would you ever engage in a partnered suicide?

[Aisley]

By the time I finally get to exit, I'll make the offer to my husband to come with. But he's been depressed his whole life, too. If he'd been someone else I wouldn't think of offering. But then, if he were someone else, I wouldn't have married him.

 

[Ashu]

If I ever found someone who was such a twin soul, fuck, I'd wanna live.

 

[gardenofaphrodite]

just a thought that came to mind. give your thoughts, experiences maybe. to be honest this thought began when i watched bungo stray dogs. one of the main characters, dazai, has a obsession with suicide and the act, however frequently brings the idea of a partnered suicide. i never really understood why, however im open to discussion.

Thinking back on my life- there was/is (just don't talk much now) someone I would have liked to do it with. I think we both understand each other's perspective on life, however, I think they're doing better now- which is amazing. I truly wish the best for him & hope he succeeds in his goals. A truly talented & lovely person. He's an inspiration to me when it comes to art & his outlook on life sometimes, but I know I'm not at his level intellectually. I feel it's a reason we don't talk much anymore, & is why certain things failed in our friendship. I try not to ponder on it much. I wish I could be like him more, talented, smart, & better opportunities. Unfortunately, I will never be like that, & I've accepted that fate.

Though if I do try to CTB again, I do plan on making a section of my note directly about him, I think he deserves to know the [positive] impact he has made on my life over the years, even if we talk very little now..

 

[Goodgirlryeo101]

No I wouldn't because this is something I definitely want to do alone with no one else.

 

[charlotte_]

It sound like a really romantic concept. I would definitely do it, but the risk of one surviving is still something concerning to me.

 

[soledad.virgen]

Yes. I think there's something deeply beautiful about ending it all with a special someone and dying in each other's arms. It's the penultimate irreversible act you can make out of love. Theres the contradiction in that if I formed that kind of relationship with a girl, I'd probably just want to live for her, but if we were both just too tired to continue then I'd open my veins with her.

 

[EmmaD]

Yes. I think there's something deeply beautiful about ending it all with a special someone and dying in each other's arms. It's the penultimate irreversible act you can make out of love. Theres the contradiction in that if I formed that kind of relationship with a girl, I'd probably just want to live for her, but if we were both just too tired to continue then I'd open my veins with her.

How you've described it is the ideal. I like to think it was like that with people who have found partners on here and gone through with ctb.

 

[helplessufferer]

i don't think so. i've always been more peaceful and happy when i was by myself, i imagine that will be the case in my last moments but i didn't really ponder the issue

 

[sorrowful]

Probably not, I feel like the idea of a partnered suicide I have in my head is way too much of a romanticized version. A lot of things can go wrong in reality, the other person could back out (and alert someone of your plans as well), they could feel pressured to go through with it when the time isn't right for them, either of you could fail and then you could possibly get in trouble etc.

In a way there is also something beautiful about going out with someone like that. It is the closest you could be to a person, even if they are a total stranger, you are making the choice to leave this world with them. Dazai is an interesting character that's for sure. Would totally accept his "offer".

Also, I like your profile picture!

 

[Hitakiri]

just a thought that came to mind. give your thoughts, experiences maybe. to be honest this thought began when i watched bungo stray dogs. one of the main characters, dazai, has a obsession with suicide and the act, however frequently brings the idea of a partnered suicide. i never really understood why, however im open to discussion.

Dazai is an interesting case. The characters in Bungo Stray Dogs are based on real life writers, and their most famous work. The real life Osamu Dazai did indeed kill himself, but only after 40 or so failed attempts.

In the series, he talks about suicide all the time and makes half-hearted attempts constantly, but he does not actually want to die. Dazai is sociopathic. He has extremely limited empathy, so whether he does good or bad, it doesn't matter. Doesn't concern him. This is why he was villainous, at first, in the Port Mafia. He's cold, and his "cheery" persona is all just an act. Though I suspect he loves fucking with/annoying people, because in some manner he lives vicariously through others, so making others react, lets him feel alive to some small degree. Dazai had a dear friend who died, and that friend told him that it's because he feels completely empty inside, that he can choose what he wants to be. The type of man who hurts others, or the type of man who helps/uplifts others. His friend had him promise that he'd be the type of man who helps/uplifts others. He knew Dazai would feel nothing either way, so he nudged Dazai towards the path of at least being a better man and positive influence to others, rather than a heartless killer.

