Would you leave a letter or not?

[dumpmeforgood]

Contemplating to leave one or not. More or else I just want to tell that I did this because I'm the problem. I'm a hermit, with no skills or job experiences, lazy, ugly. Typical one.

What would be the case for you?

I have all the SN setups besides the benzos. It is kinda hard to get unless I visit a doctor again and have a few visits.

 

[Carrot]

I once wrote a letter and then survived, so.. I don't think it's awkward, but it probably can be to some people. I'm an open book anyway, it wasn't some super secret information.

Not planning to leave one the next time.

Exactly what I was thinking, benzos requires a few visits if you want to get it in a traditional, safe way.

 

[RazzleDazzle]

There is a lot more recognition now about the dangers of benzos and doctors usually don't prescribe them as freely.

I don't think I'd leave a letter, I think it'd probably create more harm than good. I don't think people would ever understand anyway, I've been living through a hell that nobody understands. And that just is what it is. I live with this alone or I kill myself, there is no third option.

 

[dumpmeforgood]

There is a lot more recognition now about the dangers of benzos and doctors usually don't prescribe them as freely.

I don't think I'd leave a letter, I think it'd probably create more harm than good. I don't think people would ever understand anyway, I've been living through a hell that nobody understands. And that just is what it is. I live with this alone or I kill myself, there is no third option.

I see. I had been prescribed with lorazepam 1mg a day for 1 year, last time I visited 2 years ago.

I wonder if the history I have would help? I'm outside the US btw.

 

[darksouls]

no, fuck them all

 

[RazzleDazzle]

I see. I had been prescribed with lorazepam 1mg a day for 1 year, last time I visited 2 years ago.

I wonder if the history I have would help? I'm outside the US btw.

If you already have a history with this doctor and they'd prescribed it before that's a pretty good sign.

 

[littleyoshi]

I'd leave a letter, multiple letters to different people. Less to explain my choice and more to tell people I love them and to clarify my last wishes. But I've always been a yapper, so ymmv. It's been a fun writing exercise for me in the past lol

 

[h4ppyhypoxia]

at first i was going to leave individual notes to everybody, but i changed my mind, because i dont really have the energy, im going to leave a note next to my body which says that this was a suicide and there was no foul play just to make the investigation easier, but i think im just going to make my exit peacefully, ive spent my whole life trying to manage other peoples emotions around my illness, and trying to make other people happy, maybe its selfish, but i want one last moment that is all about me, my mind isnt fully made up on this, im going to see how i feel closer to the date

 

[Somewhat Suicidal]

I used to think I would, but currently I'm unsure. I don't think anyone would actually understand anyway as I'm simply to overwhelmed to put it all in words and even if I could it wouldn't make a ton of sense to anybody who might read it. Also whenever I was actively planning my demise I was even more erratic in my expression so it would get to be an even more terrible letter than I just described. Additionally I might be simply to lazy to be assed to actually write in under these circumstances. What does it matter anyway if I'm gone. I doubt anyone besides my parents would notice it for weeks or would care and/or bother to read any letter.

 

[SealsOfTheArctic]

I'll leave a letter. I'd be brutal and list all the ways my parents failed me but I'd also be very sweet to those I love.

 

[cantthinkofusername]

if the people around me dont already understand then nothing i can say in a letter will make them.

 

[Ramin]

Personally, I think I will leave one only to explain what I would want my family to do with my corpse and what I don't want them to do with it.
But if you think there's a chance of the ones around you understanding what lead you to such point, why not write one? If it's worth it or not, depends on what you think they will get from the letter, I guess.