Discussion Will you do your favorite activity before CTB

[tooafraidtodiez]

I'm too scared and lethargic to enjoy my last moments before CTB :(

 

[witchcraft]

Yeah, mixture of two and three.

I'm not good enough at anything. Not good enough to be truly successful. To be financially stable and confident in my own abilities and to actually just enjoy whatever it is that I'm doing because I'm constantly on this Sisyphean hill trying to prove myself and get to the top where you're allowed to be successful.

I'm done playing video games. I'm done streaming. I'm done making YouTube videos. I'm just done. Just going to lay in my room and rot all day from now on, watching other people make successful videos and just generally do things and enjoy a life I'm unable / not allowed to have.

Never been more certain that I'm committing suicide before now. Nothing gets better. Everything is a waste of fucking time. Everything is insufferable. I don't even care *if* this site is some 5-head Deus Ex tier conspiracy where the government is using it to make people like me commit suicide to thin out the population. I couldn't give a single shit anymore. I'm fucking done, so fucking over it.

No. I'm not doing anything enjoyable in my final moments. What's there to enjoy?

 

[boyafraid]

Skateboarding is my favorite thing ever! So I plan to do it for at least two hours the day I CTB (: it's one of the few things that makes me feel free.

 

[Cepheuss]

No i was supposed to die april 14th, i did everything i could do before then and since that nothing has felt real and ive not been able to enjoy my favourite things so im just leaving the last time as the last time. Only thing that'll stay is the music

 

[KatalinaKrimson]

When I'm about to do my attempt, I can't really focus on doing anything I enjoy except for eating.

 

[FuneralCry]

No matter what there could never be anything desirable and positive about suffering in this existence so terrible and torturous that I just always saw as a mistake, to me existence will just always be an abomination that just tortures existing beings with no limit as to how much one can suffer, for me only non-existence is just all that's positive.

All I want is to peacefully cease existing and never suffer in this existence so terrible and torturous ever again, there truly is just so much terrible suffering in existing and I'd never wish to be conscious of anything no matter what, it's just so dreadful how humans impose this existence at all causing all this suffering as a result.