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LONE WOLF.

LONE WOLF.

PUNISHER.
Nov 4, 2020
1,990
If l could come back as a T-800 then yes l'd be willing to return from the dead, if not then the only afterlife l want is over Rainbow Bridge with my 2 Staffies (My idea of Heaven)
 
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BlazingBob

BlazingBob

Wizard
Oct 28, 2021
609
No. I'm too exhausted and just want to not exist. I hate my parents for bringing me into this slaughter house prison. Asshole breeders. I'm so glad I don't have kids and didn't foist this shit on someone else. I couldn't live with the guilt.
 
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makethepainstop

makethepainstop

Visionary
Sep 16, 2022
2,029
No. I'm too exhausted and just want to not exist. I hate my parents for bringing me into this slaughter house prison. Asshole breeders. I'm so glad I don't have kids and didn't foist this shit on someone else. I couldn't live with the guilt.
Bobby who blazes brightly, lots of people have such wonderful lives, shame is those people are not us. I almost think there is some kind of light that shines down on others, giving them every good thing. That light never shown on me. Hell, I guess some of our lives are just for the purpose of punishing our asses. Although, personally, I'd love to know what the hell I did to deserve this damnable life I now possess.
 
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V0id_He4rt

V0id_He4rt

Mors Meta Malorum
Dec 20, 2022
6
Honestly if there was another life after this, I would want to have memories so I would know how to not fuck up everything again... But realistically speaking, I believe that we as humans are only the consciousness that is made by our brains, so after the brain dies, we would just disappear, no heaven/hell/eternal sleep/void...
If there was another life, please let it be a good world though
 
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CandyCane

CandyCane

Student
Mar 11, 2022
143
If I could be free from my physical suffering, yes.
 
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Schatten

Member
Dec 25, 2021
9
No, I wouldn't be to be honest.
 
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BurningMan

Member
Dec 25, 2022
41
Probably not. I like the idea of there being nothing after I pass. The idea of a dark abyss where I am nothing gives me such a relief over myself that I almost feel content. The thought of having to navigate through this cruel world once again - or for eternity- sounds horrendous. Our planet is already being ruined and the greed of society continues to do more damage than good and I don't see it improving anytime soon.
 
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Idontmatter

Just want it all to be over
Oct 25, 2021
647
I'm probably the odd ball but I wouldn't mind having a different life. It's definitely a gamble but there is maybe a chance of having a better life and actually seeing what it would be like to be happy. I guess I'll be finding out in a few days.
 
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ikadasui

ikadasui

Arcanist
May 29, 2018
464
Yes, but I don't want to come back to this planet. Surely there is plenty of other places who can beat by this space rock by any margin, I mean the bar is in the dirt here...
 
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Why Me?

Experienced
Apr 5, 2022
270
It really depends. If its the candy land full of rainbows that religions claim, then yes, without a doubt, but if god exists and despite all this crap, I meet the requirements, then still I don't think I'd be allowed in the cloud kingdom or wtf ever. If this god person exists, then he/she must really hate me. However, I'm leaning towards the atheist side. I think it's a really stupid idea that puts false hope in peoples head and stops them from having fun. Believing in God is extremely damaging. If you're around a believer you've likely been told, "God helps those who help themselves" "God only gives us what we can handle" "You hear god with your heart" "Just have faith(and probably something about things turning out for the better because of god.etc)" "All good things come from god" your life circumstances are "part of god's plan" .etc Everything there is extremely untrue of how the world works.

1."god helps those who help themselves"-first of all, I try to help myself all the time and my life is still garbage. I've been bullied and fired at almost every job I've taken. I joined a workforce program for 9 weeks at a great job where people were kind. But it turns out they can only hire me 1 day a week and my parents are forcing me to move out in 4 months, so thats not an option. I have very few choices with my intellectual disability and the salary I need requires a lot of mental demand or physical labor and I can't really give either and not burn out. I'm in school too, but can only afford most of an associate degree and there are few design jobs out there without a bachelors, Once we add my retardation to the mix, that pretty much sets me up for either never finding anything or having no choice but to take on too much and getting bullied and fired. I could save up for the User interface design program at career foundry, but that's WEBDesign basically and I 1. suck at technology and 2. UH HELLO! I'm RETARDED?! Those technology geeks are sporting iqs of at least 110. My mild retardation is 80 something maybe less. Meaning I could only do about 70 percent of that job at my full mental capacity. Who uses their full mental capacity ALL THE TIME?! Thats how you burn out. I have no good choices no matter what I do. Does that sound like divine intervention to you?! No. Unless that divine intervention is the middle finger in my face.

2. "God only gives us what we can handle" -If I could handle my circumstances, I wouldn't be on here looking for the methods thread. Unless you want to suggest this isn't from god, in which you would imply that god doesn't control reality. That statement would contradict the gods plan quote that Christians like to throw around. So Which is it?! Is god not able to help anyone (There's no point in praying) OR Does god pick a few people, give them a dream life and then fuck perfectly nice people like me over and dangle the privileged in front of my face for some cruel reason? Yeah, explain Jesus freaks. Explain.

