Worrying over silly things ? (Post-ctb)

[xLosthopex]

I keep obsessing over what I need to do in preparation for ctb in terms of deleting certain things off my phone, for example embarrassing photos or notes that I don't really want police/authorities/family members etc analyzing post-ctb… Or what accounts I need to delete, like I want my Instagram and Facebook, and even my account on this site to be kept up but I dunno I'm stressing out because I feel like I've an infinite number of accounts on various different sites, dating apps, email accounts, app subscriptions… and the thought of people scrutinizing and investigating every single thing on my devices, mostly just out of cringe factor and general personal privacy…
Like how much do you think authorities will look into your phone/computer during the investigation of an obvious ctb ? Do I really need to be meticulous in deleting every single cringey thing off my devices ?
It's just like a lot of stress and effort for someone with 0 energy or motivation to do anything, like I'll probably end up leaving my room in the mess it's in which I feel bad about but I just have such limited ability to do anything productive

Sorry I feel like this post is really poorly written and articulated, but my brain is mush

 

[BluesRunTheGame]

Stop overthinking. Stop it right now.

 

[avoid_slow_death]

Deep breath. Hold it. Hold it. Let it out slowly. OK.

Look, you have all the time you need to prepare. Just calmly and rationally go through all the things you feel you must get done. Now, prioritize them by order of importance and once you do, go about doing each one separately, thoughtfully and carefully. You can do this!

 

[FuneralCry]

Of course you will not be alive at that point, but I understand why you would be stressed about it. It really is difficult doing things when you have no motivation. I wish you the best.

 

[xLosthopex]

Stop overthinking. Stop it right now.

 

[bed]

You don't have to do it all at once. You can take as much or as little time as you need.

 

[Undead]

Eu continuo obcecado sobre o que preciso fazer na preparação para ctb em termos de excluir certas coisas do meu telefone, por exemplo fotos embaraçosas ou notas que eu realmente não quero que a polícia / autoridades / membros da família etc analisem pós-ctb ... Ou o que contas que preciso excluir, como quero que meu Instagram e Facebook, e até minha conta neste site sejam mantidos, mas não sei, estou estressado porque sinto que tenho um número infinito de contas em vários sites diferentes, aplicativos de namoro, contas de e-mail, assinaturas de aplicativos ... e a ideia de pessoas examinando e investigando cada coisa em meus dispositivos, principalmente por motivo de constrangimento e privacidade pessoal em geral ...
Por exemplo, quanto você acha que as autoridades examinarão seu telefone / computador durante a investigação de um ctb óbvio? Eu realmente preciso ser meticuloso ao excluir todas as coisas estranhas de meus dispositivos?
É como muito estresse e esforço para alguém com 0 energia ou motivação para fazer qualquer coisa, como se eu provavelmente acabasse saindo do meu quarto na bagunça em que me sinto mal, mas tenho uma capacidade limitada de fazer qualquer coisa produtivo : aw:

Sinto que esta postagem está muito mal escrita e articulada, mas meu cérebro é uma bagunça

I feel the same way, I also have to solve this kind of thing... But I don't have the motivation, nor the desire to do anything. You have to calm down, take a deep breath. The way is to do it little by little ...

 

[Chockles]

I obsess about the same things. I intend to close my fb, Instagram & any dodgy drug apps once N arrives. On day I plan to do my goodbye thread on here & delete account & emails. If there's nothing left of my life I'm hoping it'll make it easier to go through with necessary deed I've already destroyed my tablet. I need to close my monzo account all other finances & possessions already taken care of left note for my parents to deal with.
I had thought getting rid of my phone beforehand would be s good idea but I'd like to go to sleep on N to some favourite reggae music with a picture if my departed dog as my screensaver.
I'm undecided whether to leave separate suicide note for police with method & more lengthy letter for my folks maybe in an envelope telling them it's not their fault etc & how much I love them. Otherwise apart from waiting on N arriving I'm almost prepared to go.

