Why SN Over FSH ?

[toughtimes100]

I recently managed to get SN, not sure why as it totally freaks me out the thought of 25-30 mins of terror. My go to has always been FSH but I'm having horrendous SI kicking the stool. My life is ruined due to psychoactive drugs and AKATHISIA. I've whole body neuropathy and I've lost everything.
Why question is why do people opt for 30 mins of terror instead of 20 seconds of terror that comes with FSH. Any thoughts.
Thanks.

 

[CandyCane]

Akathisia is tough. Chronic akathisia CAN go away completely. I'm sorry. What's FSH? SN freaks me out, I won't do it.

 

[toughtimes100]

Akathisia is tough. Chronic akathisia CAN go away completely. I'm sorry. What's FSH? SN freaks me out, I won't do it.

Full suspension hanging
I've had it 17 months and it's getting worse. The neuropathy is getting worse also so I'm having problems pacing and moving to relieve the terror.

 

[kitkat9234]

Akathasia is the absolute worst!!!!! I'm sorry you are struggling with it. Medications have runined me as well. Big hugs to you

 

[CandyCane]

Full suspension hanging
I've had it 17 months and it's getting worse. The neuropathy is getting worse also so I'm having problems pacing and moving to relieve the terror.

Oh they both scare me. I understand the logic. I hate things on my neck. I'd probably hang over SN personally, but I'd rather find something else.

 

[TBONTB]

Here are my impressions from things I've read.

FSH is quick if done right. A person needs a good anchor point and an ability to figure out the knots. Both of those are a limiter for some people. It's also a hurdle to get over...the fear of that one step and the pain that comes before unconsciousness. There is also some risk of survival with brain damage

SN has different difficulties. It's very difficult to procure, as are the accompanying drugs that make it effective. If one has all those things though, it's easier to drink something than to step off a stool. But then the discomfort begins and it lasts a lot longer than with FSH. There's vomitting, heart racing, numbing. People who can obtain Benzos can be peaceful through some of this, but for others it seems unpleasant.

I guess which one a person chooses depends on their personal circumstances. or perhaps they choose not to go down this scary path at all!

No advice here, just some things I've learned

 

[toughtimes100]

6 years ago I was just stressed and burned out. Went to the Doctors who recommended I take SSRIs. SNRIs. BENZOS etc. my fault as I was naive thinking these would help. Developed protracted withdrawal from the benzos, docs then told me I was depressed and should take Cymbalta. Took it for 28 days and developed full blown Akathisia. Pleaded with the Psychiatrist to help me. Told me I was not in the realms of reality. Admitted me. Stopped the benzos and Cymbalta and put me on mirtazapine. That's what caused the neuropathy. Burning skin. Personality change. and made the Akathisia 100 times worse. Managed to escape the psych ward and now my only option is suicide. I've lost everything. My family. My house. My work and my actions have caused my Mum to stop eating properly which caused her B12 levels to drop. She's now developed neuropathy in her feet and severe brain damage and ended up in a care home. I unintentionally destroyed everything and everyone I care about. I don't deserve to live. I'm devastated as I love my kids and wife so much.

 

[Terrible_Life_99]

I'll do fsh. I hope with my technique I'll get unconscious even faster than 20 sec.
I'm not able to buy sn and to be honest it also feels so complex I mean you have to fast for many hours, you need several other meds (which not everyone can get like benzos) etc but one thing i really like about the methode is that you can die in your bed instead of hanging like a slaughtered cow in a butcher store.

 

[zizzou]

I just think FSH is very traumatic. I think its the least I can do for the person who finds me not to be found that way hahaha I prefer SN or bridge jumping

 

[toughtimes100]

I'll do fsh. I hope with my technique I'll get unconscious even faster than 20 sec.
I'm not able to buy sn and to be honest it also feels so complex I mean you have to fast for many hours, you need several other meds (which not everyone can get like benzos) etc but one thing i really like about the methode is that you can die in your bed instead of hanging like a slaughtered cow in a butcher store.

