Wish me luck leaving the house for the first time for a work Christmas party, unmedicated and going through withdrawal depression.

[BeautifulMosaics]

Wish me luck leaving the house for the first time for a work Christmas party, unmedicated and going through withdrawal depression because I was too anxious to leave the house anyway and don't feel like I can ask anyone I live with.

I spent so long in the shower, washing off the sweat that's accumulated on me from just laying in my bed being depressed. Showering is so hard and requires so much energy, I was just resting against the wall for so long. You know something's wrong with me when I don't get excited about doing my makeup for a special event.. I was gonna go to the pharmacy and get my meds before I left but I'm just not willing to put myself through that. I'll ask someone I live with or I'll order it online.

Here's to social pressures and expectations!

Please wish me luck, pray for me and send me positive vibes that none of my issues come up and that it's a good day.

 

[BeansOfRequirement]

I see that you're also having trouble with the images. Anyone know why this is? I can't even post gifs.

 

[forgotten15]

I wish you to have a lovely time and be as comfortable as possible around the people at the party. Fingers crossed all goes well

 

[Depressed_Kettle]

Wish me luck leaving the house for the first time for a work Christmas party, unmedicated and going through withdrawal depression because I was too anxious to leave the house anyway and don't feel like I can ask anyone I live with.

I spent so long in the shower, washing off the sweat that's accumulated on me from just laying in my bed being depressed. Showering is so hard and requires so much energy, I was just resting against the wall for so long. You know something's wrong with me when I don't get excited about doing my makeup for a special event.. I was gonna go to the pharmacy and get my meds before I left but I'm just not willing to put myself through that. I'll ask someone I live with or I'll order it online.

Here's to social pressures and expectations!

Please wish me luck, pray for me and send me positive vibes that none of my issues come up and that it's a good day.

Good luck. It's great that you are going to the party. I know it can be hard leaving the house but every time you do it, it eventually feels a bit easier.

 

[socorro]

Good luck, that sounds hard. :(
I sincerely hope that your night goes by without hitch and that you get something from it, even if only for a moment.

 

[Lifessocruel]

Good luck! It can make such a difference getting out and socialising, the first steps are hard but keep going. you'll feel normal again. It does get better!

 

[FuneralCry]

I wish you the best. I hope you manage to get through it okay. I understand it is hard when you have no energy.

 

[thefoodispoison]

It is so so hard to fake it and pretend you're okay. Best of luck

 

[BeautifulMosaics]

It turned out okay but the sense of dread I felt beforehand and even the scary dream about being afraid to CTB while I was squeezing in whatever sleep I could was not nice. People without mental heath and functioning issues will never understand. I did a shift at work before the party and my job is DEMANDING. But it is rewarding. Getting ready gave me the strength to ask someone to get my meds for me so I'm back on them. None of my issues cropped up. I realised I'm more capable than I thought and the meal was a nice way to get back into civilisation. Thank you for your kind messages guys, I so desperately needed to share my worries with someone and as usual you guys came through

 

[forgotten15]

It turned out okay but the sense of dread I felt beforehand and even the scary dream about being afraid to CTB while I was squeezing in whatever sleep I could was not nice. People without mental heath and functioning issues will never understand. I did a shift at work before the party and my job is DEMANDING. But it is rewarding. Getting ready gave me the strength to ask someone to get my meds for me so I'm back on them. None of my issues cropped up. I realised I'm more capable than I thought and the meal was a nice way to get back into civilisation. Thank you for your kind messages guys, I so desperately needed to share my worries with someone and as usual you guys came through

Thanks for the update, I was wondering how it all went. I am glad everything turned out good and you managed to overcome your fears :) I understand you very well, I am very anxious around people and feel akward, so having to go to a party would be so nerve wracking…