 

[BottomlessPit]

Most new smartphones have an encryption feature, which you either have to activate, or it already came shipped encrypted. With a strong enough password it'll be difficult if not impossible to retrieve your data.

 

[Pluto]

I like to write a list of things to organise and make sure everything important is covered. I think there's less worry once something is written down and accounted for. :)

 

[Cheers]

If you have a decent password i don't think they'll go through the trouble of hacking it or something. I did some research and it's not exactly easy to log into a device you don't have the password to so i'm not worrying about my phone.
You can also put individual passwords to apps, this way even if people do manage to get inside your phone they'll be stopped again before accessing the app and they'll probably get the message you don't want them to look at it (if they have any respect for the deads they'll give up).

 

[xLosthopex]

If you have a decent password i don't think they'll go through the trouble of hacking it or something. I did some research and it's not exactly easy to log into a device you don't have the password to so i'm not worrying about my phone.
You can also put individual passwords to apps, this way even if people do manage to get inside your phone they'll be stopped again before accessing the app and they'll probably get the message you don't want them to look at it (if they have any respect for the deads they'll give up).

Yeah I guess I'm really just wondering like how much effort they(the police) put in to an investigation after a person is found dead but it's an obvious ctb… like even after the autopsy rules it ctb do you think they would still look into your phone to try found out the 'why' of the ctb?
Like I guess I'm just thinking of all those articles you see attacking this site because they obviously looked at the persons phone and saw they were using the site,
Or else to try find out how I got the N etc.

 

[Chockles]

Yeah I guess I'm really just wondering like how much effort they(the police) put in to an investigation after a person is found dead but it's an obvious ctb… like even after the autopsy rules it ctb do you think they would still look into your phone to try found out the 'why' of the ctb?
Like I guess I'm just thinking of all those articles you see attacking this site because they obviously looked at the persons phone and saw they were using the site,
Or else to try find out how I got the N etc.

I'm planning to delete my search engine I use to access as & other dodgy stuff (not google) on the day I say goodbye. I've also deleted youtube videos on exit international related content & N euthnenasia clinics. Otherwise I'm just deleting apps or convos associated with my drug vendor. I doubt they'll go into great detail for a suicide. I just dont want them finding I took N too quickly incase they try to bring me out of a coma in hospital.

 

[Midgardsorm]

Im my case I already deleted most of my things from internet. But I had few things. like Facebook, I deleted earlier this year when I almost attempted because I didn't want people posting on my dead profile.
I don't want "Oh why he done that?" posts.

For e-stuff I put all my stuff on a cloud storage account I keep mostly nothing on phone. People won't know your account so they will have no way of knowing where are your things. I can still get it while I'm alive.
I actually have two cloud storage accounts, one has txts for password and accounts so I can remember everything. I just need to remember the password for that one in case I forget something.
Also I create some kind of code that I know, like if my password is 1234 I put xx34 I will remember the first two numbers.

I don't have any more accounts on dating apps or social media, but i guess it's just remember the ones you used and delete first.

For other websites, if you delete you search engine they won't find your accounts, such as this website, they will not know that you have accessed and even if they do, they won't know your logins/emails let alone your password.

Just delete any way of knowing the things you had that it's fine. For photos, put everything on cloud storage and delete from devices and it's good.
When you go, just wipe hd and phone.

 

[DontGiveAshiit]

its pretty easy actually, just smash your phone and laptop with a hammer

 

[Tempest]

Don't know how many people have iPhones, but Apple doesn't give access to the deceased's phone even to surviving family. You can take off fingerprint or facial recognition in case police try to use your dead body at the scene to unlock your phone, but that's pretty ghoulish even for cops and probably illegal. If you put a secure password on your iPhone then no one is getting into it after you're gone.

 

[Chockles]

its pretty easy actually, just smash your phone and laptop with a hammer

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I want to listen to favoiritr music on my phone before I go into an N sleep tho. Already smashed up my laptop.

 

[Hurt]

It's strange for me. The more days pass the less I care about my life.