Venting Worthless

[Lazy]

There is genuinely nothing that I am capable of or am good at and that is not limited to my marketable skills but everything. I can't talk to people, not only that but I'm stuck in limbo between desperately needing social interaction and absolutely botching it every time I get the chance. I'm shit at any physical activity besides maybe carrying semi-heavy objects which is just pathetic considering it is entirely my fault for not training and just being better. Generally there is no real excuse for me being worthless at everything I am just lazy and a bitch. I'm technically studying but practically doing the bare minimum to not disappoint my parents. I just don't understand what the point in my existence is, as said before, I am worthless and unwilling to change that so my continued stay on this planet is nothing but a waste of resources and mental energy of people who deserve better. Sorry for my shit writing :)

 

[katara]

Did you struggle with this at a young age? Bc I've come to the conclusion a lot of problems I have with socializing are caused by my upbringing.

 

[Lazy]

Did you struggle with this at a young age? Bc I've come to the conclusion a lot of problems I have with socializing are caused by my upbringing.

Honestly I did, I was always considered shy and also my constant desire to please everyone around me is something I grew up with. However a big part of my problems also comes from the constant overthinking I do.