3. "You hear god with your heart" My heart says this life hasn't been good for 18.5 out of the 23.5 years I've lived it and it will only get worse because of the abuse and termination that keeps happening at jobs. My parents are forcing me out, so I face possible homelessness and a lot of stress. I'm not talented, intelligent or qualified enough to succeed in graphic design or User Interface design. So I have no hope or faith. And if I did, it wouldn't change anything.

4. "Just have faith(and probably something about things turning out for the better because of god.etc) Bringing me the next point: Faith is giving yourself delusional hope that will result in disappointment later. There's a certain point when faith reaches its limits, and you have to start protecting yourself emotionally. Things don't get better for some people and believing something outlandish just because it's reassuring, isn't going to change that. So many very stupid people believe that it will though.

5. "All good things come from god" your life circumstances are "part of god's plan" Wow well since the only good thing I have is my friends and I acquired them by being a nice person and attracting another nice person and that person's friends, then that tells me god gave me nothing. And to think all this crap is what god wants for me: being retarded having pcos ( a metabolic condition that makes me physically uncomfortable, very fat regardless of what I do and makes my mood disorders worse) then god must really have it out for me. Oh and to top it off(I know you're all thinking that I'm either down on myself or lying about being retarded) NO ONE believes me when I say I'm retarded and they have these high expectations of me in jobs and stuff and I can't meet any of them. God must want to drive me away, so he doesn't have to spend eternity with me. Or God doesn't exist. I grew up with very religious parents who tried to brain wash me and I figured out the truth for what it was. This life is garbage and religion has damaged me so much. I wish my parents had been atheist's and just told me the truth. And the sad thing is, I feel like because of my upbringing, I need something to cling onto and reassure me, but there's nothing stable. The closest thing is ctb and if there was another life where everything is okay. But I know everyone who thinks there is believes in the god who either doesn't exist or exists and will send me to hell regardless. I want to just never have existed to begin with.
Thanks for expressing yourself, having an intellectual disability myself, I understand. I was scammed by religion, and chose to believe with all my heart for decades, and here I am. I had no idea that there were other people that couldn't blend into the job force because of the same problems until I came to this forum. This life has ended up being mostly hell for me, and I actually thought I would be a happy billionaire right now enjoying my justice & saving the world, but I still cannot even save myself. Like you said, if only you new the truth from the beginning, I wish the same thing. Now that I now the truth of how life is, its too late. But, anyway, thanks for sharing.
 
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outrider567

Visionary
Apr 5, 2022
2,859
No, I had a good life and it was then taken away from me--No 'other life' could come close to what I once had
 
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Krieger

Krieger

yeah
Apr 16, 2022
120
Yes if I get to choose where I live, what my life is like, and what I look like. Kinda like a character creation screen in a video game.
 
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Braindead Atheist

Braindead Atheist

Specialist
Oct 7, 2020
387
Thanks for expressing yourself, having an intellectual disability myself, I understand. I was scammed by religion, and chose to believe with all my heart for decades, and here I am. I had no idea that there were other people that couldn't blend into the job force because of the same problems until I came to this forum. This life has ended up being mostly hell for me, and I actually thought I would be a happy billionaire right now enjoying my justice & saving the world, but I still cannot even save myself. Like you said, if only you new the truth from the beginning, I wish the same thing. Now that I now the truth of how life is, its too late. But, anyway, thanks for sharing.
Exactly. We should ctb together...if you want. Idk it's scary but it will be worth it when the suffering and cruelty is over. Once I'm in a good place financially, I'm ordering a lethal dose of SN. what's your intellectual disability? I have ADHD-primarilly inattentive type. I don't come off as disabled so people expect me to preform average and above average.

And we're supposed to have empathy for our abusers because WE'RE hard to deal with?! Really?! They're being awful intentionally. WE have to break our necks just to make small improvements with our issues. So who should have empathy for who? Ridiculous....

Er...I can't even have one little thing. I tried to go to an all ages open gym to practice and theres stupid kids everywhere. Unlike SOME people, I try to have empathy. I really don't like kids, because I think the whole world caters to them and because of that other things go ignored.

Like yes, help guide them while their brain is developing, be understanding, make sure they're safe, but don't give them so much that there's nothing left for other demographics(groups of people) who are REALLY struggling.

Kids are sheltered and some of that is good, but they start being unprepared for the real world when everyone is bending over backwards for them and censoring everything. As someone who is retarded, adult life kicked my ass. I have to work even harder with significantly less support and grace. No one put it in those terms for me though until I was maybe 20.

It would be nice to just have a safe place to go be carefree, which adults are judged for doing. EVERYONE should have the right to be carefree without judgment. I think there should be adult camps, adult halloween, and adult easter eggs. If i or any of my adult friends want to go tumble, we should have a space.

