My last boyfriend broke up with me because he got so depressed from being worried about whether or not I might kill myself. I'm still horribly guilty about it, and I make a point not to be too honest or revealing about my suicidal ideation with anyone.
I'm dating someone else now (fucking irresponsible of me, I know..). I did tell him that I still think about it sometimes, and he knows I went to the hospital twice for it. He swears up and down that he doesn't mind being there for me, but that's what the last guy said. I'm afraid I'll hurt him, too. So I'm really careful not to reveal too much about my feelings.