Honestly you would have to pay me a lot of me so that I would go to one. I am really scared about poverty but I would not even go to one for lets say 200 euros.
I think it would be for me extreme torture. I feel so ashamed that I am a total wreck. I would meet all my bullies who have succeeded to destroy me. I struggle and suffer every single day a lot. Also because of their horrible treatment. I think I would lie a lot at this reunion. Act as if everything was okay. I absolutely don't know how I could hide my completely odd biography since I quit school. One of my best friends once met a bully of mine. He told him the truth that I do a low-level job. I was pretty angry about that. I don't want my bullies to know that. Many of my bullies came from rich families probably many of them have WAY WAY better life quality than me. I don't know. I would probably fantasize to shoot myself in the head to traumatize some people who bullied me if I went there. Which was like almost everyone at a certain age. But obivously I would never do that. I would also be scared they would laugh about it anyway. And upload it on the internet.
Yeah this thought is not that healthy I know. But I am quite traumatized. I would not even go to it if I had (on the surface) an amazing life. I want to forget these people. I don't want to have the feeling I had to impress them what I did by losing a lot of weight. But these people are garbage I should not waste time thinking about them. Though it is true these people still haunt me in my nightmares.
I would be extremely anxious if I was forced to go to such a meeting. I am so insecure and need the affirmation of other people. These people have broken me. I don't want them to know that. I don't want to give them this power and satisfaction. Here was once a pretty popular members. He is now in recovery and offline. Matt aka Wornoutlife confronted one of his bully on facebook I think. He wanted to insult him what an asshole he was. His bully seemingly has a pretty tough life, low income, parent and felt sorry. I think Wornoutlife even told him that he is mentall ill because of it. I would be way too scared to admit that. I think my bullies were monsters. Why should they have changed? Maybe they would still make fun of me. And this anxiety that other people mock me is very depp entrenched in me. It is also part of my psychotic paranoia.
Would you ever go to a class reunion? Maybe you can share your experiences?
Sorry I accidentally had a swear word in the title. I deleted it. Sorry. I apologize for it.
I think it would be for me extreme torture. I feel so ashamed that I am a total wreck. I would meet all my bullies who have succeeded to destroy me. I struggle and suffer every single day a lot. Also because of their horrible treatment. I think I would lie a lot at this reunion. Act as if everything was okay. I absolutely don't know how I could hide my completely odd biography since I quit school. One of my best friends once met a bully of mine. He told him the truth that I do a low-level job. I was pretty angry about that. I don't want my bullies to know that. Many of my bullies came from rich families probably many of them have WAY WAY better life quality than me. I don't know. I would probably fantasize to shoot myself in the head to traumatize some people who bullied me if I went there. Which was like almost everyone at a certain age. But obivously I would never do that. I would also be scared they would laugh about it anyway. And upload it on the internet.
Yeah this thought is not that healthy I know. But I am quite traumatized. I would not even go to it if I had (on the surface) an amazing life. I want to forget these people. I don't want to have the feeling I had to impress them what I did by losing a lot of weight. But these people are garbage I should not waste time thinking about them. Though it is true these people still haunt me in my nightmares.
I would be extremely anxious if I was forced to go to such a meeting. I am so insecure and need the affirmation of other people. These people have broken me. I don't want them to know that. I don't want to give them this power and satisfaction. Here was once a pretty popular members. He is now in recovery and offline. Matt aka Wornoutlife confronted one of his bully on facebook I think. He wanted to insult him what an asshole he was. His bully seemingly has a pretty tough life, low income, parent and felt sorry. I think Wornoutlife even told him that he is mentall ill because of it. I would be way too scared to admit that. I think my bullies were monsters. Why should they have changed? Maybe they would still make fun of me. And this anxiety that other people mock me is very depp entrenched in me. It is also part of my psychotic paranoia.
Would you ever go to a class reunion? Maybe you can share your experiences?
Sorry I accidentally had a swear word in the title. I deleted it. Sorry. I apologize for it.
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