Venting Why is it so hard to live

[LunarLynx]

My life is becoming more and more shitty.
I don't feel anything good anymore.
I'm trying to feel something though other mean, alcohol, SH, drugs. And it work for a bit. But it only last a few days, or even a few hours.
Either I black out or just feel like shit.

I don't want to become a drug addict or an alcoholic. How could I get out of this shit

Nothing worked, psychiatrist, hospitals, clinics... Antidepressants, benzo... Everything is just making me empty

 

[OtterFromTheCosmos]

Sometimes it just truly feels like there is nothing in the world that can do anything to change how you feel about things
however, if you're willing to recover, then try to do somethings you used to enjoy, even if you only enjoyed them as a child, maybe?
Or, if you're certain nothing will work, then CTB is always an option