will i go to Hell if i shoot myself?

[tomame]

i've made up my mind that i don't want to be here

the only thing stopping me is for fear i'll end up in a place that's more painful then here

i can't imagine God would destine me to further turmoil or not give grace to me for choosing this

i survived a lake drowning i attempted at the end of last year .. but, it took a lot of courage; and the only thing making me lack the needed courage of my next attempt .. is this fear

any reassurance that puts my fears to rest would be appreciated

 

[idksympxthy]

Judas may have commited suicide and went to hell, but it was only because he betrayed Jesus. A merciful God would accept you into his kingdom and grant you the peace you deserve. not saying to do anything rash rn, but you dont belong anywhere near the fiery pits and you will never end up somewhere like that unless you've done something rlly rlly bad. I may not be fully religious but I was still raised that way and our God is truly a merciful one. I hope wherever you are now thats causing you this pain, you can escape from it and be somewhere happier where you can experience not just God's love, but self-love and the love of those that truly value your life on this earth

 

[bipolar22]

No. There is no hell theres no god you just go back to nonexistence whichbisna neutral state where you dont feel or miss anything. You been there before for infinity before you were born so this is home basiclly

 

[ForgetIExist]

i've made up my mind that i don't want to be here

the only thing stopping me is for fear i'll end up in a place that's more painful then here

i can't imagine God would destine me to further turmoil or not give grace to me for choosing this

i survived a lake drowning i attempted at the end of last year .. but, it took a lot of courage; and the only thing making me lack the needed courage of my next attempt .. is this fear

any reassurance that puts my fears to rest would be appreciated

You aren't going to find a lot of religious people on this site, so the answer will be primarily no...

 

[Medi]

The religious aspect of it also makes me question suicide as a religious person myself

 

[Painforever]

its not real

 

[Lextyle]

i've made up my mind that i don't want to be here

the only thing stopping me is for fear i'll end up in a place that's more painful then here

i can't imagine God would destine me to further turmoil or not give grace to me for choosing this

i survived a lake drowning i attempted at the end of last year .. but, it took a lot of courage; and the only thing making me lack the needed courage of my next attempt .. is this fear

any reassurance that puts my fears to rest would be appreciated

Heaven and Hell are concepts created by humans to control masses, have nothing to do with objective reality.

 

[Ashu]

Doesn't Jesus say so in the Sermon on the Mount?

 

[Aflame5926]

i've made up my mind that i don't want to be here

the only thing stopping me is for fear i'll end up in a place that's more painful then here

i can't imagine God would destine me to further turmoil or not give grace to me for choosing this

i survived a lake drowning i attempted at the end of last year .. but, it took a lot of courage; and the only thing making me lack the needed courage of my next attempt .. is this fear

any reassurance that puts my fears to rest would be appreciated

if god exist is either a real cruel god. honestly i dont think it exist.

for us being here with all the turmoil. it doesnt make sense for a god to exist

 

[hurts2b]

i've made up my mind that i don't want to be here

the only thing stopping me is for fear i'll end up in a place that's more painful then here

i can't imagine God would destine me to further turmoil or not give grace to me for choosing this

i survived a lake drowning i attempted at the end of last year .. but, it took a lot of courage; and the only thing making me lack the needed courage of my next attempt .. is this fear

any reassurance that puts my fears to rest would be appreciated

If it makes you feel any better many modern Christians believe that hell is not a place of torture, but rather a place of separation from the Christian God.

The Bible itself (as I understand it) doesn't say too much about what hell and heaven are like.

I don't share your religious beliefs though so I can't really speak too much on this.

 

[pthnrdnojvsc]

there is no hell. Hell is this life and world.

only my brain creates a self model of me. 1 micro-second after my brain dies i can never exist again.

i and every human will die and be wiped out obliterated for all time as if we never existed.

we are all going to die and be gone forever

Death is Non-Existence forever.

Non-Existence forever is the only guarantee of never suffering pain a trillion times worse than one can imagine.

Permanent Non-existence is the opposite of the worst pain the most horrible things that can happen . so Eternal Non-Existence is something very good as good as these things are bad or horrible : the worst pain the most extreme torture the most horrible nightmare a hell a trillion times worse one can imagine

if you are in extreme torture or soon will be with no way out except Death by suicide then Death is the escape from hell.

imo people forget me too how bad the worst pain , then extreme pain is or even regular bad pain is.

even an intermediate pain or itching soon becomes torture or unbearable if it's CONSTANT. then much worse is constant excruciating unbearable pain with not a second' s relief

imo even normies most people forget the daily lower level suffering they go through every day. if you go through and log write down every time something goes wrong some pain some accident some disease some dissapointment imo you can see in detail how horrible life and this world are. if we think and write down all the horrible things that happened or horrible things in this world ... well you might only remember the worst things but imo it's also every day chores, work a job , more chores to lists , accidents, dealing with problems suffering stress disapointments for what reason?

there are milions of experiments , evidence and data , libraries of books showing that a human is just another animal , cells , chemical reactions a machine.

to me it's an extreme horror . brain cells connect to form an illusion of a self. but this feels so real and can cause me or a human to suffer unending constant unbearable pain : is there anything more horrific than that ? not to me . I'm a brain that can suffer unending constant unbearable pain

there is zero evidence for any afterlife , soul ,reincarnation, ghosts etc.

