Will this make my ctb 100% successful?

[Deathiswelcomed]

I am constantly thinking of when im going to just end my life. And I have 100 benadryl pills i have two pill bottles of cetirizine one almost full and the other almost empty. I have been thinking of taking all of those while cutting my wrist and hopefully once I figure out where to hang myself in my room I will do that. Though I am a pathetic coward.

I have tried many times and failed so if I do it again i want to make sure I dont mess this up life is nothing but despair and suffering.

Small vent: I realized no matter how hard you try no matter how good you can be youll always end up hurt in some way either physicality, mentally, or emotionally. Ive learned you can say you love someone but completely turn and in a second and hurt them. I hate being hurt over and over I just want the pain to stop.

 

[Jadeith]

And I have 100 benadryl pills i have two pill bottles of cetirizine one almost full and the other almost empty. I have been thinking of taking all of those while cutting my wrist

Sorry for stomping on your plans like that but both overdose and cutting are not recommended here, to a point being considered non-methods due to low reliability.

Though I am a pathetic coward.

It's called survival instinct, nearly everyone has one and it is not a sign of cowardice. Please, do not beat yourself over it.

I hate being hurt over and over I just want the pain to stop.

 

[Inner]

Overdoses widely vary from person to person. No one can definitively say if it will be lethal for you or not. Moreover, cutting wrists is listed on the non-methods thread because it is not what pop culture represents. I hope you are able to bounce back from this hard time you are facing.

 

[fadedghost]

I don't have an answer to your questions but I am sorry things are hurting.

I am pro-choice, but I do hope that people at least try different things out to see if getting better is possible before rushing into suicide... I don't have an answer for you, just saying I get being unhappy and it can be difficult.

 

[E4syW3y0u7]

Doesn't Benadryl makes you hallucinate ? With a 100 pills you probably gonna be tripping balls...

 

[User8]

I realized no matter how hard you try no matter how good you can be youll always end up hurt in some way either physicality, mentally, or emotionally.

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