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fantasy_function

fantasy_function

only way left is out
May 13, 2020
190
if you originally had a different method planned, why did you change it?

i was planning on jumping off a bridge in my city where 5+ suicides (that i know of) have been successful. i changed my mind when i heard the latest attempt left a guy paralyzed from the waist down. only reason he survived was because the coast guard or some ship was near the bridge at the time.
 
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DetachedDreamer97

DetachedDreamer97

Enlightened
Mar 17, 2018
1,402
I had a perfect method in sight. However, due to constraints such as accessibility, limited skill level and knowledge, and resources, as well as being watched, I had to go through a series of upgrades while trying to prepare my ideal method in the background and failing. Now that I have completed my latest upgrade, I'm now ready to actually go at preparing the method, which all comes down to trial and error.

My method never changed. But I did have to make adjustments like trial and error.

As for my secondary methods thay I keep upgrading, yeah… there were flaws and I had to do just that.

Worked on project bearshaek (adrenaline self destruct mechanism) but saw it as a risky last resort method, then 2m2b+loperamide and pgp inhibitor, upgraded to SN, but that was an unusable stepping stone considering I take the antidote (Vitamin C) daily. Upgraded to Azide, but that's definitely a risky and dangerous method, I discarded it later when I worked on the Nyan Cocktail (predecessor to the yew and also bootleg DDMP). I've done my research on this one, and I could stop there. But I want to make the yew as a final upgrade. And I can make a choice on the two methods depending on whatever given circumstance there is for me.

Nyan Cocktail- Undetectable killing agent, peacefulness is unknown, but it should be bearable considering the added ingredients. I'm uncertain about time, but it should be faster than consuming raw agent by itself.

Yew Tincture: Will certainly be peaceful considering that it's perfected, quick, detectability is uncertain, but I imagine it would with the lack of plant matter.
 
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CoolGuy9

CoolGuy9

Mage
Mar 5, 2019
524
My method for 3 years was partial suspension. I couldn't find the sweet spot no matter how hard I tried so now I'm going to try SN.
 
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ClownMe

ClownMe

Don't Cry for Me, I'm Already Dead
Apr 7, 2021
20,561
Originally planned on doing exit bag but I dont think ill be able to get the materials so ive switched to partial hanging and if that doesnt work ill have to do full suspension.
 
Cant Maintain

Cant Maintain

Garbage Fire
Aug 21, 2020
147
I was always a hanger, but after so many fucked up uneducated attempts, my faith in it was lost, at least for me.
SN was something new I was looking into very passively before it proved quite effective on a friend when they killed themselves using it, and several others in close proximity to me have as well.
 
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UKscotty

Doesn't read PMs
May 20, 2021
2,449
I went from H2S to SN back to H2S again.

I changed because H2S is highly hazardous to others but I think it can be done responsibly if you put the right warning posters onto the car and do it away from people at the start of a weekend like a Friday night so it's less toxic by Monday.
 
NIÑAESTUPIDA

NIÑAESTUPIDA

Member
Jul 25, 2021
28
I went from N to SN. Not because I wanted to...but now...it seems easier for me to have 50ml of a salty drink than 200ml of a terribly bitter drink without vomiting
 
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Wingspan

Wingspan

Member
Jun 21, 2020
24
I changed from partial hanging to SN. I realised how tricky it was to get it done right, and its too easy to back out of. If it was up to me I'd go with a shotgun, but circumstances don't allow me to have that ideal method, so I'll settle with SN (which I'm still not 100% sure is gonna be an amazing way out, but it gets the job done)
 
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chocolatebar

chocolatebar

Paragon
Jul 11, 2021
974
I wanted to use CO poisoning, because it seems peaceful and effective, but, since I will never have the required privacy, will do with SN.
 
Bedrock48

Bedrock48

Dreadful damage, dreadful destiny
Feb 1, 2021
540
Original was full suspension but upon my first failure all anchor points were removed from the house. I've now moved but there's no reliable anchor points here at all.

Then method was caffeine powder but after a rather traumatic failed attempt I don't feel like trying it again. Therefore my main method currently is CO via charcoal, hopefully a lot more peaceful and reliable.
 
xBrialesana

xBrialesana

Become Dust With Me, My Love.
Dec 17, 2019
552
I was always going to jump off golden gate. I've been meaning to drive up there to see what's up with the barrier construction..

SN I trust after learning of it, and acquiring it
 
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Seiba

Seiba

Mage
Jun 13, 2021
505
Shotgun when I was younger was something I desired, then hanging as a second option. I ended up discovering SN later on so I'm opting for that instead.
 
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everydayiloveyou

Arcanist
Jul 5, 2020
490
When i first became suicidal my plan was to vomit to death because I read on tumblr that it was foolproof and anyone could do it without materials (lol)

I ended up not attempting that time and didn't have serious ideation for a while. I would often impulsively hope to jump into traffic or something on my way home from school though.

Towards the end of high school I started thinking about it more seriously, particularly dying by cutting and gunshot. Somewhere along that time, I found the SS subreddit and the asher website. So my plan became inert gas, then changed to N.
 
