LunaRose
I just want to float in nothingness
- Nov 25, 2023
- 48
Hello. My name is Luna Rose and I live in California. Today is the date December 1st 2023 and it's 11:30 pm PST. This is goodbye as of when it's 6:30 AM PST tomorrow I will CTB using night night method. No one will be awake or home in that manner. But I know you probably want to ask one thing, what got you here. March 26 2023 my gf at the time had a seizure and died in her sleep. The last time I talked to her was when I said goodnight and I said I want to be with you till death. This devastated me and began my spiral downwards into where I am now. I remember her voice being so nice and soothing that night as he hugged and kissed. I still wish I never let her go from my living embrace. After this happened about 2 months later. One of my friends asked me out. Still devastated about her death I said yes thinking this could take my mind off of everything. It did not as the first week I stayed with him he got on me while I was half asleep and proceeded to fuck me without my consent. I wanted to scream and cry so fucking much and I told my sister about what happened over the phone. The next day I tried to forget about it and we were sitting on the couch. I close my eyes and I remember what happened and before I say anything I see him about to shove his cock down my throat. I open my eyes and told him no but he grabbed my throat and made me suck him. I left his house after the second night and drove my car as fast as possible wondering what the fuck was wrong with him. I heard nothing from him. Nothing else happened for about a couple months. I tried to kill myself after that night but my sister saw me and hugged me and asked if I was okay. Couple months later and I see him at my neighbors house. Turns out he moved in with my neighbor which is the person that I pretty much lived with. I flipped out but not that bad. The first week wasn't bad but after that he was very mad at everything and very sexual towards me and my neighbors Niece who is underaged. We found this out and planned to kick him out but the last day of his stay my neighbor saw him take my skirt off and spread my ass and start fucking me as I was sleeping. She recorded it to show the cops and they didn't do anything. This happened 3 weeks ago and I still am hurt from this and I want to throw myself into a ditch. After this my mind has gone into a spiral where I started planning on how I could die and last week I joined here and made my mind saying I'm going to do it. Tomorrow is December 2nd and that is my day. I will keep in touch either In dms or here. I am also going to ctb with the presence of the stuffed hydra plush my gf gave me before she died. I will update this thread till I die. Cya and I hope you all have a good life.
Luna
Luna