I am already thinking the answer will be a definitive no, but I'd like to ask on the off chance: I have access to quetiapine, clonazepam, desipramine, and amitriptyline, among other medications I know would not be helpful. Is there any chance this could aid me in ctb? I have another idea to use these medications to simply lose consciousness in a body of water and let drowning occur. This could be easily accomplished in the bath, but I will not subject my partner to finding me, so I would have to go to a nearby lake, river, or pond and try to time it perfectly which would be awfully tricky.
I have been backed into a corner. I truly do not want to die, and I think this is the worst part. My heart is broken for the years that have been taken from me. Doctors have let me worsen and worsen until I can no longer bear it. I can't eat anymore without extreme consequences. My life has been taken from me, violently. There is one last shot tomorrow but if I face another dismissal, I will have no choice. I'd like to get my favourite pizza and a pint of ice cream and eat them near a body of water and then ctb right after. Things are so severe right now I will not even have time to say proper goodbyes. I can't believe this is what has happened to me after 13 years of fighting through mental illness.
I have been backed into a corner. I truly do not want to die, and I think this is the worst part. My heart is broken for the years that have been taken from me. Doctors have let me worsen and worsen until I can no longer bear it. I can't eat anymore without extreme consequences. My life has been taken from me, violently. There is one last shot tomorrow but if I face another dismissal, I will have no choice. I'd like to get my favourite pizza and a pint of ice cream and eat them near a body of water and then ctb right after. Things are so severe right now I will not even have time to say proper goodbyes. I can't believe this is what has happened to me after 13 years of fighting through mental illness.
