steppingoff
Student
- Jan 18, 2024
- 184
I know lots of people like to plan here—e.g., I will CTB by Easter, but I am the impulsive type.
I have already decided to hang myself at some point, but I don't want to spend time thinking about it, other than being ready for an impulsive moment. Planning beyond that will mean SI will creep in.
Right now, I have a hanging "kit" that I am taking with me on a business trip—a rope, a chin-up bar, and links for streaming, recording, and uploading. I will send out a time-delayed email that can only be stopped by me if I am not dead.
If the impulse happens, I am ready to go. There are no little things to delay the process, and there is no time to let SI sneak in.
I'll just step up on the stool I have, tie, and step off into a stream that will record the moment.
I am hoping that there will be no more than an hour between the urge and the end.
The business trip is soon
I have already decided to hang myself at some point, but I don't want to spend time thinking about it, other than being ready for an impulsive moment. Planning beyond that will mean SI will creep in.
Right now, I have a hanging "kit" that I am taking with me on a business trip—a rope, a chin-up bar, and links for streaming, recording, and uploading. I will send out a time-delayed email that can only be stopped by me if I am not dead.
If the impulse happens, I am ready to go. There are no little things to delay the process, and there is no time to let SI sneak in.
I'll just step up on the stool I have, tie, and step off into a stream that will record the moment.
I am hoping that there will be no more than an hour between the urge and the end.
The business trip is soon