sorry I couldn't do it
I hate this fear, Phone died last night and I couldn't send images, but idk. at least burnt relationships with most remaining friends last night so even though is regret, I won't have to get scared about hurting them as much now that they hate me. ik sh will be like temporary relief, so looking forward tonight. also potentially to OD is open now from living in a shitty shelter w other homeless just need to get far away so no naloxone, or use a different drug method. I'll probably try to copy my most successful past attempt but with proper benzos instead of the cocktail of a bottle of aspirin, alcohol, and a few muscle relaxers that failed last time.