100 billion humans and a trillion trillion animals have suffered and died with this self model in their brain. i'm no different

 

[PanaxMan]

i've made up my mind that i don't want to be here

the only thing stopping me is for fear i'll end up in a place that's more painful then here

i can't imagine God would destine me to further turmoil or not give grace to me for choosing this

i survived a lake drowning i attempted at the end of last year .. but, it took a lot of courage; and the only thing making me lack the needed courage of my next attempt .. is this fear

any reassurance that puts my fears to rest would be appreciated

I've also attempted drowning it was horrible and my si kicked in. But I don't think there's a hell

 

[moon2bright]

Don't worry, Hell isn't real.

 

[madmanbadman]

Judas may have commited suicide and went to hell, but it was only because he betrayed Jesus. A merciful God would accept you into his kingdom and grant you the peace you deserve. not saying to do anything rash rn, but you dont belong anywhere near the fiery pits and you will never end up somewhere like that unless you've done something rlly rlly bad. I may not be fully religious but I was still raised that way and our God is truly a merciful one. I hope wherever you are now thats causing you this pain, you can escape from it and be somewhere happier where you can experience not just God's love, but self-love and the love of those that truly value your life on this earth

first of all hug
Thid is the best reply ever
we don't all have to share the same beliefs, but we can still respect each other and be here for one another. At the end of the day, we're all just trying to make our last momments fun before we ctb ya know

 

[GodChallengesMe]

Nobody knows what's real and what's not, because nobody knows what happens after death from first person POV either. Every opinion on the matter is subjective, i.e. what people think or guess, not facts.

Here comes the comforting thought regarding what happens after death: 1. if nothing happens, you won't know anything at all so there's nothing to worry about after you die. 2. if something happens, you will certainly know and experience it firsthand but unless you die, you won't get that knowledge and experience no matter what other people tell you happens after death.

So, if nothing happens, you won't ever know it but if something happens, you won't ever know it either until you die. Whether what happens after death if there is something out there is completely obscure and inaccessible for us in this realm until we're alive so we can only speculate of what it might be but I don't think that there is separated place like hell for example.

Just imagine from the designer's point of view, why would you create such a devastating place to spawn some souls there for eternal torture? IMO reincarnation makes more sense but anything is possible, who knows. We might be in a loop replaying our lives for how many iterations it can take via the butterfly effect, i.e. we don't live the same experiences, rather, we get the chance to make different decisions and dramatically alter the life path from those decisions however negligible they might be. The Butterfly Effect (starring Ashton Kutcher) is a good example of this.

 

[idksympxthy]

first of all hug
Thid is the best reply ever
we don't all have to share the same beliefs, but we can still respect each other and be here for one another. At the end of the day, we're all just trying to make our last momments fun before we ctb ya know

Exactly that :) we all see the world in so many different perspectives and people that focus solely on their way of life ruin the most productive and healing of conversations because they can't think outside their own box. I wanna CTB knowing I've done nothing but try to give what I desperately feel like I can't give to myself Ty for your kind words stranger<3

 

[thehorizons]

I believe in the soul after death. Doesn't mean I know if it's a blissful versus torturous experience. That doesn't mean I believe in hell, heaven, or reincarnation either. Truth is no one on here knows what happens after death. For me, I'm just concerned about surviving CTB and sustaining permanent injuries from it. That would be a literal hell, not in the abstract sense. It's sort of a fatalistic notion, but I believe that some just don't die when it's their time even if there's a marginal chance of surviving the CTB method. Like I was hooked on the notion of the nitrogen-gas method. I thought it was foolproof. Then I'm seeing cases of failures on here. I guess I'm getting off topic, but no I don't know if hell is real, but hell when CTB goes wrong is literal hell.

 

[GodChallengesMe]

I believe in the soul after death. Doesn't mean I know if it's a blissful versus torturous experience. That doesn't mean I believe in hell, heaven, or reincarnation either. Truth is no one on here knows what happens after death. For me, I'm just concerned about surviving CTB and sustaining permanent injuries from it. That would be a literal hell, not in the abstract sense. It's sort of a fatalistic notion, but I believe that some just don't die when it's their time even if there's a marginal chance of surviving the CTB method. Like I was hooked on the notion of the nitrogen-gas method. I thought it was foolproof. Then I'm seeing cases of failures on here. I guess I'm getting off topic, but no I don't know if hell is real, but hell when CTB goes wrong is literal hell.

