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Tried to die in hurricane laura Even that failed
- Aug 25, 2020
- 20
benzos screwed me up good and I'm in physical torment.
Yeah 2 years, Lol, I'm going on 3 and I'm worse.You poor bastard. Benzos really fucked me up, too. Don't worry, though, benzo withdrawal only lasts.. a year or two (no shit)...
I wanna hear what you've seenI've
seen things you people wouldn't believe
Because if I don't, then society is going to kill me with its difference of opinion.Why do you want ctb?
Yeah 2 years, Lol, I'm going on 3 and I'm worse.
Fuck injectables: drunk as hell on 2M2B, everclear, and crappy high proof alcopop as a mixer to wash down a lot of your preferred benzos. Best way, if you can pull it offTrust me, I understand. Benzos are my true love. I used to order grams of Phenazepam, and Etizolam off the dark web. I've had my fair share. I always end up quitting my job and eating a pound of doritos or some other crazy shit when I go on a binge... but benzos make me feel the greatest I've ever felt.
I think Benzos are a taste of death, without dying. I imagine death to feel exactly like being on a very high dose of benzos, but it never ends.
Fuck injectables: drunk as hell on 2M2B, everclear, and crappy high proof alcopop as a mixer to wash down a lot of your preferred benzos. Best way, I'd you can pull it off
Try me ive probably seen it cant judge a book by its coverI've
seen things you people wouldn't believe
Because one time I looked at something for too long and my whole life slipped away.
I wish there was a lmao button lol.I have no idea what you just said, but hey, Mazel tov to you, too!
This.... easier to tell you why I don't want to ctb because the list is far shorter.
BeCause we all age, get painful mortal diseases, and die anyway... time passes by much faster that you realize...
I feel you're pain we been through many of the same things if i could figure out how send a message to you i would like to talk more cause we been through very similar stuff and i was never able to talk about it with anyoneI've never told my ""story"" on here because it's embarrassing and also I know no one cares, but I'm in a ranting mood and I'll hopefully ctb soon anyway, so here goes:
- because I was born in shitty circumstances (economic crisis, poor family, poor country) and my parents didn't want me but decided to keep the "accident" because abortion is frowned upon
- because I got molested when I was 6
- because I got raped when I was 15 and I didn't tell anyone because I still feel like it's all my fault
- because my dad beat my mom and cheated on her and I had to witness when he smashed her face and she was covered in blood
- because my parents always ignored me, fighting each other in front of me like I don't exist
- because my mom said I should kill myself after she got tired of me being depressed all the time
- because I was "the weird kid" and got bullied
- because I never had more than 1-2 friends and no one wants to be around me and I don't want them anymore either
- because the only person I ever truly loved, essentially manipulated me and then when I was no longer usable just cast me aside
- because I can't stop my mind from obsessing and hurting all the time
- because I hate my job and I don't want to exist only to be a wage slave
- because I'm not good enough, beautiful enough, white enough, to be taken seriously by anyone
- because modern society is insane and humanity is not as great as people say it is
- because I don't care about money or success or anything else. I have no more goals and no hope
- because I can't remember the last time I was happy