This is one of the things I'm currently grappling with as I get closer to actually fleshing out my CTB plans.
There's a side of me that wants to spam everywhere, kind of like a last cry of help or attention. I know it won't even last forever, but sometimes it's a morbidly comforting thought to think of people scrambling. I'd only ever leave a note post my death, I wouldn't give anyone a chance of reaching out by that point.
But at the same time, is it even worth it? I already know none of the few people in my life will even be affected for more than a week if I'm lucky.
Ultimately, they have other shit to be doing, and other shit to live for. They don't have time for my fucking notes.
Plus- what would I even say?? Would I be condescending and show my true bitterness? Or just, explain some things rationally before letting go? I don't know. I don't think words can ultimately describe it.
But I might leave one for my mother. I think she deserves something to hold onto.
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