Venting working on my album

[killrockstars]

Lately I've been working on my album and it's making me incredibly tired because I can barely play guitar since my body is getting weaker and weaker. It's becoming more difficult and painful because I feel like my brain is dissolving inside my head and my organs are rotting, making it hard to think normally. plus I'm getting bad grades in school because of my daily physical and mental exhaustion. I hate being such a hypochondriac. Now, I've simply given up on caring about myself and my health. I feel like I'm just watching my own life fall apart and burn slowly. I don't want any more reasons to live, I just want it all to end as quickly as possible, release this album, and then release myself from all stuff im going through.