Will you regret your choice if you survive?

[Jade10666]

Academic literature echoes these findings. A review in the journal "Current Opinion in Psychiatry" notes that suicide attempts are "usually regretted by people who survive them". Qualitative studies with suicide attempt survivors also report that while some initially feel negative emotions such as sadness, shame, or disappointment, many later express feelings of gladness, gratefulness, and hope for having survived.

What are your thoughts?

 

[Darkover]

no regret in my choice to die maybe regret the method failed especially if it comes with lasting damage

 

[ramon]

no regret in my choice to die maybe regret the method failed especially if it comes with lasting damage

I definitely back this post.

Sure some survivors will see an alternative to CTB that they didn't see before their failed attempt(s). Good for them, I say!

Other "survivors" will just find themselves (again) with either challenges they will never overcome, hence their lives will never be enjoyable; or challenges they will overcome, yet their lives will never be enjoyable.

 

[SunriseParabellum]

If I manage to survive I don't think enough of my brain will be functional to regret anything

 

[InTheAbyss]

I think I'll mostly regret failing and that it'd also mean that I mostly likely got caught and what that means. A few people know I want MAID and as long as that's all I say they can't put me in for a MHA. But a failed cbt is completely different.

 

[Stan Swiftie]

Academic literature echoes these findings. A review in the journal "Current Opinion in Psychiatry" notes that suicide attempts are "usually regretted by people who survive them". Qualitative studies with suicide attempt survivors also report that while some initially feel negative emotions such as sadness, shame, or disappointment, many later express feelings of gladness, gratefulness, and hope for having survived.

What are your thoughts?

No. I only regret the failed method I chose.
Sleeping pills 3 times.
Either I find fentanyl or the correct SN...
Or I just continue existing on my own personal Hell.

 

[outrider567]

Nobody survives Nitrogen

 

[Scenegirlshooter]

no. I'll do it again. until my brain changes or it works

 

[Forveleth]

As a survivor, my only regrets are not researching my methods well enough and that I did not try this earlier in my life. I am done with life and I will never regret the choice to make it end.

 

[FuneralCry]

No, I'd never regret ending this torturous and cruel existence as all I hope for is to not exist, I just wish for this existence to be all gone and forgotten for me, I'll always see existence as an abomination that just causes harm and suffering until non-existence takes away all anyway and I find it so horrific how trying to cease existing can go wrong and lead to way worse suffering and torture. I wish for no more pain and no more suffering which is why I see so much cruelty in how peaceful, guaranteed death is so harmfully denied with the suffering and torture of existing seen as to force and prolong no matter what, all I wish for is the peace of non-existence.

 

[Pale_Rider]

A lot of the emotional pain I have felt is because I have actually died, and I died at my own hand. I never anticipated any of that when I started my journey. I can also tell you it didn't help my PTSD. Made it worse I think.

 

[Andrew10]

Nobody survives Nitrogen

I wish that were true, I wouldn't be replying to you rn

 

[Apathy79]

Academic literature echoes these findings. A review in the journal "Current Opinion in Psychiatry" notes that suicide attempts are "usually regretted by people who survive them". Qualitative studies with suicide attempt survivors also report that while some initially feel negative emotions such as sadness, shame, or disappointment, many later express feelings of gladness, gratefulness, and hope for having survived.

What are your thoughts?

The issue with survivorship bias like this is they're often asked again a year or more later. Of the ones still alive, some will be on a path to recovery and say something like that, some will still be very suicidal but watched and say something like that to avoid detection, and some will have died by suicide in the interim and therefore can't respond. So the findings make sense. But what does that mean?

 

[pthnrdnojvsc]

I will never regret leaving this hell

 

[Andrew10]

Academic literature echoes these findings. A review in the journal "Current Opinion in Psychiatry" notes that suicide attempts are "usually regretted by people who survive them". Qualitative studies with suicide attempt survivors also report that while some initially feel negative emotions such as sadness, shame, or disappointment, many later express feelings of gladness, gratefulness, and hope for having survived.

What are your thoughts?

