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Would it be enough to overcome your SI?

  • Yes

    Votes: 55 88.7%
  • No

    Votes: 7 11.3%

  • Total voters
    62
Barteljaap

Barteljaap

Member
Jan 17, 2021
78
I'm afraid that my SI is so strong that if I were to end up homeless, I would end up freezing to death rather than killing myself.
Which is obviously more painful.
I feel I'm only becoming more and more psychologically broken as time goes on. It's hard to tell the future, but if things keep going downhill I might not be able to hold down a job anymore.
 
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junko

junko

carving my name in the grave again
Mar 16, 2023
78
I was homeless for a few months and it almost did.

Now I'm at risk of being homeless again and, yeah, it's a pretty big motivator in me wanting to CTB. I'm gonna do it before it gets to that point.

I only survived last time because I was lucky enough to live in an area full of kind people and was clinging on to hope.

Where I live now, people are pure trash. The sort of people who actively swerve out of their way just to hit puddles so pedestrians will get splashed. (And I know it's intentional because 4 different cars have attempted this with me. I grew up in an area with people like this, so I know how to avoid it at this point.)

I'd definitely find some way to CTB if I were homeless here.
 
FuneralCry

FuneralCry

She wished that she never existed...
Sep 24, 2020
34,001
Homelessness sounds horrific, just the fact that such a thing exists just proves that this world certainly is hell. If I ended up in that situation, I would have to find a way to finally exit even know suicide is purposely made so difficult in this world.
 
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Dead Ghost

Dead Ghost

Mestre del Temps
May 6, 2022
1,332
I don't need to do the CTB, it is obvious that I would endure few days if I were homeless... I would simply die, I am too weak to live on the street. It is an issue that worries me because I still do not have enough resources to be self-sufficient and at the moment I do not generate wealth by myself, as I depend on my mother, and she is 79 years old... let's say that there is a countdown to find a solution to my personal situation and that the CTB is always present as an emergency exit.

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No cal que faci el CTB, es evident que aguantaría pocs dies si fos un sensellar... simplement moriría, sóc massa débil per viure al carrer. És un tema que em preocupa perquè encara no tinc prou recursos per ser auto-suficient i de moment no genero riquesa per mi mateix, doncs depenc de ma mare, i ella té 79 anys.. diguessim que hi ha un compte enrere per trobar una sol·lució a la meva situació personal i que el CTB sempre hi està present com a sortida d'emergència.
 
Kanashii

Kanashii

Somehow living, not dead yet.
Mar 16, 2023
18
I'm afraid that my SI is so strong that if I were to end up homeless, I would end up freezing to death rather than killing myself.
Which is obviously more painful.
I feel I'm only becoming more and more psychologically broken as time goes on. It's hard to tell the future, but if things keep going downhill I might not be able to hold down a job anymore.
Honestly same here. Unless there was some dramatic change that would make me want to kill myself in that situation. I'd just be more likely to die due to the cold or not having enough food. Starving myself to death, not out of choice.
 
PurpleParadigm

PurpleParadigm

The glow is an illusion
Mar 22, 2023
201
Many years ago I was an inch away from being homeless and totally broke. I'm about to potentially blow up my career by changing a job from perm to contract. For anyone else it would be good news because blah blah pay blah blah career growth. For my mentally ill barely functional ass I think taking on the more demanding and less secure job will end in getting fired. Combine with more bullshit that was happening I might end up on the streets in about 1-3 years.

Actually not scared about that. During my bad mental episodes I went without food, forgot about hygiene, haven't turned oin heat in winter. I just don't care and nothing makes me happy or feels like a necessity. So idk, I'd feel like I deserved it and maybe fighting for survival would feel like something.

Just want my SN really.
 
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WorthlessCoward

Specialist
Mar 21, 2023
301
Where I live now, people are pure trash. The sort of people who actively swerve out of their way just to hit puddles so pedestrians will get splashed. (And I know it's intentional because 4 different cars have attempted this with me. I grew up in an area with people like this, so I know how to avoid it at this point.)

Hey you also live in a third world hellhole?
 
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Ernest1964

Specialist
Jan 6, 2023
331
I used to be a case worker / counselor for homeless adults and teenagers. I know that there are so many programs and systems in place that I don't think that being homeless would be that difficult for me. That being said, I don't think that my pride and self respect would be strong enough endure and that I WOULD rather CTB if I ever became homeless.
 
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nosoul

Arcanist
Apr 1, 2023
454
I'm afraid that my SI is so strong that if I were to end up homeless, I would end up freezing to death rather than killing myself.
Which is obviously more painful.
I feel I'm only becoming more and more psychologically broken as time goes on. It's hard to tell the future, but if things keep going downhill I might not be able to hold down a job anymore.
I feel this way, only I don't think I can hold down existing anymore