I don't really post much on here, but this thread/post really resonated a lot with me.
I used to believe work actually meant something, and I was determined to work hard and be "successful" by this society's standards.
Now I'm just a burnt out NEET, but I am overall happier and a lot less stressed.
Life to me is like painting a picture, however when you finish it, the picture just gets burned and discarded.
It doesn't matter how much effort you put into it, it doesn't matter how beautiful it was, or anything else.
The end result is always the same.
So why take life or anything else for that matter so seriously or put tons of effort in, if the end result is always the same?
I could be a billion dollar CEO or a homeless junkie and the final outcome of either will always be the same. I will always die. And everyone who remembers my legacy, or lack there of will eventually die too. Everything will eventually die and be forgotten regardless, and that is outside of anything that can be controlled by you or me. And no amount of work, or lack thereof, will or could probably ever change that cycle.
And even if you could break the cycle of life and death, and live (and be remembered) forever why would you want to? Nothing we really do matters in the grand scheme of the universe anyway (as far as I can tell). We are just a spec of dust in an infinite void. But again that is only as far as I can tell, given my limited knowledge….
So I guess to sum up what I am trying to say.. Work doesn't matter in the bigger overall picture, however it does to our man-made society. We need work to keep all the services and things that a lot of people overlook and take for granted running.
For example: The computer or phone you wrote this post on, the internet or cellular connection, used to send the data, to the various ISP's, the servers used to host this site, the forum management software that powers this site, and even the mains power grids that supply power to all of the above, are just a few basic examples of why we "need" work in our society to maintain our current standard of living.
As sad as it is, all of these things require people to work in order to maintain.
Is work bullshit? Yes, however humans seem to want to continue to advancing, so from a purely human perspective it is a necessary evil even though none of it truly really ever mattered.
Anyway I think I am just rambling now, but I will mention some of the things that make me happy and give me some meaning and purpose in life.
I am trying to avoid suicide, and even make a sad attempt at "recovery" as I do have some goals and things I would like to do in my life for no other reason then just because I want to.
The main thing that gives me meaning and motivation to "try" is my family.
I also cut ties with some toxic people in my life which has improved my outlook on things.
Another thing that has helped me over the last few months is just good luck. I seem to just be having a lot of good luck and just overall good coincidences lately, it feels strange but for some reason things have just been pretty good and tolerable for me lately. So I am really happy and thankful for that.
Another thing that gave me a good perspective shift was this video:
Someone (I forgot who, sorry) posted it awhile back on here and that was how I came across it. So thank you to whom ever that was.
Although I'm not sure I really believe in this theory, I still find it humbling and fun to think about.
This video also removed a slight bit of the hatred I have towards humans, as I now just often think of a lot of them as just a little less developed lol.
Hope someone found something in this post insightful or helpful haha..
If you've made it this far thank you for reading my rambles.
-L-