It's been two years since I survived the exit bag, all because of an unknown feeling that made me self-sabotage at the last moment. I remember turning the valve on the tank and quickly closing it. I inhaled a little and lost consciousness. I felt like I was being turned off. I woke up with an extreme headache. Getting out of bed seemed impossible, and my vision was permanently damaged. I think it was because of the small amount I inhaled. My regret is having survived and still being here, but on the other hand, the only thing I'm grateful for is that these are the consequences of having failed my attempt. I could have literally ended up as a vegetable. Even so, I'm still saving this method to try again. My goal is to gain the courage or the guts to do it and make sure nothing strange kicks in in the process. After all, I'm still just disappointed for having failed. I wish I could have finished everything at that moment. I don't have any positive emotions or a shred of hope as many "survivors" describe it. I hate how this world works. I have a terrible perspective of what this is and the only thing I think about is being able to catch my bus.

Many people asked me about this method but I'll simply send them the Gasmonkey or Vizzy thread, I don't have enough knowledge about this to ensure 100% a CTB and I don't want to risk or feel involved in making the lives of poor, innocent souls who have already suffered too much even more miserable as vegetable simply for trying to follow in my footsteps. So if anyone was thinking of consulting me, it's better to forget about it. They've already hurt you too much, I'm not going to intervene in your path at the risk of making it worse, but I will send you a big hug if you read this, I wish you luck on your journey whatever your decision is

Adios!

 

[deletedaccount30982]

I've survived several attempts, 4 of which were very serious. I have never once regretted my decision to try and die, I've only ever regretted certain mistakes I've made that have caused it to fail. I've never become happy I survived either. Even when I have periods of better mental health, my stance on it is "I wouldn't have missed this because I wouldn't have been here to feel the missing". I am very curious about how those studies are conducted. I know this place is biased towards the not-regretting side, but I've also met so many people in my life who are attempting to survivors and don't feel that way either. I am curious how accurate those statistics are.

 

[Gustav Hartmann]

Not falsified statistics would be helpful. If the reasons for my suicide are still there, I would probably try again. I would only regret that I coose the wrong method or that I did something wrong.

 

[outrider567]

I wish that were true, I wouldn't be replying to you rn

it is true, nobody has ever survived a Nitrogen suicide attempt when properly done and tested beforehand--My oxygen level plummeted from 98 to 40 after just 5 breaths(ten second delay with the oximeter)--If i didn't rip off my EEBD Hood(at 77 on the Oximeter), i would have been dead in 15 minutes, just like those death row inmates(who didn't fight it)--A few days ago, a woman tragically died during a cryotherapy lesson when she was exposed to a Nitrogen leak

 

[Andrew10]

it is true, nobody has ever survived a Nitrogen suicide attempt when properly done and tested beforehand--My oxygen level plummeted from 98 to 40 after just 5 breaths(ten second delay with the oximeter)--If i didn't rip off my EEBD Hood(at 77 on the Oximeter), i would have been dead in 15 minutes, just like those death row inmates(who didn't fight it)--A few days ago, a woman tragically died during a cryotherapy lesson when she was exposed to a Nitrogen leak

Then I misunderstood you, I thought that when you were referring of how the attempt was executed, the reason why I survived was similar to what you told me, I think mainly because of the small amount I inhaled and how quickly I closed it at the last moment, something unknown cut off the process at the last moment I think it could have ended worse, in my case I had a very poor preparation, I was not completely focused on the consequences and I did not use the necessary equipment. To this day, all I have is damaged vision and honestly I'm not complaining I probably could have been a vegetable

 

[Rynalia]

Never regret the decision to ctb.
Always regret failing and waking up.

 

[Knoc]

Well, since my method is hanging, i'll probably end up with severe brain damage if i fail , so yes. I can only hope that the damage takes my self awarness out at least.

 

[Britney Spears]

No, if I end up a vegetable or in a coma, I don't care. I'll take my chances rather than continue like this. As long as they don't give me up for dead and send me alive to the morgue.

