Im only suffering, but im too scared of fail
Yo.
First of all. Get off this website. Bad thoughts or opinions can never change if you are constantly in an echo chamber that doesn't even try to challenge your beliefs.
What you are experiencing is weakness. Do not listen to all these people on here. They are trying to talk you into suicide and the fact they are probably going to delete this comment just shows how scared they are of the truth.
Having no girlfriend and feeling weak is the stupidest way one could say he is weak. You DO NOT need anyone to reassure you. No gf, no whatever.
To become better you need to realise one thing. Your problems are problems of privilige. Somewhere on this planet, no matter what country or continent, but somewhere on this planet there is a person who is your age, maybe looks like you, and that person just got some bad fucking news. Either their family died in a car crash, they got a cancer diagnosis or their best friend died.
You putting your problems above theirs is incredibely selfish and dumb because if you were to sit down with one of these people what would you tell them? "Oh I have no girlfriend", "Oh I have no friends". That person would say "Sure lets switch lifes please". You NEED to realise you are the one controlling everything. You control your life. Your life is your videogame and if all you like to do is sit down, be a weakling, cry about your problems, go on suicide forums to talk about how much you want to kill yourself will NOT help you.
You MUST realise that you are the one controlling everything and that you DESERVE EVERYTHING in your life. NOTHING happens out of nothing. You having all these quote on quote problems is your own fault. The same way you "fucked" your life up is the same way you can fix it so stand up be a man and walk straight ahead.
Show the world who you are.
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