Discussion Why mental health worsens when CTB approaches

[theboy]

As one has access to methods to leave this world while choosing the date and time of death, mental health tends to deteriorate.

I don't know if this happens to anyone else. One becomes more nervous, anxious, isolated, among other symptoms.

 

[xla]

I find myself more at peace knowing that I have a way out if I wanted to.
I had some really bad news today. I didnt even shed a tear. Just went down to the park, smoked, and sat there for a couple of hours to absorb it.
It feels like I've become numb to it. if anything my mental health has improved instead of deteriorating.

 

[Hope:-)]

Yes, that has happened to me. It's hard to cope as things close in on you and ctb becomes more of a reality than just an idea. I understand why someone on here became a little unstable when it came closer for them. I'm feeling like things are coming to a head for me also and I have been a little unstable too as a result even on here. The isolation and fear are hard to deal with and irl we go through it alone.

 

[notlongnow]

its a huge step, even when you think you're 100% sure its the correct move, the brain will create all sorts of waves and emotions.

 

[freedompass]

I've never really understood why people want to set dates. I suppose sometimes it makes sense if you have a limited window of time when you are alone in the house or something. As for mental health deteriorating I think it varies. Some people feel relieved and free to enjoy their last couple months or whatever. Not from personal experience just what I've observed from years browsing suicide forums.

 

[Jimblue]

I did have anxious before CTB. Scared of wake up. I certainly don't want to wake up and become disabled. So I usually will avoid certain method like jumping.

Lots of time before I tried to CTB, I cried a lot and feeling extremely awful. I felt CTB in home is a bit easier and my mood was more stable.

Sometimes I thought if it would be better if I can find a CTB partner.

 

[theboy]

I did have anxious before CTB. Scared of wake up. I certainly don't want to wake up and become disabled. So I usually will avoid certain method like jumping.

Lots of time before I tried to CTB, I cried a lot and feeling extremely awful. I felt CTB in home is a bit easier and my mood was more stable.

Sometimes I thought if it would be better if I can find a CTB partner.

Where you are from?

 

[Jimblue]

Where you are from?

I live in UK, CTB partner seems not very common here.

 

[FuneralCry]

I think that if I had a reliable and peaceful method and everything was planned for me to leave I would feel relieved. I think that many people feel comforted by having a way to exit this world, they no longer feel trapped here. But I do understand why people would get anxious at the thought of ctb as dying isn't easy as all humans are programmed to survive after all. I do think that a question like this does depend on the individual, and from what I've read many feel a range of emotions as they plan to leave.

 

[CTB Dream]

Everyone different detail my case if method feel safe now no method rapid deteriorating degenerating

 

[Hollowillow]

I've never really understood why people want to set dates. I suppose sometimes it makes sense if you have a limited window of time when you are alone in the house or something. As for mental health deteriorating I think it varies. Some people feel relieved and free to enjoy their last couple months or whatever. Not from personal experience just what I've observed from years browsing suicide forums.

What other suicide forums? It took me forever to find this place. Unless it was pro life anti suicide forums... Reddit sucks now

As one has access to methods to leave this world while choosing the date and time of death, mental health tends to deteriorate.

I don't know if this happens to anyone else. One becomes more nervous, anxious, isolated, among other symptoms.

It sounds like you don't want to? I plan to do it the other way around. No date, impulsive moment when life becomes unbearable. I'm trying to learn until then. Failed 5 "tests". If I was going to ctb to avoid homelesness and chose the date before being kicked out... I'd be a wreck! But that's more like a forced execution...

Everyone different detail my case if method feel safe now no method rapid deteriorating degenerating

What do you have? I want ctb because sick too. World cruel.

Hard talk because
1. not english?
2. brain damage?

I have brain damage. B vitamins helps make nerves in brain.

Your way to talk, very easier

I'm not english