The future looks really bleak, especially for people like me. I had a sheltered and tumultuous childhood and I never grew up properly. I don't know what to do with my life as I have no "real world" experience. This world has no use for me, and that's okay because I'm tired of this game.
Every day feels like a battle with myself, its been like that for as long as I can remember. Also ere's nothing for me look forward. Friends come and go, and we only love conditionally so I'm not staying for someone else.
I've let everyone down but it serves them right for believing in me in the first place. I still try to be positive but I always end up back on this forum.
When you've got nothing, you got nothing to lose. I just wish I was brave enough to actually Do something. Even if that means suicide. Who says you must go on? Probably better for me to end it soon before I screw it up even more.