Worried about my dead body being ugly

[goingoutinstyle]

One main thing I'm worried about with ctb is that when people find my body I don't want it to look gross, and, well, dead—just thinking about my corpse riddled with pallor mortis, livor mortis, and vein discoloration, let alone bloating and putrefaction, is horrifying to me. I have body dysmorphia and an eating disorder so I feel like I already look like enough of a monster in my alive state

The best solution I can think of is just to have my body be discovered as soon after death as possible, but timing is fickle, especially with drugs...

 

[WornOutLife]

I can relate.
I used to be quite worried about the way my body would be found but...do I really care? I mean, I'll be dead and won't have an active brain nor consciousness, so, it's okay.

Anyway, I hope you can deal with those phobias somehow.

Hugs and love,

Matt

 

[goingoutinstyle]

I used to be quite worried about the way my body would be found but...do I really care? I mean, I'll be dead and won't have an active brain nor consciousness, so, it's okay.

Yeah, that makes sense. It's evil how insecurities follow us even into death :(
I've tried to use the same logic to justify how if I'm not there to witness people's grief than I shouldn't worry about it, but that's kind of an entirely different ordeal lmao.
Thank you for the response <3

 

[sully]

I can relate too. I don´t care how other people see me, I just don´t want to scare people who know me... But there is no way to look elegant when you're dead so... I just try not to think about it.

 

[FuneralCry]

Yes, I can relate. It is an unpleasant thought, others seeing my dead body. I do not like to think about the whole dying process and what happens after. I wish when I die I could just disappear. I guess by that point I will no longer be alive though.

 

[stygal]

I can relate too. I don´t care how other people see me, I just don´t want to scare people who know me... But there is no way to look elegant when you're dead so... I just try not to think about it.

This.
Having already seen a few dead bodies: Nobody is going to look "fresh" in the end so you might as well shut this thought out.

Best case scenario: you get found quickly and immediately transported to the mortician and even then most people will be kinda unpleasant to look at.

Just imagine you'll stay exactly the same to not make it even harder on yourself.

 

[peacefulhorizons]

Everyone's dead body looks "ugly". Doesn't matter if you are a celebrity or a billionaire. It's the circle of life.

 

[Worndown]

No dead body looks good because...they are dead. Death does not become us.

 

[xLosthopex]

Lol same, I told my parents to make sure to have a closed casket at my funeral

 

[Makko]

I'd enjoy rising as a putrid rotting zombie and eating some brains.

 

[snxw]

ive always been afraid of this too. its probably the thing that scares me the most about death tbh. i dont want anyone to see me i want to instantly turn into ash or a clean skeleton. its the most undignified vulnerable position anyone can be in. i hope we both get over these thoughts eventually.

 

[Worndown]

Just stipulate cremation. It is cheaper too!

 

[Jumping_realms]

One main thing I'm worried about with ctb is that when people find my body I don't want it to look gross, and, well, dead—just thinking about my corpse riddled with pallor mortis, livor mortis, and vein discoloration, let alone bloating and putrefaction, is horrifying to me. I have body dysmorphia and an eating disorder so I feel like I already look like enough of a monster in my alive state

The best solution I can think of is just to have my body be discovered as soon after death as possible, but timing is fickle, especially with drugs...

The only good thing about this is once someone CTB, they no longer will have one more though about it, ever. Any thought for that matter.

I certainly don't want to traumatize anyone, but as far as the state of my body after death, I'll know not a thing about. That leads me to not really care about the method all that much.

What would bother me is if I were to use SN, would be seeing blue fingernail beds and lips/skin. I'd rather not go out like that, although 25 min of that is nothing vs years of misery. I'd still probably have to not look and just turn out the lights and listen to music or something.

 

[goingoutinstyle]

ive always been afraid of this too. its probably the thing that scares me the most about death tbh. i dont want anyone to see me i want to instantly turn into ash or a clean skeleton. its the most undignified vulnerable position anyone can be in. i hope we both get over these thoughts eventually.

i feel you 100%—even if we finally feel peace, our physical forms will still look gruesome and scary to others.

 

[checkouttime]

I'm not really worried what i will look like as i will be dead, and as for having the feelings mentioned, well you'll be dead so you won't feel anything lol.

I mean what happens to the people who die of old age, they don't look any different than a person who CTB apart from maybe a few marks from hanging or looking like a smurf from SN. a dead body isn't ever going to be a pretty think no matter what. i would in fact guess that an older body looks alot worse than a younger one, as old bodies don't look good alive lol

 

[Anonymous_A]

Lol what.

If you really wanna ctb, just choose your method, go though with it and think about all the rest of stuff later.

 

[checkouttime]

Lol what.

If you really wanna ctb, just choose your method, go though with it and think about all the rest of stuff later.

I'm painting my toe nails and washing my cock just in case the coroner smells it. at least then i won't have a cheesy bell end and my nails will look good

 

[allthebodiesinthesea]

i used 2 feel the same way, as my time gets closer i'm more unnerved that my body is gonna be found by some opportunistic necrophiliac who's into it

 

[checkouttime]

i used 2 feel the same way, as my time gets closer i'm more unnerved that my body is gonna be found by some opportunistic necrophiliac who's into it

I find the idea of some a women riding me silly while i'm still warm quite arousing actually, now i'm not so keen of a guy piping me off though!!!

