Venting why?

[Vesiira]

why is it that even though things are looking up for me, the lingering thought of suicide is still in the back of my mind? why now that i have finally found someone that treats me right, that genuinely cares for me, i still feel i don't deserve to be here? why, when i finally feel happy again, does my depression have to try and sabotage it? i don't get it. i guess i will try and ignore it the best i can! anyone else have this issue? feeling guilty for feeling okay? for feeling even a bit better than you have been?

 

[Jamesun]

Ep the same thing happens to me, sometimes I feel horrible for feeling like this, it's painful.

 

[Vesiira]

Ep the same thing happens to me, sometimes I feel horrible for feeling like this, it's painful.

It makes me feel horrible too. Guilty. Selfish. I'm sorry it happens to you too.

 

[thedevilwithin]

it's such a draining cycle. i'm sorry you feel this too.

 

[Vesiira]

it's such a draining cycle. i'm sorry you feel this too.

It really is so draining!!! I wish there was a way to stop it for us, I am sorry you do as well :(