would it be selfish to commit myself to a mental hospital?

[throwaway_accountbro]

I don't know.

I was planning on getting extremely drunk and hanging myself but I don't know anymore. A part of me wants to have a future, but the other part of me can't see my future because catastrophic paranoia and bad timing with all this quarantine won't let me. I just want to end it all. I don't know if it would be selfish to go to a mental hospital but it'd also be selfish to hang myself right now.

 

[GoodPersonEffed]

How would it be selfish to go to a mental hospital?

 

[throwaway_accountbro]

How would it be selfish to go to a mental hospital?

because there's people who need it more, and there's a huge epidemic going on

 

[Mm80]

Mental hospitals have lots of people (although not all) who have tried to ctb, many as a cry for help..Your being honest enough not to take the chance of risking a medical hospital bed and getting straight to the problem. If anything thats less selfish and if you want the help you should defo present yourself.

 

[Qbert]

You can show up at the er, but there's no guarantee of being admitted. Are you in a high covid area?

 

[throwaway_accountbro]

You can show up at the er, but there's no guarantee of being admitted. Are you in a high covid area?

I might be

Either way I'm getting drunk tonight and attempting, and if not tonight definitely tomorrow

 

[KleinerWolf]

I might be

Either way I'm getting drunk tonight and attempting, and if not tonight definitely tomorrow

If you think you are at risk at suicide,
you need to check yourself in a hospital or at least speak with someone who can physically help you.

You said part of you wants to have a future, suicide is the end. We are adults here and we all know there's no going back in terms of suicide.
It depends how strong the suicidal urges are. The stronger, the more urgent it is to get help ASAP.

I might be

Either way I'm getting drunk tonight and attempting, and if not tonight definitely tomorrow

Covid19 taking up ER resources seems like an annoyance.
But don't let it stop you from getting help.

 

[Myforevercharlie]

Nothing selfish about it, if you really want to live go!!

 

[GoBack]

It's not selfish. In my country they are worried about people not seeking help for other health problems because of covid. I read somewhere there were more empty beds in one hospital than ever before.

 

[oneess]

It's not selfish at all, in my country all the mental hospitals are handling the covid19 situation, so no time is wrong, go for it

 

[BPD Barbie]

To be blunt, you're contemplating suicide but also contemplating help, I don't think it's a waste of a bed, beds are available for people in crisis, people who desperately need and want help, people in yours and similar situations. It's not selfish at all. Don't think that for a second.

 

[Squiddy]

If you want to go, I say go. I don't think it's selfish at all

 

[noaccount]

Selfish? No.
But there's a real increased risk of coronavirus in those places.
And also they have the legal authority to do a lot of destructive, violent, assaultive things to people inside.

 

[Sad_Autistic_boy_101]

No it isn't selfish. To be honest I would admire you. I am not able to get myself to a mental hospital due to the stigma that people related to me put on mental health and how they treated me after my past attempts. I'm sorry you are hurting. This may be a chance for you to finally get some help and have some assistance fighting a battle in your head.

 

[terry_a_davis]

OP you say a part of you wants a future, seeking help might realize this. It's not selfish if you're suicidal, mental hospitals are meant to help people like you. If you go in voluntary you can leave at any time and nothing will be forced on you.

 

[Celeste]

Hello, it is not selfish. Not at all. Please go to a mental hospital if that is what you need. If you decide to end your life, that is another decision that is up to you. You have to be sure though. I also have horrible paranoia and depression and life, society just makes it a lot harder to cope. Please take care and best of best♡

 

[PartingGlass]

Nah, I say go for it. I just got out of a week long stay in one, myself. It helped a little I guess.

 

[kerokeroka]

It would be more selfish that you chose to end your life before doing something that might help.

Depending on the situation you might bring some "shame" to your family depending on where in the world you came from if you institutionalize yourself but ultimately you have to do whats best for you since you're really the only person who can do that.

 

[BeeLoyal]

because there's people who need it more, and there's a huge epidemic going on

I don't think thats true. When you're sort of suicidal you need it more than most people.
Wish you the best of luck, peace