Would you choose death instead of homelessness?

[Alwaysbadtime]

I say yes. I was almost homeless two weeks ago. I live with a really dysfunctional toxic bf. He implies he will still kick me out. Things are very very bad everyday. I have no income, neither does he. I spend two hours in my car and I practically shit myself. I know I need to go. Absolutely. I am not the delusional homeless people who have signs that say "homeless, not hopeless". My mom is very rich, sends money but it won't last forever. She is also delusional and suggested I move to a trendy town and work at a wine bar. Ummmm I scraped shit off toilet seats at retarded people's apartment not because I wanted to, I didn't pass up any normal good jobs for that one. My mom is like "you need to figure out what you are going to do or you will be living in your car" Fucking bitch. Bf says he is giving it 60 days, probably 40 left. He is always spoutiwng life advice...asks me today what my personal goals are for next week. Anyway. Yes I want to escape before homeless. I don't want the internet to report my departure and also point out my homeless status.

FUCK this shit. I have to basically suck mad dick (not literally) to stay here and it fucking sucks every second. Being alone in my shitty car....would be fucking IT.

 

[wanttodie]

definitely rather die than live homeless

 

[socrates]

I've heard some people choose to be homeless. I guess it really depends on where you live in the world. But I'd choose death, especially considering where I live. My life is bad enough I don't need an extra thing to worry about or in this a case a bucket lot of things to worry about.

 

[torimandy]

I have been homeless. Homelessness drove me into prostitution. It's a big part of what has made me who I am. I would catch the bus before I was asked to leave.

 

[Stroopwafel.]

There was a serious chance I would become homeless like 1/2 months ago. I made the agreement with myself to not let that happen and ctb before getting homeless. I'm 100% I would have done it if it really came to the point of me getting homeless. In the end they found a place for me to go to and I didn't become homeless tho.

 

[ClownMe]

I would definetly ctb. Living life with a roof over your head isnt living, being homeless is something below living.

 

[NextSummer]

Homelessness is the one reason for me to ctb. I am here for this reason. There is a quite a chance that I might end up homeless.

You will shiver in the winter and get wet during rain. Every night you will get no sleep because I will be afraid of being attacked. At day, you have nothing to do, which means nagging boredom. A lot of time to think about you being a failure. Of course, sometimes you become like an animal, looking for places to spend your night and finding something to eat. You are in survival mode.

Every animal is allowed to build a nest, but humans in modern times are barred build a tent and seek shelter for buerocratic reasons. They want to force you into the smelly, bug-ridden shelters, with aggressive alcoholics where they steal your mobile phone and shoes while you are asleep. If you decline staying in shelter, they will say it was your choice to live on the street and blame you - they provided a place! You will not be worthy of empathy then.

When I see people helping people in far away countries, like building schools, I am like: "These people have houses and many of them are poor but happy. Two streets from here lives a man in agony and hell. Why not build houses for them?". But it's not heard. Problem is, once you are homeless, you can even get a home again (if you are lucky), or have to endure the hell, or if you suicide, have no other options than hanging and jumping in front of a train. It's cruel. Peaceful methods only for those who have a house mostly.

 

[slyna]

I became homeless while working a full time job. My ex kicked me out of our home. I was embarrassed so I did not tell anyone and lived out of my car. I crashed mentally and tried to kill myself. Ended up in psych ward. Homelessness sucked. I don't think I could do it again.

How?

 

[toforigivelife]

I find it so baffling that homeless people don't ctb. Like, you've literally got NOTHING. No home, no money, no family/friends who care enough to let you stay with them, yet they still go on living?? Crazy. I would deffo ctb.

Just another example of how deep the primal fear of death that humans have can go.

 

[Zzzzz]

I'm about to be faced with that choice very soon. I hope I will overcome SI and not allow myself to suffer homelessness.

 

[heretogethelp]

Homelessness is increasing in many countries. Poverty is increasing in rich countries. These people have no money and no social contacts. Young people become homeless and old people can not afford to pay the rent. There are people who live as homeless for many years, until they die. I see homeless people every day, they are looking in the garbage, wandering around and some of them are sleeping on the street. Every week I use to see a homeless man with a long beard sitting on a bench. But there are people who commit suicide the day before they will become homeless and I would do the same. What would you do in that situation?

I would 100%, too.

 

[Snake of Eden]

I was to become homeless last December when the eviction mortarium was lifted and I got an order to evict my apartment for not paying rent for 7 months. I moved back to my home country to avoid the eviction. I didnt think at the time of ctb because I had the option of moving but if I would had to stay there and face homelessness I would have preferred ctb over facing homelessness of course.

 

[Sra_TZ]

Thinking about it now, yes, I would choose death over homelessness every time but my opinion wasn't always as such.