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Seiba

Mage
Jun 13, 2021
505
When i first became suicidal my plan was to vomit to death because I read on tumblr that it was foolproof and anyone could do it without materials (lol)

I ended up not attempting that time and didn't have serious ideation for a while. I would often impulsively hope to jump into traffic or something on my way home from school though.

Towards the end of high school I started thinking about it more seriously, particularly dying by cutting and gunshot. Somewhere along that time, I found the SS subreddit and the asher website. So my plan became inert gas, then changed to N.
The vomit bit reminds me when I was sixteen and reading about suicide methods and the advice of getting all of the over the counter pills and smashing them into a bowl then mixing in water and taking them that way. Something about that could possibly reduce the risk of vomit because most pills have something in them to make you vomit. Doubt it would have worked but a funny anecdote in retrospect.
 
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everydayiloveyou

Arcanist
Jul 5, 2020
490
The vomit bit reminds me when I was sixteen and reading about suicide methods and the advice of getting all of the over the counter pills and smashing them into a bowl then mixing in water and taking them that way. Something about that could possibly reduce the risk of vomit because most pills have something in them to make you vomit. Doubt it would have worked but a funny anecdote in retrospect.
Lmfaooo I read the exact same thing! I found most of those weird methods on proana/promia blogs on tumblr. Those blogs were extremely graphic on all sorts of mental illness things. I didn't even have an eating disorder or anything, they just happened to reblog the same depressing posts that I'd see on my dash.

The dieting tips those girls shared seemed to work -- some of them posted really scary body check pics daily. They apparently worked as scientists, dieticians, nutrionists, doctors, etc... and would make very long posts about the science behind losing weight, restricting, and purging. So I thought they must've been legit and knew exactly how to kill themselves but chose not to.
 
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one.way.out

one.way.out

Student
Jul 9, 2021
135
Mine was jumping. However, I've been to different buildings - I can't jump. It's scary as hell. I can however, hang myself. I have a good spot, so I'm planning on being gone before 2022.
 
Seiba

Seiba

Mage
Jun 13, 2021
505
Lmfaooo I read the exact same thing! I found most of those weird methods on proana/promia blogs on tumblr. Those blogs were extremely graphic on all sorts of mental illness things. I didn't even have an eating disorder or anything, they just happened to reblog the same depressing posts that I'd see on my dash.

The dieting tips those girls shared seemed to work -- some of them posted really scary body check pics daily. They apparently worked as scientists, dieticians, nutrionists, doctors, etc... and would make very long posts about the science behind losing weight, restricting, and purging. So I thought they must've been legit and knew exactly how to kill themselves but chose not to.
I forget where I found mine to be honest, I just googled around and around for hours and hours. Eating disorder stuff is pretty sad, and more so that people can be misled by possibly well meaning but mentally ill people.
 
Yolkeating:)

Yolkeating:)

Egg eater
Aug 28, 2021
4
My method for 3 years was partial suspension. I couldn't find the sweet spot no matter how hard I tried so now I'm going to try SN.
Full suspension or nothing.
 
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Cannedbones

Cannedbones

Sing me to sleep
Mar 14, 2021
65
SN sounded like an option at first. However, i dont have the resources to get any. So im opting instead for partial hanging. And after a couple of tries, i think I found my sweet spot once which makes it more promising. But I'm rarely alone. I wish I could find me a safe peaceful place to end it all.
 
SleepDealer

SleepDealer

Your Imaginary Friend
Aug 13, 2021
138
Drugs, poisons, etc. are too unreliable. They're advertised as peaceful and painless, but the truly reliable ones are hard to get your hands on. No matter how careful I was while researching and preparing, no luck. I don't want to pay hundreds of dollars for the "good stuff" and I hate sneaking around with suspicious substances, so I moved on.

I avoided methods like strangulation all this time because I thought they'd be painful. Turns out, the sensation is actually kind of addicting. A belt is all I need.
 
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LittleJem

Visionary
Jul 3, 2019
2,644
Mine was CO but after reading all the info on it I decided it's too technical. So now it might be pills (ami) or partial suspension. The desperate method is drowning- I mean if I get really desperate to go...
 
Amumu

Amumu

Ctb - temporary solution for a permanent problem
Aug 29, 2020
2,623
I've got SN but if I manage to get more peaceful stuff, why not. If I lost everything I'd go for jumping (1) or hanging (2).
 
NearlyIrrelevantCake

NearlyIrrelevantCake

The Cake Is A Lie
Aug 12, 2021
1,630
I still haven't entirely committed to one method yet.

I'm heavily leaning towards SN and it's what I've researched the most.

Shallow water blackout would be nice because it would be realistic and possibly not even seen as a suicide. I live on an island, right on the coast. I go to the beach looking for shells sometimes. I've never been able to swim and all of my friends are aware of that. Not that far-fetched for me to have an "accident" while shell hunting.

Night-Night seems peaceful, honestly. But I don't know if I can mentally handle doing that to myself. But it still intrigues me and it's on the list of possibilities.
 
rosie93

rosie93

Student
Aug 28, 2021
152
Thanks to you guys! I thought about hanging myself... but I tried and just couldn't do it. SN is perfect.
 
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