Would you discard your method of CTB if your psychiatrist asked you to?

[lili]

Curious what people would do if you slip up and tell your psychiatrist you still have the tools needed to CTB. Would you listen to the psychiatrist and as promised throw it away before the next appointment? If they mention they will send you to the hospital if you don't do it?

Or would you try to lie and still keep it, but go to the appointment regardless?

 

[Cathy Ames]

Does your psychiatrist give you "therapy" or are they just a prescriber?

 

[lili]

I'm really confused because I thought he was a psychiatrist but he asked to meet with me three times a week. So I guess does therapy and prescriptions?

 

[sealbabies]

I'd be lucky to be given the chance if I messed up that bad. I'd just probably change locations and do it as soon as possible at that point.

 

[LifeHasNoOptIn]

My general rule is never tell an authority of any kind anything that might be used against you in any way, but I would probably opt for lying if I did slip up and reveal it.

 

[MatthewV3]

Well, I was at my new psychiatrist just today, and I told him about everything. About my attempts and my plans. But I was in the hospital 3 times already, because each time I attempted I left a letter online and somebody called the police. I told him that on straight way to CTB (I don't have any substances yet) and that I'm afraid that I may succed. He gave me new perscriptions (Pregabalin and Escitalopram), and I'm supposed to go for a daily therapy, everyday from Monday to Friday. I would never go back to hospital because this is so pointless. I've spent there a month and it didn't help me at all, I came out in the same state as in the day the of my suicide attempt.

 

[Symbiote]

Sure, I'll sign his bullshit promise not to harm myself note and mutter in my head, "You ain't my daddy bitch"

 

[BigG91]

My psychiatrist asked me if i was suicidal because i was probably depressed and he prescribed me an extra pill for that which i felt didn't do anything other than make me feel weak.

Anyways i think it's not a good idea to tell your psychiatrist about your plans or methods. I think it's best to say you have suicidal thoughts if you are seeking for help and want to be helped

 

[lili]

My general rule is never tell an authority of any kind anything that might be used against you in any way, but I would probably opt for lying if I did slip up and reveal it.

I agree. I'm just such a bad liar. It was all very impulsive what I did in telling the psychiatrist knowing I shouldn't. So hard everything.

Well, I was at my new psychiatrist just today, and I told him about everything. About my attempts and my plans. But I was in the hospital 3 times already, because each time I attempted I left a letter online and somebody called the police. I told him that on straight way to CTB (I don't have any substances yet) and that I'm afraid that I may succed. He gave me new perscriptions (Pregabalin and Escitalopram), and I'm supposed to go for a daily therapy, everyday from Monday to Friday. I would never go back to hospital because this is so pointless. I've spent there a month and it didn't help me at all, I came out in the same state as in the day the of my suicide attempt.

It's so terrible to get the police called sorry you went through that. I've been through similar as well in and out of hospitals. So I want to do whatever it takes to not go back.

My psychiatrist asked me if i was suicidal because i was probably depressed and he prescribed me an extra pill for that which i felt didn't do anything other than make me feel weak.

Anyways i think it's not a good idea to tell your psychiatrist about your plans or methods. I think it's best to say you have suicidal thoughts if you are seeking for help and want to be helped

Yeah I wonder if pills do much if the suicidal thoughts are very intense. It's not a good idea your right I did impulsively by accident.

But that's a good point if you want to be helped. I don't know if I want to be helped or not. I guess I want both options, I want to be helped but I want to make sure I have a way out if I don't like it all. I can just not be good at lying at times.

 

[Freedomindeath4me]

People really exaggerate how bad psych wards are imo. I've been 7 times over 4 different facilities in 2 states. I don't give a fuck if they get me again. Just talked all manner of shit with my case worker today. IDGAF

 

[houseofleaves]

Would you listen to the psychiatrist and as promised throw it away

absolutely not. i'm not letting my money go down the drain

If they mention they will send you to the hospital if you don't do it?

what i would do in this case is imitate getting "better" day by day and not wanting to CTB. then i tell my doctor "thanks i'm cured killing yourself is so stupid!!!", i do everything i planned to do before dying and then i CTB in peace, without any nosy people threatening me with a hospital stay.

 

[deathbydragon]

I would never talk to a psychiatrist about anything lmao.
Honestly, if you tell them about your plans, that comes across as a subtle ask of them to stop you.
People who are committed to ctb know full well you can't talk to an authority figure about it at all.
If you do talk about it, they will interpret that as you don't want to do it, and make it far more likely they'll resort to forced hospitalisation.

 

[todestrieb]

nnnno. My doctor knows. My doctor knows what I'd do if I was going to. He knows it wouldn't matter if he took one thing from me because I have another. Maybe I have a weird relationship with my doctor but he'd never ask me to get rid of anything lol

 

[CrazyNihilist]

I told mine that the rope (in my avatar pic) is still up in the mountains where I left it. She never asked me to take it down, but definitely noted my comment in the charts. I think she considers me a higher risk, because I still have the plan and method available to me with just a short hike. I fully intended on succeeding that day, but my GF came home early and found the note where I said she could find my truck. She showed up with a police canine officer and I knew that dog could find me before I hung long enough to die. Fear of years as a vegetable made me stop my attempt, but it is still available anytime I want it.

 

[houseofleaves]

Honestly, if you tell them about your plans, that comes across as a subtle ask of them to stop you.
People who are committed to ctb know full well you can't talk to an authority figure about it at all.

++++++ THIS

 

[todestrieb]

Not necessarily. I talk about things candidly because that's who I am. I also have an advanced degree in psychology for some reason unknown to the universe. Some people just vibe off track from the norm.

 

[lili]

Hey thanks all.

I think for me I guess I overcomplicate myself because I feel I have always wanted to die done a bunch of attempts in the past, nearly died sometimes. I guess I tried to do it but it was one of the only times that it was in front of me the SN and all I had to do was drink but I didn't do it.

I think I have a constant internal battle. One is telling me that what is the point, hating on myself, why continue with all the harm I cause and the people I push away. My family doesn't care about me I don't have a support group. Feel alone, and I think many people see me as an acquaintance so they won't care.

But for some reason there is this really really deep hidden desire to somehow be saved. And while that is small it somehow exists and I don't even know why there is that speck of hope for. I mean is life worth it that much? But it's still there somehow.

So I guess a part of me wants to see if I try to get help ? Mostly because I mean if I don't hurry up and do it I might as well somehow try again to fix my broken brain. But I've tried all medications and hospitalizations and they don't work.

But the other part wants to still keep the SN, because if that doesn't work the meds I really want to exit because I feel I've tried too much.
I feel it won't work, but I guess im just doing it.

So i guess I somehow have to lie. I just don't like lying in general. It makes me uncomfortable. I have a lot of messes in my life because I don't lie it can really fuck you over I wish I could learn how to lie better.

 

[dontknowwheretoturn]

I'm really confused because I thought he was a psychiatrist but he asked to meet with me three times a week. So I guess does therapy and prescriptions?

A psych would probably call the hospital and have them take you in if you mentioned you were going to

 

[WorthlessTrash]

If they suddenly produced the technology that SOLVED my problem and put me in the correct body, sure.

On the basis of going on medication and COPIUM? Lolno.

Then again, I wouldn't tell them I intend to CTB in the first place.

 

[Idontmatter]

The problem with some of the so called therapists and other doctors is they are in it to make a profit. They are not there for the patient. It might not be all but all the ones I have dealt with don't seem to have empathy. That's one reason I've given up. When I was in a mental facility for a week it felt like a prison and even with insurance I had to pay a shit load of money.

 

[Judy Garland]

No.