Sadly, the complications and risks involved with suicide keep me trapped here in this hellish world, to me all the methods are either unreliable, risky or just horrible/incredibly difficult to go through with, it's the unfortunate reality of existing in this anti-suicide society, there's just no straightforward way. I hate how it's so difficult to die, to deny people the options of more reliable methods and expect them to be prisoners to this existence certainly is inhumane.
Difficult to follow through with? You mean like the shotgun slug method?
It sucks that I have to die a violent gruesome death by literally blowing my bead off to the point of being unrecognizable.
Yep I thought about fent and benzos too but can't afford $4000 for the materials. My drug tolerance is ridiculously high and would need a very high dose like multiple grams of it.
The survival instinct is a bitch when using a firearm and abruptly going from being alive to death in a split second. While the drug method you get really high and feel good while you drift off into the abyss.
Maybe taking some benzos to weaken the survival instinct would work good enough its the extreme anxiety leading up to the events of pulling the trigger.
I really hope a 1oz 12 gauge 3" slug will do it painlessly. I guess it comes down to either deal with a lifetime of poverty and struggle slowly deteriorating as a person or "man up" and just pull the trigger against all instinct.
Leaving behind a big mess of brains and blood scattered across the room will give my shitty parents a mess to clean up.
between SN and a shotgun it seems like the pain of your body failing is more painful than immediately blacking out and destroying consciousness in less than a second.
Injecting fentanyl has very little survival instinct but just the intimidating look of the slugs is horrible. But reminding myself that the SI is just a primitive thing that makes humans slaves to their own genome.
I did read that pain signals are 400 mph (600fps) while a 3" slug is moving at 1500 fps.
Sucks we can't get euthanasia like what they do to animals.