What's your technique if you don't mind sharing.

 

[Forveleth]

Why question is why do people opt for 30 mins of terror instead of 20 seconds of terror that comes with FSH.

First, let us clear up a misconception. Plenty of people take SN and do not experience any form of terror. There have been accounts on this site of people having elevated heart rate but overall feeling calm and falling asleep peacefully.

While SN can involve vomiting, sweating, elevated heart rate and pain, some people consider it far less violent than dangling from the neck being choked by a rope. The SI involved in kicking a stool can be psychologically much tougher than drinking a couple mouthfuls of salty liquid.

My chosen method is most likely going to be full suspension, however, I would seriously consider comfortably laying back in my bed after having SN instead, if I could get my hands on it. It comes down to personal preference. People need to use a method that they are comfortable with and is accessible, or else they will not be able to go through with it.

 

[toughtimes100]

Akathasia is the absolute worst!!!!! I'm sorry you are struggling with it. Medications have runined me as well. Big hugs to you

Hi. What have meds done to you and what were they. ? Thanks.

 

[CandyCane]

6 years ago I was just stressed and burned out. Went to the Doctors who recommended I take SSRIs. SNRIs. BENZOS etc. my fault as I was naive thinking these would help. Developed protracted withdrawal from the benzos, docs then told me I was depressed and should take Cymbalta. Took it for 28 days and developed full blown Akathisia. Pleaded with the Psychiatrist to help me. Told me I was not in the realms of reality. Admitted me. Stopped the benzos and Cymbalta and put me on mirtazapine. That's what caused the neuropathy. Burning skin. Personality change. and made the Akathisia 100 times worse. Managed to escape the psych ward and now my only option is suicide. I've lost everything. My family. My house. My work and my actions have caused my Mum to stop eating properly which caused her B12 levels to drop. She's now developed neuropathy in her feet and severe brain damage and ended up in a care home. I unintentionally destroyed everything and everyone I care about. I don't deserve to live. I'm devastated as I love my kids and wife so much.

I have protracted benzo withdrawal, too. You absolutely deserve to live.

 

[toughtimes100]

I have protracted benzo withdrawal, too. You absolutely deserve to live.

Honestly I don't and feel like I can't. I can barely walk. Can't feel my hands or feet. Whole body is burning including my eyes and my privates. Lost all sense of taste. Zero coordination. Can't write any more. Tremors. DPDR. Depression. Anxiety. Akathisia. Anhedonia. Never really slept more than 2 hours for 3 years now. Not functioning. Zero cognitive ability. Can't bare to be touched. Have developed terrible habits. Eat like a pig. So ignorant to people. Full of rage. This isn't a life. It's chemical torture.

 

[CandyCane]

It def is. It also will get better eventually. I get not wanting to wait. Not sure I will either.

 

[toughtimes100]

It def is. It also will get better eventually. I get not wanting to wait. Not sure I will either.

6 years this has went on. I can't take it anymore. This is the worst I've ever been and zero improvement in over 18 months. In fact it's getting worse

 

[Terrible_Life_99]

What's your technique if you don't mind sharing.

While I'm still staying on the ladder I'll position the noose on my neck above adamsapple and knot on the back side in the middle section then I'll tighten the noose. After that before pushing the ladder away I'll press my body down so that I'll create already enough force on the noose to compress the carotids. This will make me already nearly unconscious its the same mechanism people do when they do partial hanging then when I'll near unconsciousness I push the ladder away. My goal is to minimize with this the time where i'll be conscious and feel the whole body weight on my neck to an absolute minimum.

 

[Hiro Uchiha]

Got mine today well. Yes, very freaky.

 

[Unicron]

Hanging terrifies me but I can cope with two dozen minutes of feeling unwell. SN is my choice, I'm just biding my time now.

 

[itsgone2]

Is sn just easier to get in some places? I don't feel it's easy for me. So I think Fsh is better. Is it any availability thing?
Also sn requires other items to keep it down. Although drinking something does seem far easier then stepping off a stool with a noose around you.