When you write some people just don't die you imply when it's not their time?

 

[telekon]

i've made up my mind that i don't want to be here

the only thing stopping me is for fear i'll end up in a place that's more painful then here

i can't imagine God would destine me to further turmoil or not give grace to me for choosing this

i survived a lake drowning i attempted at the end of last year .. but, it took a lot of courage; and the only thing making me lack the needed courage of my next attempt .. is this fear

any reassurance that puts my fears to rest would be appreciated

I swear if you're really that worried just wait about 3 weeks. I'm 90% sure there is going to be a cataclysmic war in the near future that is almost guaranteed to kill us all. Haza.

 

[thehorizons]

When you write some people just don't die you imply when it's not their time?

Yeah. It's like a video of a kid I saw recently that shot himself in the head, but suffered permanent injuries (e.g. blindness, mutilated face). He had a very high chance of dying, but he survived it. It's like some of us have some fucked up 'plot' armour that prevents us from dying when we CTB. That's what scares me.

 

[GodChallengesMe]

Yeah. It's like a video of a kid I saw recently that shot himself in the head, but suffered permanent injuries (e.g. blindness, mutilated face). He had a very high chance of dying, but he survived it. It's like some of us have some fucked up 'plot' armour that prevents us from dying when we CTB. That's what scares me.

Yeah, I also think that something prevents me to die since I survived intense but accidental H2S poisoning first and then intentional CO poisoning but somehow woke up after 12 hours of being knocked out in deep sleep and recovered in the hospital. Either my body is very resilient or something prevents me to die and pushes me back here, like it happened after being practically dead for 12 hours in a CO filled room and somehow still awoke.

 

[thehorizons]

Yeah, I also think that something prevents me to die since I survived intense but accidental H2S poisoning first and then intentional CO poisoning but somehow woke up after 12 hours of being knocked out in deep sleep and recovered in the hospital. Either my body is very resilient or something prevents me to die and pushes me back here, like it happened after being practically dead for 12 hours in a CO filled room and somehow still awoke.

That's what I'm thinking too if I do choose to CTB with Night-Night or with Nitrogen gas. It's crazy, but it's as if there's some unwritten narrative that would just keep you alive. I mean I have oral cancer (I don't think it's terminal cause I haven't had the biopsy for the mouth yet) that would eventually kill me. I'm just not sure if the CTB methods will though.

I'm sorry to hear you had to go through that. Were you saved? Is that why you made it after the 12 hours?

 

[GodChallengesMe]

That's what I'm thinking too if I do choose to CTB with Night-Night or with Nitrogen gas. It's crazy, but it's as if there's some unwritten narrative that would just keep you alive. I mean I have oral cancer (I don't think it's terminal cause I haven't had the biopsy for the mouth yet) that would eventually kill me. I'm just not sure if the CTB methods will though.

I'm sorry to hear you had to go through that. Were you saved? Is that why you made it after the 12 hours?

The only sure way is assisted death cause they can inspect if you're dead or not and make sure you die 100% with no chance to return here.

No, I was not saved, I just woke up somehow after being asleep for 12 hours. I got intense symptoms of CO poisoning when I stood up, I could barely walk and hearing got muffled. Called ambulance and said that furnace was malfunctioned probably and that's why I got poisoned. Recovered quickly in the hospital.

That was using charcoal method. I don't have much options, either arterial cut which is gruesome or I can cover the vents of wall mounted gas heater and see if CO builds up eventually to know how likely it will work in 12-16 hours time period of being alone.

 

[noah12]

Yeah, I also think that something prevents me to die since I survived intense but accidental H2S poisoning first and then intentional CO poisoning but somehow woke up after 12 hours of being knocked out in deep sleep and recovered in the hospital. Either my body is very resilient or something prevents me to die and pushes me back here, like it happened after being practically dead for 12 hours in a CO filled room and somehow still awoke.

How did you survive H2S? What did you do wrong? I want to ctb with Na2S and HCl

 

[Afterglow]

First of all, I'm sorry that you have to put up with all these commenters speaking down to you. It is incredibly disheartening to see adults on here comment like 13 year old atheists just because someone is religious. I speak only from a Christian perspective when it comes to this. I came from a religious background myself, I have read and studied this, and me and many others agree that suicide is redeemable if the person solemnly repents before the action is taken. A loving and merciful God will understand the actions.

I got out of religion myself, mostly because I tried everything you're told not to do. Blasphemy, summoning of demonic entities and spirits, and selling your soul. None of it worked or changed anything for me. If you're looking for a way out of religion, I would try those.

If you're fine with being religious, then I do 100% believe, and so does most modern Christian teachings, that people who commit suicide are redeemable.

I do not promote any actions myself.