychotics started having a dramatic effect right before Christmas. Emotions are numb and distant. Anhedonia is a big issue, there is no pleasure or joy. It feels fragile and dependent on chemicals.

I didn't like the effect so I tried cutting back on an antidepressant, but that caused horrible side effects. My life will never be truly good again, so I guess this is just the kind of shit have to live with from now on.

 

[vercabow]

personally, i can't feel anything half the time. trust me when i say id rather feel suicidal and depressed ANY DAY OF RHE WEEK. being numb doesn't even make me feel like a human being - im more akin to a robot. it's the most dehumanizing feeling ever.

the worst part is i can't even FEEL the urge to kill myself. i know logically speaking it's the best option, but even trying to get myself to prepare is hard. it's like being trapped in an open cage.

the way i see it is that it's an echelon below anhedonia, because it feels like i could witness something horrible happen and not feel a thing. i feel so detached from the world, as if im a black light in a sea of white. it's hell.

i don't know if this is an uncommon sentiment amongst people on SaSu, but i'd do anything to readily feel emotions again.

 

[ShatteredSerenity]

the worst part is i can't even FEEL the urge to kill myself. i know logically speaking it's the best option, but even trying to get myself to prepare is hard. it's like being trapped in an open cage.

I'm upset because I was planning to CTB this week and I had everything lined up, but now I can't follow through because my emotions are all out of wack. I thought maybe I would just postpone it, but it only gets more difficult every day I wait. I had no idea meds could do this to me, it really does feel like a trap.

 

[KillingPain267]

I'm upset because I was planning to CTB this week and I had everything lined up, but now I can't follow through because my emotions are all out of wack. I thought maybe I would just postpone it, but it only gets more difficult every day I wait. I had no idea meds could do this to me, it really does feel like a trap.

What are the meds?

 

[ShatteredSerenity]

What are the meds?

Lithium, quetiapine, lurasidone

 

[The_Hunter]

personally, i can't feel anything half the time. trust me when i say id rather feel suicidal and depressed ANY DAY OF RHE WEEK. being numb doesn't even make me feel like a human being - im more akin to a robot. it's the most dehumanizing feeling ever.

the worst part is i can't even FEEL the urge to kill myself. i know logically speaking it's the best option, but even trying to get myself to prepare is hard. it's like being trapped in an open cage.

the way i see it is that it's an echelon below anhedonia, because it feels like i could witness something horrible happen and not feel a thing. i feel so detached from the world, as if im a black light in a sea of white. it's hell.

i don't know if this is an uncommon sentiment amongst people on SaSu, but i'd do anything to readily feel emotions again.

echelon below anhedonia... damn--i bet you would be good at naming a band ;)

jokes aside, hope you're able to feel; and feel well even, too. to feel something nice, peace & joy, too.

wishing you the best. <3

and also--sort of... reminds me of the song In Limbo by Radiohead as well.

take care !! ^^

(say... I Think I see the 'Let Down' connection here too. I think i see now... hmm..)

 

[coolgal82]

tbh i alternate between feeling way too much and not feeling anything and both suck i think lmao i'd rather like an inbetween

 

[yousaidimsweet]

my general advice is to not try substances if you think you'll get hooked or make bad decisions. personally i have drank many times before to the point where i was developing an addiction to alcohol but stopped before it got genuinely bad or toxic. for me, alcohol was a way to feel happy because i would drink it while socializing and feel a bit at ease. but of course if you ever drink make sure to do it responsibly. i wouldn't numb my emotions as i've experienced a loss of emotions when i was super depressed a few years ago BUT it was nice not feeling emotional pain and anguish. downsides are not feeling happiness though so i wouldn't exactly make that trade.