 

[Meliæ]

I've been thinking about this too. I contemplate wearing my favourite dress the day I die which is a very beautiful long dress made of soft flower printed different fabrics I'm obsessed with this dress, I will also be wearing makeup, brush my hair, and I'll shave my legs and stuff, I want that the last man/woman who will touch my body (the medical examiner) think I was an elegant woman who took care of herself. I think I'll buy flowers and put them near me, maybe burn some insence.
Still a body is a body , I'll live mine in dignity.

 

[pole]

i can relate as well.

imo, i think CTBing in a way where your body is never found or discovered brings me some sort of comfort knowing no one sees my corpse when i'm gone.

i'd rather go far away and not be found. just don't know the best way for that yet.

 

[LansJ70]

One main thing I'm worried about with ctb is that when people find my body I don't want it to look gross, and, well, dead

How about you make sure they find your body alive then, then it won't look dead and gross?

Downside you'll still be alive, but hey, at least you won't look dead.

[There is no icon for banging your head violently into a brick wall]

 

[checkouttime]

I wonder if the fixthe26/stopSS kids looked like smurfs or not and everything was blue...inside and outside,i'mmmmmm blue a dah ba dee.wonder if they posted the smurf pics on their social media, everyone loves the smurfs.....well they didn't that s why there smurfs lol

How about you make sure they find your body alive then, then it won't look dead and gross?

Downside you'll still be alive, but hey, at least you won't look dead.

[There is no icon for banging your head violently into a brick wall]

I'm thinking of putting my best dress and heels. suicidal people are always wondering how they will look when they are dead didn't you know??? you always see people who have committed suicide in their best pants,shirt and tie. i imagine them people that blow there head off make sure they do there hair before they do it, of course.

 

[Meliæ]

I wonder if the fixthe26/stopSS kids looked like smurfs or not and everything was blue...inside and outside,i'mmmmmm blue a dah ba dee.wonder if they posted the smurf pics on their social media, everyone loves the smurfs.....well they didn't that s why there smurfs lol


I'm thinking of putting my best dress and heels. suicidal people are always wondering how they will look when they are dead didn't you know??? you always see people who have committed suicide in their best pants,shirt and tie. i imagine them people that blow there head off make sure they do there hair before they do it, of course.

I will definitely wear my favourite dress, and of course heels that I will buy for the occasion, straighten my hair, have my makeup on, and make sure I look elegant, looking dead does not bother me, but I don't want to look neglected and I want to appear like would be sleeping, also I m going to make sure I don't shit myself or that kind of gross details and I hope my eyes won't remain open after death that's not elegant at all
Also I will take an appointment to the beautician before so I am perfect everywhere and ready to die

 

[checkouttime]

I will definitely wear my favourite dress, and of course heels that I will buy for the occasion, straighten my hair, have my makeup on, and make sure I look elegant, looking dead does not bother me, but I don't want to look neglected and I want to appear like would be sleeping, also I m going to make sure I don't shit myself or that kind of gross details and I hope my eyes won't remain open after death that's not elegant at all
Also I will take an appointment to the beautician before so I am perfect everywhere and ready to die

I think i'll exfoliate and wear my best knickers, wanna look good for the coroner.

If you take N rarely is their any bowel or bladder movement , with N you fall asleep and your eyes are shut aswell.

Think i'll get a brazilian aswell while i'm at it and shave my arsehole. and i'm going to wear my favourite perfume

 

[LansJ70]

I think i'll exfoliate and wear my best knickers, wanna look good for the coroner.

If you take N rarely is their any bowel or bladder movement , with N you fall asleep and your eyes are shut aswell.

Think i'll get a brazilian aswell while i'm at it and shave my arsehole. and i'm going to wear my favourite perfume

Don't eat for 72 hours then there'll be nothing to spoil you knickers whatever you do LoL.

 

[peacefulhorizons]

I think i'll exfoliate and wear my best knickers, wanna look good for the coroner.

If you take N rarely is their any bowel or bladder movement , with N you fall asleep and your eyes are shut aswell.

Think i'll get a brazilian aswell while i'm at it and shave my arsehole. and i'm going to wear my favourite perfume

checkouttime is going to be going back to his veet days

Why isn't anyone else talking about painting cute lil flowers on their N bottles? I mean you gotta make them cute for the po po right?

 

[checkouttime]

checkouttime is going to be going back to his veet days

Why isn't anyone else talking about painting cute lil flowers on their N bottles? I mean you gotta make them cute for the po po right?

whats veet???? i think sometimes some of the dead child braggers brigade, post stuff i have BS them about lol how naive they were. everyone can make stuff up, just some are way better at it what a load of suckers lol, talk about hook line an sinker lmfao

I'll have to visit my mums house the one i haven't got before i die!! i might even go in the mens room even though i'm a woman??? some people are soooo gullible you know

i'm not worried about the police, wanna look good for the family, i think i'd look good all dressed in blue lol

 

[Makko]

I want to look like the grossest spookiest zombie, surrounded with creepy paraphernalia and a booby trap or two.

Edit: oh wait, I already posted here. The sentiment remains, obviously.

 

[BreakTheCycle]

That's something I never rly thought about. Like others wrote before it rly doesn't matter when your dead.
My dream death has always been to walk a couple of km's down into the ocean, when the water is gone and overdose on something. afterwards when the water comes back my body will be taken with it. No funeral no Goodbye. Just gone and nobody will ever notice.
So yeah I rly dont care about my body afterwards. The tide will take care of it and afterwards some predator in the sea.