If I couldn't kill myself today I would do it right now. But I can't something always goes wrong to stop me. I feel like god if he's real must hate me. He's doing everything he can to stop me from succeeding. It must be because I prayed to be able to kill myself. I just wish I had a method I could rely on. I need to die soon because I'm going to lose my job and I might not be able to get a benefit so I will have no money soon.
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DTA
Desperado
- May 3, 2025
- 100
I really emphasize with you about feeling like God is thwarting you.
I wish you the best no matter what you do!
darksouls
Illuminated
- May 10, 2025
- 3,519
I am very sorry for your situation
is it not possible for you to find a new job?
No I think I'm going to be fired so I won't have a reference and I left my job before that on bad terms stupidly. I really regret it.
Alexandra_
Don't Fear the Reaper
- Sep 30, 2023
- 811
I would also like to die right now. But I can't do it yet for several reasons
. But I hope that death has already turned its gaze on me
FuneralCry
Just wanting some peace
- Sep 24, 2020
- 48,511
I understand, I just wish to be gone as well, to not exist is all I hope for, I just wish to be permanently free from this cruel, torturous existence, I hope you find the relief you search for.Similar threads
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