notverylucid
Truth is... the game was rigged from the start
- Aug 18, 2023
- 66
If I was mentally and physically healthy, then I don't think I would even be myself. For my whole adult life and most of my teenage years, I've been severely depressed, to the point that it's become a part of myself. Once all the childhood glamour disappeared, I was just left with depression. It honestly scares me thinking of not being depressed, because I don't know what would be left of me. A soulless void existing simply on the basic mechanisms that sustains itself, like an animal that lives solely by instincts. So I wish that I never had existed.