
LONE WOLF.
PUNISHER.
- Nov 4, 2020
- 1,990
If l could come back as a T-800 then yes l'd be willing to return from the dead, if not then the only afterlife l want is over Rainbow Bridge with my 2 Staffies (My idea of Heaven)
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Bobby who blazes brightly, lots of people have such wonderful lives, shame is those people are not us. I almost think there is some kind of light that shines down on others, giving them every good thing. That light never shown on me. Hell, I guess some of our lives are just for the purpose of punishing our asses. Although, personally, I'd love to know what the hell I did to deserve this damnable life I now possess.No. I'm too exhausted and just want to not exist. I hate my parents for bringing me into this slaughter house prison. Asshole breeders. I'm so glad I don't have kids and didn't foist this shit on someone else. I couldn't live with the guilt.
Thanks for expressing yourself, having an intellectual disability myself, I understand. I was scammed by religion, and chose to believe with all my heart for decades, and here I am. I had no idea that there were other people that couldn't blend into the job force because of the same problems until I came to this forum. This life has ended up being mostly hell for me, and I actually thought I would be a happy billionaire right now enjoying my justice & saving the world, but I still cannot even save myself. Like you said, if only you new the truth from the beginning, I wish the same thing. Now that I now the truth of how life is, its too late. But, anyway, thanks for sharing.It really depends. If its the candy land full of rainbows that religions claim, then yes, without a doubt, but if god exists and despite all this crap, I meet the requirements, then still I don't think I'd be allowed in the cloud kingdom or wtf ever. If this god person exists, then he/she must really hate me. However, I'm leaning towards the atheist side. I think it's a really stupid idea that puts false hope in peoples head and stops them from having fun. Believing in God is extremely damaging. If you're around a believer you've likely been told, "God helps those who help themselves" "God only gives us what we can handle" "You hear god with your heart" "Just have faith(and probably something about things turning out for the better because of god.etc)" "All good things come from god" your life circumstances are "part of god's plan" .etc Everything there is extremely untrue of how the world works.
1."god helps those who help themselves"-first of all, I try to help myself all the time and my life is still garbage. I've been bullied and fired at almost every job I've taken. I joined a workforce program for 9 weeks at a great job where people were kind. But it turns out they can only hire me 1 day a week and my parents are forcing me to move out in 4 months, so thats not an option. I have very few choices with my intellectual disability and the salary I need requires a lot of mental demand or physical labor and I can't really give either and not burn out. I'm in school too, but can only afford most of an associate degree and there are few design jobs out there without a bachelors, Once we add my retardation to the mix, that pretty much sets me up for either never finding anything or having no choice but to take on too much and getting bullied and fired. I could save up for the User interface design program at career foundry, but that's WEBDesign basically and I 1. suck at technology and 2. UH HELLO! I'm RETARDED?! Those technology geeks are sporting iqs of at least 110. My mild retardation is 80 something maybe less. Meaning I could only do about 70 percent of that job at my full mental capacity. Who uses their full mental capacity ALL THE TIME?! Thats how you burn out. I have no good choices no matter what I do. Does that sound like divine intervention to you?! No. Unless that divine intervention is the middle finger in my face.
2. "God only gives us what we can handle" -If I could handle my circumstances, I wouldn't be on here looking for the methods thread. Unless you want to suggest this isn't from god, in which you would imply that god doesn't control reality. That statement would contradict the gods plan quote that Christians like to throw around. So Which is it?! Is god not able to help anyone (There's no point in praying) OR Does god pick a few people, give them a dream life and then fuck perfectly nice people like me over and dangle the privileged in front of my face for some cruel reason? Yeah, explain Jesus freaks. Explain.
3. "You hear god with your heart" My heart says this life hasn't been good for 18.5 out of the 23.5 years I've lived it and it will only get worse because of the abuse and termination that keeps happening at jobs. My parents are forcing me out, so I face possible homelessness and a lot of stress. I'm not talented, intelligent or qualified enough to succeed in graphic design or User Interface design. So I have no hope or faith. And if I did, it wouldn't change anything.