Dazai has never genuinely wanted to die. He's just empty. The type of guy who thinks "If I die, I die. Oh well." And so he teases the option because he feels a little alive for a moment, at the cusp of death. He basically plays russian roullette. Ultimately though, the high wears off and he gets bored of being at the cusp of death, and goes to do other stuff to pass the time.

Probably not, I feel like the idea of a partnered suicide I have in my head is way too much of a romanticized version. A lot of things can go wrong in reality, the other person could back out (and alert someone of your plans as well), they could feel pressured to go through with it when the time isn't right for them, either of you could fail and then you could possibly get in trouble etc.

In a way there is also something beautiful about going out with someone like that. It is the closest you could be to a person, even if they are a total stranger, you are making the choice to leave this world with them. Dazai is an interesting character that's for sure. Would totally accept his "offer".

Also, I like your profile picture!

I've had similar thoughts. The romanticized Romeo and Juliet style. Being so close, in the end. A rare type of intimacy. It can be poetic in its execution, but as you say, in reality, it almost never lives up to the dream, and can go wrong in numerous ways.

I also appreciate Dazai, and the thought of Double Suicide has a certain appeal. But if I met someone I'd be willing to die with, I think I'd want to know them better and try to live with them in my life first. Maybe they'd be the puzzle piece I'd long been missing. It'd be a shame not to at least give it a shot and see where things lead.

 

[Slasher]

my ex that I am still very close to have talked about this idea a lot, she brought it up to me one day and I can see where she is coming from. if it's the right person I wouldn't be repulsed by the idea. she described it as just a date, one that never ends.

 

[unrest]

Probably not, I feel like the idea of a partnered suicide I have in my head is way too much of a romanticized version. A lot of things can go wrong in reality, the other person could back out (and alert someone of your plans as well), they could feel pressured to go through with it when the time isn't right for them, either of you could fail and then you could possibly get in trouble etc.

In a way there is also something beautiful about going out with someone like that. It is the closest you could be to a person, even if they are a total stranger, you are making the choice to leave this world with them. Dazai is an interesting character that's for sure. Would totally accept his "offer".

Also, I like your profile picture!

lmao id totally accept his offer too. i love your profile picture too! from one aiko lover to another.

Dazai is an interesting case. The characters in Bungo Stray Dogs are based on real life writers, and their most famous work. The real life Osamu Dazai did indeed kill himself, but only after 40 or so failed attempts.

In the series, he talks about suicide all the time and makes half-hearted attempts constantly, but he does not actually want to die. Dazai is sociopathic. He has extremely limited empathy, so whether he does good or bad, it doesn't matter. Doesn't concern him. This is why he was villainous, at first, in the Port Mafia. He's cold, and his "cheery" persona is all just an act. Though I suspect he loves fucking with/annoying people, because in some manner he lives vicariously through others, so making others react, lets him feel alive to some small degree. Dazai had a dear friend who died, and that friend told him that it's because he feels completely empty inside, that he can choose what he wants to be. The type of man who hurts others, or the type of man who helps/uplifts others. His friend had him promise that he'd be the type of man who helps/uplifts others. He knew Dazai would feel nothing either way, so he nudged Dazai towards the path of at least being a better man and positive influence to others, rather than a heartless killer.

Dazai has never genuinely wanted to die. He's just empty. The type of guy who thinks "If I die, I die. Oh well." And so he teases the option because he feels a little alive for a moment, at the cusp of death. He basically plays russian roullette. Ultimately though, the high wears off and he gets bored of being at the cusp of death, and goes to do other stuff to pass the time.

I've had similar thoughts. The romanticized Romeo and Juliet style. Being so close, in the end. A rare type of intimacy. It can be poetic in its execution, but as you say, in reality, it almost never lives up to the dream, and can go wrong in numerous ways.

I also appreciate Dazai, and the thought of Double Suicide has a certain appeal. But if I met someone I'd be willing to die with, I think I'd want to know them better and try to live with them in my life first. Maybe they'd be the puzzle piece I'd long been missing. It'd be a shame not to at least give it a shot and see where things lead.

holy shit i loved this dazai analysis so much. thank you so much for this comment for it weirdly made my day…

 

[ctb-soon]

Yes ….

 

[enough of this]

It would have to be very special circumstances, but yes, probably, under the right conditions.

 

[ctb-soon]

It sound like a really romantic concept. I would definitely do it, but the risk of one surviving is still something concerning to me.

It does sound like a romantic concept. I doubt I would survive

 

[wristcutangel]

in an ideal situation, although there's far too many things that could go wrong with it in reality. but maybe i'd be fine with doing it in a group or someone i love as long as it's a surefire method.