There's only 1 gym in the state (ks) with an open class. And kids always hog all the "all ages" gyms. I don't want to hate kids but I'm not sure I can just ignore all the inconveniences they cause and how they tend to kill my spirit at times.

What do I do? I avoid them and try to make myself look to busy to talk. If they do try to annoy me, I'm pleasent, friendly and empathetic. I give them five minutes of my time and usally by that time their parents will step in and say something. See? I'm a reasonable person. If only people in the work force were the same.
 
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Why Me?

Experienced
Apr 5, 2022
270
what's your intellectual disability?
I believe I have high functioning autism. I have not been diagnosed, but I'm 1000% sure. Also, because I have had major medical problems, and have been on a high dosage of prednisone (a steroid) for years in the past, I think that could have also messed up my brain with severe brain fog. I got other issues like major depression, and severe social anxiety/panic disorder.
 
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LookingforAnswers

LookingforAnswers

Student
Mar 15, 2022
113
Yes.

If i could go back to my life before suffering with the knowledge i have now I think i wouldve lived a phenomenal life. And for that i hope i get another shot.

I wasnt done with this fucker yet
 
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throwawayyy

Member
Jun 21, 2022
49
After death I would rather my existence to be how it was before birth - nothing
 
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spoiledsick

spoiledsick

bones to earth, back to god, i'm sick of waiting.
Jan 4, 2023
30
Oh good Lord, no. Nothingness suits me fine. Western people who talk about reincarnation tend to ignore the bit in the Hindu/Buddhist source material about how being reborn is a great misfortune, and the entire point is to avoid having that happen.

Imagine coming back to this place again and again and again for most of eternity … I don't get how anyone can find that idea reassuring.
fixated on this idea at the moment. like there are two paths in front of me. i choose one path, i kms and reincarnate. i choose the other, i live to experience unimaginable hells and absorb the suffering of every living being in every dimension and timeline possible.
 
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WorthlessTrash

WorthlessTrash

Worthless
Apr 19, 2022
2,431
Reincarnate me as the correct sex under decent circumstances, and I'll be happy.
 
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Leiden

Arcanist
Sep 1, 2020
435
No, I just want nothingness so, so, SO bad.
 
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myownpetvirus

21st Century Lobotomy
Dec 29, 2022
230
Hell fucking no I don't care how good it is. I do not want an eternity of conscious thought.
 
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Simurgh

Member
Jan 6, 2023
27
A solid percentage of the world's population do not have reliable access to clean drinking water. Most of the population live in poverty or slavery. Assuming the reincarnation process is random, any one of us would be far more likely than not to end up worse off than we already are.

If that weren't the case? Then sure.
 
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neoyokio

Member
Oct 16, 2022
36
I would absolutely not want to come back to earth. So many things about humanity are heartbreaking to me, especially now the world with Covid. I feel like anything I try to imagine that would happen to my "spirit" or whatever you want to call the metaphysical aspect of ourselves that might be there is very limited and I'm not going to guess what it could be, sooo… not knowing what that is, I think I'd rather there be a total cessation of my being. But i suppose there's a part of me that's just curious, since we don't know, and that curiosity is almost like wanting something cool to happen? Lol
 
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absurd_to_the_end

Member
Feb 1, 2020
36
No way, I'm having enough problems with this one.
 
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Chronicillness

Chronicillness

Experienced
Jun 19, 2018
236
only if it was a guaranteed paradise. Imagine getting reborn into a meat suit again and somehow your luck is so bad you get skinned alive by a Mexican drug cartel.
 
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myownpetvirus

21st Century Lobotomy
Dec 29, 2022
230
I find the thought of any kind of life after this one to be something so horrific. Of course I wouldn't be happy. I just want to cease to exist and be completely unaware of everything, the thought of that is so incredibly ideal to me and is what I see as being perfection. I simply just despise life itself and that is what I've always had a problem with. There is no need to be conscious and aware of anything and it would had been better off if life was never a thing at all. But I really do believe that we just cease to exist after we die and that thought is the only thing that could ever be close to a comfort.
Are you ever afraid of an afterlife?
 
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jay308

Member
Jan 16, 2023
58
no please no
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
43,431
Are you ever afraid of an afterlife?
No, as I very strongly believe that we just cease to exist when we die. To me any afterlife is just a fictional concept.
 
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myownpetvirus

21st Century Lobotomy
Dec 29, 2022
230
No, as I very strongly believe that we just cease to exist when we die. To me any afterlife is just a fictional concept.
God I hope you're right
only if it was a guaranteed paradise. Imagine getting reborn into a meat suit again and somehow your luck is so bad you get skinned alive by a Mexican drug cartel.
I would take that over my current situation
 
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minka

New Member
Jan 23, 2023
2
I hope not. I'm just so tired of living and the reason as to why I wish to go through with this is so that I can rest. I genuinely just want to rest.
 
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