 

[render]

ill regret if i survive but i have good reason to go so no i wont regret the actual attempt lol

 

[Thekla]

I'll regret it to the extent I see the consequences. My family would probably be distressed and mad at me, especially with how much it will taint its reputation.
"One of your daughters killed themselves?! Must've had a pretty bad childhood!"

Something like that, I assume.

 

[thehorizons]

It's been two years since I survived the exit bag, all because of an unknown feeling that made me self-sabotage at the last moment. I remember turning the valve on the tank and quickly closing it. I inhaled a little and lost consciousness. I felt like I was being turned off. I woke up with an extreme headache. Getting out of bed seemed impossible, and my vision was permanently damaged. I think it was because of the small amount I inhaled. My regret is having survived and still being here, but on the other hand, the only thing I'm grateful for is that these are the consequences of having failed my attempt. I could have literally ended up as a vegetable. Even so, I'm still saving this method to try again. My goal is to gain the courage or the guts to do it and make sure nothing strange kicks in in the process. After all, I'm still just disappointed for having failed. I wish I could have finished everything at that moment. I don't have any positive emotions or a shred of hope as many "survivors" describe it. I hate how this world works. I have a terrible perspective of what this is and the only thing I think about is being able to catch my bus.

Many people asked me about this method but I'll simply send them the Gasmonkey or Vizzy thread, I don't have enough knowledge about this to ensure 100% a CTB and I don't want to risk or feel involved in making the lives of poor, innocent souls who have already suffered too much even more miserable as vegetable simply for trying to follow in my footsteps. So if anyone was thinking of consulting me, it's better to forget about it. They've already hurt you too much, I'm not going to intervene in your path at the risk of making it worse, but I will send you a big hug if you read this, I wish you luck on your journey whatever your decision is

Adios!

I'm sorry you're suffering from the consequences. It's exactly the sort of thing many of us don't want to experience. Just to be clear, your error was because you quickly closed the tank instead of letting it flow?

 

[moon2bright]

Academic literature echoes these findings. A review in the journal "Current Opinion in Psychiatry" notes that suicide attempts are "usually regretted by people who survive them". Qualitative studies with suicide attempt survivors also report that while some initially feel negative emotions such as sadness, shame, or disappointment, many later express feelings of gladness, gratefulness, and hope for having survived.

What are your thoughts?

Well, I mean, if you survive an attempt you're going to say whatever you need to in order to keep from being locked up. So naturally you're going to say you regret it. If you say you don't regret it and intend to get back on the horse as soon as possible, it's a lifetime supply of grippy socks for you.

 

[thehorizons]

Academic literature echoes these findings. A review in the journal "Current Opinion in Psychiatry" notes that suicide attempts are "usually regretted by people who survive them". Qualitative studies with suicide attempt survivors also report that while some initially feel negative emotions such as sadness, shame, or disappointment, many later express feelings of gladness, gratefulness, and hope for having survived.

What are your thoughts?

I have oral cancer that's eating my lip. It'll eventually eat the rest of my mouth. If I survive CTB and sustain permanent injuries on top of the ones I already have from a different illness, I don't imagine I'll be "thank you God for letting me live so that I could succumb to the oral cancer and new injuries." I think it's context dependent. I stopped believing in guardian angels and God a good while ago when I had three illnesses in under a year. My fear is that the Devil has won. It scares me to CTB as well cause if the Devil has won who's to stop the Devil from letting me survive CTB with new lasting injuries.

 

[kouna]

I survived my jump because I did it impulsively without any planning. The first days at the hospital, the only thing I thought about was my next attempt.
Gradually I changed my mind, with the help of my wife, her family, medicine and just getting on with life. For 3 years thing were good, now life has taken a much worse turn.

 

[Aflame5926]

nope will not regret it. but i do think it can count for 1 timers tho. i dont think this will ever be for people that tried CTB multiple times. also that not being describe there about multiple attempts. i feel they are putting feathers in their ass to good talk about themself saying "PEOPLE REGRET SUICIDE". its really shallow

 

[itsgone2]

It would suck but I regret no serious attempts. I want out but lack guts. What a nightmare