 

[LadyOfLight]

No, too many variables, and if it doesn't work as expected you could be charged with literal murder, the thought alone is terrifying for me to even consider it, and finally, I don't think I could verify that this person won't do anything bad to me

 

[Pipsqueak!]

In a perfect scenario, I would.

 

[SexyIncél]

just a thought that came to mind. give your thoughts, experiences maybe. to be honest this thought began when i watched bungo stray dogs. one of the main characters, dazai, has a obsession with suicide and the act, however frequently brings the idea of a partnered suicide. i never really understood why, however im open to discussion.

Certainly would die partnered. Fortunately, I have enough mental clarity to make it nice for the other person, beautiful, even fun if they want. Die with a bit of humor, a bit of wistfulness, as we quit some universe that's frankly beneath us

Yes, behind the scenes, I'd investigate & plan carefully. So it's smooth & simple on the day. I'd ideally wish to die second, just a little bit later, to ensure they stop breathing; don't want them waking next to a corpse

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Helping people die in the greatest way possible is an interesting thought experiment. If they wanted, I could interview them about their story; writeup their experiences; immortalize their perspectives. For those on the fence, I could help them decide if death is really what they want; they could ask me to investigate their lives & offer them the best arguments for living

For a few days, we could do what society should've done half the days of their lives. Form a last good look of this universe, before we end sentience

And if it's time for them to go, they know I'd carefully research & practice the method they want... so they can just lie back safe

 

[ANONYMOUSM]

yes absolutely i would love another person there to push me through my ctb method

 

[diviosd]

just a thought that came to mind. give your thoughts, experiences maybe. to be honest this thought began when i watched bungo stray dogs. one of the main characters, dazai, has a obsession with suicide and the act, however frequently brings the idea of a partnered suicide. i never really understood why, however im open to discussion.

Maybe, but probably with someone I know/am close to instead of with a stranger

 

[DazaiKinnie]

just a thought that came to mind. give your thoughts, experiences maybe. to be honest this thought began when i watched bungo stray dogs. one of the main characters, dazai, has a obsession with suicide and the act, however frequently brings the idea of a partnered suicide. i never really understood why, however im open to discussion.

Maybe only if I can trust that person. Speaking of partenered suicide.
Wouldn't you like to join me in a double suicide?(If you know the reference I made)
Ok, jokes aside. This needs to be taken ver seriously. There are many things that can go wrong alone, but with another person they double, unless there is a method of high lethality for both of you like CO poisoning then I don't see how it will work.

 

[Peerless_Cucumber]

I actually talked with my Ex about this because he seemed into it. Now that I think about it he was most likely only into it because of his admiration for Dazai. He was pro life seeing as he texted me one night so that I would persuade him to admit himself into the psychiatry. Surprise I didn't. I was traumatized in there. Catching the bus is a way better alternative than admitting oneself. However I noticed that he was pro life then. So ctbing together was of the table anyways.

I feel like at this point I actually don't care if I do it alone or with another person. I just wouldn't want them to be pro life. Because then I know they wouldn't chicken out of it.

Edit: I'm disagreeing with a lot of answers here. I wouldn't care that I helped someone to ctb if I were to survive. They wanted to ctb. They'd have done it with or without me. I didn't kill them. They catched the bus. I was just too slow to catch up. I'd be much more disappointed in my ctb failing than wasting time caring about someone elses success.

 

[Dead Already]

Brett Stevens is a textbook example of how it can work. He partnered up thanks to SS and they successfully ctb in an Airbnb in Scotland.
I'd consider it with a partner only if I knew them pretty well and trusted them completely.

Trust would be everything, absolutely

 

[eashanm]

Yeah a suicide pact appeals to me as it allows for greater accountability.

 

[Stormy Raine]

I couldn't do it. If someone survives they could be charged with a crime. I'd hate to be the one that makes it. Suicide is a personal and confidential decision, I would tell anyone.

 

[WonderingSoul]

Yeah I would

 

[wqrm]

just a thought that came to mind. give your thoughts, experiences maybe. to be honest this thought began when i watched bungo stray dogs. one of the main characters, dazai, has a obsession with suicide and the act, however frequently brings the idea of a partnered suicide. i never really understood why, however im open to discussion.

Probably yeah. I might need someone to really help me go through with it. Tbh I'd want to get to know the person first though

 

[mono]

I talked about it with a really close friend but I'm not sure if I'd ctb with him, just because if one of us lives then that will cause a lot of problems.

 

[ctvunny]

I would, especially if they have a gun lol but we need to be friends first for good measurement.