The abuse I experienced wasn't as severe compared to stories of other people on here. Someone who I really liked on this forum shared that their therapist raped him.
I can remember I was given up by a therapist in 2019 because I was a hopeless case. This sort of traumatized me. But the psychotherapy afterwards was really good. I had scars but in some way I was in the process of healing.
Half a year ago something very sick happened. My relation with my therapist wasn't good but I never expected she would do something like that. After an argument she announced to write lies in my medical records and implied no one will believe a patient with psychosis. I think afterwards I made a very good job. I only communicated through mails and my therapist contradicted herself in so many ways. The complaint that I handed in is scrutinized currently. It passed the first hurdle. (they say many complaints don't take that hurdle.) I think I will hand in two more documents to make my smoking gun even worse for her.
The time when we exchanged mails was stressful as fuck. I knew if I become paranoid or even when I only appear paranoid it is over for me. I took so much addictive emergency medication.
My therapist called my psychiatrist to get her on her side. Which she achieved. I could make it clear to my psychiatrist that she is lying. And I think my psychiatrist got the message. In my last appointment I told her that the actions of my therapist resulted in a breach of trust in the psychiatry and psychotherapy. I don't want to blame my psychiatrist I really like her. She is way more professional and highly intelligent. Honestly, I cannot imagine going back to a clinic. I didn't tell her that explicitly but it is the truth. I know have bad entries in my medical records now what if someone else tries to take advantage of that. My aunt tried it which was so fucked up. Despite the fact the conflict happened a couple of months ago I haven't processed it. I would not want to go to a clinic. I would have to open up how much this conflict burdens me. And there was no ruling thus far. What if a appear paranoid about the conflict then I have an issue. My psychiatrist didn't like I reported her. The staff in the clinic wouldn't like it either. I am pretty sure there would be comments just because you had an argument you filled a complaint. No, she fucking announced to write lies in my medical records and told me no one will be believe me due to my conditions. This is so fucked up. In therapy you are in such a vulnerable stage. Can you imagine the mental damage she has caused. I might will never do therapy or go to clinics because of her. I almost killed myself in 2024.
I called the patient councellor of the chamber of psychotherapist. We called 3 times. The first time he was compassionate and it helped me to process it. The second time he seemingly forgot me was so dismissive and fucking arrogant. Called her actions a misuderstanding. This hurt extremely much because the first time I called really helped me so much. I also became emotional when he was so dismissive.
I was really postive about the health care system in my country. And I couldn't understand the opinions on here. But now after all of this I also started to doubt all of this. So fucking sick...
I can remember I was given up by a therapist in 2019 because I was a hopeless case. This sort of traumatized me. But the psychotherapy afterwards was really good. I had scars but in some way I was in the process of healing.
Half a year ago something very sick happened. My relation with my therapist wasn't good but I never expected she would do something like that. After an argument she announced to write lies in my medical records and implied no one will believe a patient with psychosis. I think afterwards I made a very good job. I only communicated through mails and my therapist contradicted herself in so many ways. The complaint that I handed in is scrutinized currently. It passed the first hurdle. (they say many complaints don't take that hurdle.) I think I will hand in two more documents to make my smoking gun even worse for her.
The time when we exchanged mails was stressful as fuck. I knew if I become paranoid or even when I only appear paranoid it is over for me. I took so much addictive emergency medication.
My therapist called my psychiatrist to get her on her side. Which she achieved. I could make it clear to my psychiatrist that she is lying. And I think my psychiatrist got the message. In my last appointment I told her that the actions of my therapist resulted in a breach of trust in the psychiatry and psychotherapy. I don't want to blame my psychiatrist I really like her. She is way more professional and highly intelligent. Honestly, I cannot imagine going back to a clinic. I didn't tell her that explicitly but it is the truth. I know have bad entries in my medical records now what if someone else tries to take advantage of that. My aunt tried it which was so fucked up. Despite the fact the conflict happened a couple of months ago I haven't processed it. I would not want to go to a clinic. I would have to open up how much this conflict burdens me. And there was no ruling thus far. What if a appear paranoid about the conflict then I have an issue. My psychiatrist didn't like I reported her. The staff in the clinic wouldn't like it either. I am pretty sure there would be comments just because you had an argument you filled a complaint. No, she fucking announced to write lies in my medical records and told me no one will be believe me due to my conditions. This is so fucked up. In therapy you are in such a vulnerable stage. Can you imagine the mental damage she has caused. I might will never do therapy or go to clinics because of her. I almost killed myself in 2024.
I called the patient councellor of the chamber of psychotherapist. We called 3 times. The first time he was compassionate and it helped me to process it. The second time he seemingly forgot me was so dismissive and fucking arrogant. Called her actions a misuderstanding. This hurt extremely much because the first time I called really helped me so much. I also became emotional when he was so dismissive.
I was really postive about the health care system in my country. And I couldn't understand the opinions on here. But now after all of this I also started to doubt all of this. So fucking sick...