Back in my teen years, I used to be homeless from time to time- getting thrown out by my mum's various boyfriends and sometimes running away. I was a rebellious teenager to say the least. Suicide was always at the back of my mind, but something in me made me want to fight back. I wanted to show them that I could survive. It wasn't about living, it was about biting through the pain. I never told people much about it. In my rebellious eyes, asking for help was asking for sympathy and I didn't freaking want to be pitied. I'd sleep wherever I could, sometimes go for a while without food, hide the marks of abuse as best as I could, and in the best circumstances, crash at a friend's place. Thinking back on it, I was always prepared to some extent..

Moved in with a relative eventually but all the aforementioned went on for quite a while.

Anyways, enough ranting. I have built an okay life for myself and the nature of hardly ever relying on anyone lives on in my adult self. Always prepared for the worst is one way to put it though my ultimate goal is to ctb. If faced with homelessness tomorrow, I would straight out pick suicide.

Apologies for such a long reply, it's just that the topic of homelessness really hit close to home.
~S

 

[superbad]

My mother has recently threatened to kick me out, but I still have my dad even if she does. I don't know what I would do if both of them rejected me, given that I'm unable to keep a job.

 

[DEATH IS FREEDOM]

If I know that I will be homeless tomorrow, I would be motivated to commit suicide before that happens.

 

[Leavesfromthevine]

Weirdly enough when I was homeless before I was happier compared to now. I don't know if it was the lack of responsibilities and being able to travel whenever. Money wasn't an issue as I made enough to live just without the comfort of a home.

All that said I would still ctb but homelessness wouldn't impact it that much

 

[Gonnerr]

It depends how and where you do it , for me being homeless , i would try it before ctb.

Only one place i would do it, North Vancouver, british columbia , Canada where the bus drops you at the base of a vast mountain forest on each side of the city where you can sleep in a tent at night and wake up in the morning and go in the city for the homeless service.

Ive been hiking a lot when i lived there and i know some good spot to do it where there is water coming down from the mountain almost year round.

 

[leavingthesoultrap]

I couldnt survive being homeless. So yeah

 

[leloyon]

Probably. I would rather just die and get it over with than be homeless here, which would probably result in me getting beaten up and mugged constantly, if not even sexually abused.

 

[Raindancer]

This scares me and keeps me up at night. I have health issues and could never live on the streets. If there was a way for me to get a minivan, or turn my current SUv into a home I could do it, but I couldn't live on the streets.

My heart goes out to those who have been. i too wonder how so many keep a happy disposition and continue. I try and help the people I come into contact with because but for the grace of God go I. It could so easily be me.

 

[DEATH IS FREEDOM]

This scares me and keeps me up at night. I have health issues and could never live on the streets. If there was a way for me to get a minivan, or turn my current SUv into a home I could do it, but I couldn't live on the streets.

My heart goes out to those who have been. i too wonder how so many keep a happy disposition and continue. I try and help the people I come into contact with because but for the grace of God go I. It could so easily be me.

You can write to me.

 

[Spiritual survivor]

I've been trying to learn about it from YouTube, to see how to survive



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[Rher]

I would ctb, it would end it faster. But I can't say having nothing to do all day but starve sounds better than a life full of work, lies, and responsibilities. That's just me rambling, I would probably ctb though from the regret and pain.

 

[steppenwolf]

Homelessness is increasing in many countries. Poverty is increasing in rich countries. These people have no money and no social contacts. Young people become homeless and old people can not afford to pay the rent. There are people who live as homeless for many years, until they die. I see homeless people every day, they are looking in the garbage, wandering around and some of them are sleeping on the street. Every week I use to see a homeless man with a long beard sitting on a bench. But there are people who commit suicide the day before they will become homeless and I would do the same. What would you do in that situation?

Having a home is just one of many privileges of civilization. Your home might be a cardboard box. Or it might be a condominium in Beverly Hills. Either way, it's not for anyone to judge whose life is or isn't worth living. There are millionaires who commit suicide.

A more salient question might be: how much privilege are you accustomed to that you can't live without it?

 

[Spiritual survivor]

Having a home is just one of many privileges of civilization. Your home might be a cardboard box. Or it might be a condominium in Beverly Hills. Either way, it's not for anyone to judge whose life is or isn't worth living. There are millionaires who commit suicide.

A more salient question might be: how much privilege are you accustomed to that you can't live without it?

Nice perspective

 

[LaVieEnRose]

I choose death over going to the dentist

 

[RUPA]

I've been trying to learn about it from YouTube, to see how to survive



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thanks for the videos! they both are valuable tips

 

[Raindancer]

You can write to me.

Thank you very much! I appreciate that!

 

[Mäximum]

I would definitely ctb. I always see homeless people when I walk somewhere because I live in a busy area and I just can't understand how they can continue life. Then I imagine myself being in such a situation and the only way I can think of to escape this situation is to ctb.

 

[Praestat_Mori]

Yes, suicide is preferable to homelessness in any case, at least for me. A honorable suicide is always the better option instead of becoming homeless and having to suffer even more hardships in life.