Will you leave a hateful suicide note?

[Water-Lily]

Yes. I will blame everyone who hurt me on my suicide. it'd their fault they pushed me to this level

 

[mossball]

I relate to your post so much it's scary... The description of your mother matches mine to a T, except I was caught before managing to ctb and am being forced to stay with her. So she can emotionally abuse me full time and use the excuse that I don't have the power of choice anymore (because I'm suicidal).

They keep guilting me for not letting them know I wanted to ctb and I could NOT make them understand that I've asked for help so many times and they always denied me and my mom called me a drama queen for wanting a psychologist. Now she denies everything and says she loves me so much and always did her best.

I tell you this because you said your mother doesn't know how she fucked you up — they never know. Even if you scream it at their faces, they'll deny it — and even try to gaslight you so you believe it too.

If I do manage to ctb, I WILL leave a hateful note for her. Idc if that's wrong. I wish you the best and may you leave your asshole mother behind.

 

[Moose.000]

Me personally, as much as I'd love to, probably won't. Something short and simple. But I understand why some of the members here would after reading the horrible suffering they've endured at the hands of others. And I pray the suffering they were forced to endure brings them endless peace and happiness in the afterlife.

 

[TooConscious]

The thing is, if they are anything like the people who ruined mine, they won't care, will find it hilarious, make jokes, get an energy boost from your death. Probably laugh at your loved ones
I'm far from a lover of life but the best way to hurt them is to find happiness.

 

[BandAddict]

I won't. I feel like my death would hurt them enough, the only hate in the letter is towards myself. I wanted to leave nothing but love, gratitude and apologies for them.

 

[DunnoWhyButYeah]

No, I don't hate anything and everytime when I have tryed to kill myself I have been happy and calm. Not angry or sad or anything like that. So if I write something, it will be full of love but I don't think so that I'm going to write note.

 

[loopylou]

I want too. To describe how their actions contributed to my decision. But I think I have done enough to make them know without saying it directly ...

Brother A - is not allowed at my funeral
Sister B - is not to be informed of my death, and if finds out prior to funeral not allowed at the service
All uncles and aunties on both sides of my family - not allowed at funeral
Cousins allowed, only if contact to me has been made in the last year, if not, not allowed at service
Friends allowed, if contact has been made in the last year and that contact is deemed to be made out of being Polite instead on genuine.

my list will have specific names

 

[Aeathelina]

If I wasn't so fastidious with my journal writing then I would leave quite a hateful message to a few family members. But I won't because those books will speak for themselves.

 

[sadbadpsychogirl]

no. the people fucking with me aren't worth the ink to write it with