Venting WHY?

[hopeless08]

I can't seem to focus on anything.
The only thought that comes to my mind and it repeats itself over and over like a broken record is WHY.
Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why?
Why the fuck do we have to go through this agony what the hell did we do that was so bad to deserve all this pain?
I think I'm losing my mind and I can't express these feelings to anyone else.
When I'm with my mom, cause literally her and my siblings are the only people I see since I can't leave the house, I have to sit there with this intense pain, this huge knot in my throat, trying so hard, so hard to not break down and cry. It takes every ounce of energy that I have to try to put on a smile. I'm sure some of you guys feel the same way.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence truly is so cruel and hellish, it must be so torturous what you are going through. It's so horrible how people have to suffer so unbearably all through no fault of their own but anyway best wishes.