4. "Just have faith(and probably something about things turning out for the better because of god.etc) Bringing me the next point: Faith is giving yourself delusional hope that will result in disappointment later. There's a certain point when faith reaches its limits, and you have to start protecting yourself emotionally. Things don't get better for some people and believing something outlandish just because it's reassuring, isn't going to change that. So many very stupid people believe that it will though.
5. "All good things come from god" your life circumstances are "part of god's plan" Wow well since the only good thing I have is my friends and I acquired them by being a nice person and attracting another nice person and that person's friends, then that tells me god gave me nothing. And to think all this crap is what god wants for me: being retarded having pcos ( a metabolic condition that makes me physically uncomfortable, very fat regardless of what I do and makes my mood disorders worse) then god must really have it out for me. Oh and to top it off(I know you're all thinking that I'm either down on myself or lying about being retarded) NO ONE believes me when I say I'm retarded and they have these high expectations of me in jobs and stuff and I can't meet any of them. God must want to drive me away, so he doesn't have to spend eternity with me. Or God doesn't exist. I grew up with very religious parents who tried to brain wash me and I figured out the truth for what it was. This life is garbage and religion has damaged me so much. I wish my parents had been atheist's and just told me the truth. And the sad thing is, I feel like because of my upbringing, I need something to cling onto and reassure me, but there's nothing stable. The closest thing is ctb and if there was another life where everything is okay. But I know everyone who thinks there is believes in the god who either doesn't exist or exists and will send me to hell regardless. I want to just never have existed to begin with.
Exactly. We should ctb together...if you want. Idk it's scary but it will be worth it when the suffering and cruelty is over. Once I'm in a good place financially, I'm ordering a lethal dose of SN. what's your intellectual disability? I have ADHD-primarilly inattentive type. I don't come off as disabled so people expect me to preform average and above average.Thanks for expressing yourself, having an intellectual disability myself, I understand. I was scammed by religion, and chose to believe with all my heart for decades, and here I am. I had no idea that there were other people that couldn't blend into the job force because of the same problems until I came to this forum. This life has ended up being mostly hell for me, and I actually thought I would be a happy billionaire right now enjoying my justice & saving the world, but I still cannot even save myself. Like you said, if only you new the truth from the beginning, I wish the same thing. Now that I now the truth of how life is, its too late. But, anyway, thanks for sharing.
I believe I have high functioning autism. I have not been diagnosed, but I'm 1000% sure. Also, because I have had major medical problems, and have been on a high dosage of prednisone (a steroid) for years in the past, I think that could have also messed up my brain with severe brain fog. I got other issues like major depression, and severe social anxiety/panic disorder.what's your intellectual disability?
fixated on this idea at the moment. like there are two paths in front of me. i choose one path, i kms and reincarnate. i choose the other, i live to experience unimaginable hells and absorb the suffering of every living being in every dimension and timeline possible.Oh good Lord, no. Nothingness suits me fine. Western people who talk about reincarnation tend to ignore the bit in the Hindu/Buddhist source material about how being reborn is a great misfortune, and the entire point is to avoid having that happen.
Imagine coming back to this place again and again and again for most of eternity … I don't get how anyone can find that idea reassuring.
Are you ever afraid of an afterlife?I find the thought of any kind of life after this one to be something so horrific. Of course I wouldn't be happy. I just want to cease to exist and be completely unaware of everything, the thought of that is so incredibly ideal to me and is what I see as being perfection. I simply just despise life itself and that is what I've always had a problem with. There is no need to be conscious and aware of anything and it would had been better off if life was never a thing at all. But I really do believe that we just cease to exist after we die and that thought is the only thing that could ever be close to a comfort.
No, as I very strongly believe that we just cease to exist when we die. To me any afterlife is just a fictional concept.Are you ever afraid of an afterlife?
God I hope you're rightNo, as I very strongly believe that we just cease to exist when we die. To me any afterlife is just a fictional concept.
I would take that over my current situationonly if it was a guaranteed paradise. Imagine getting reborn into a meat suit again and somehow your luck is so bad you get skinned alive by a Mexican drug cartel.