Why is it so hard to die?

[DreamEnd]

Trying to drink sn but my body literally won't let me since it knows it's poison:(

 

[counting-out-time]

SI - its a absolute bastard!

if you don't feel the time is right then may be it's not your time to go just yet, but whenever you take it is your choice and no one else's - with I had SN :( did you get it from the UK?

 

[Capsaicin78]

unfortunately our bodies are made for staying in this shithole. and only that :(

 

[makethepainstop]

Trying to drink sn but my body literally won't let me since it knows it's poison:(

Survival instinct doesn't just switch off, it's always on. You and everyone else is programmed genetically for survival. Even when we are cursed with real long term diseases, the brain still insists we survive. Even if you are in pain the brain doesn't like to stop insisting and even demanding you stay alive. And that my friend is why terminally ill people will allow the most painful and barbaric operations to he preformed on them,in hopes of living just a little bit longer. A big firm hug to you from me. I

 

[counting-out-time]

unfortunately our bodies are made for staying in this shithole. and only that :(

I mean I might be being a bit morbid here but all we do is this

Born - go to school get bullied or picked on - go high school - get bullied - college maybe and get basic skills, - get depressed - get a dead end job - wages are poor - bills are high - cannot afford a house - pay taxes - get old and end up in a care home with someone wiping your ass and then snuff it.


if that's life then I didn't choose to be here and a want to sue who ever made this shit crap world

 

[NoWayOut22]

I mean I might be being a bit morbid here but all we do is this

Born - go to school get bullied or picked on - go high school - get bullied - college maybe and get basic skills, - get depressed - get a dead end job - wages are poor - bills are high - cannot afford a house - pay taxes - get old and end up in a care home with someone wiping your ass and then snuff it.


if that's life then I didn't choose to be here and a want to sue who ever made this shit crap world

I agree, Ill join you and sue who ever made this prison reality.

 

[CemetryGates]

Millions of years of evolution, we are programmed to survive hence why get SI when we try to commit suicide. It's a prison in many ways. Then there is ofcourse emotional attachment which is another barrier to life.

 

[FuneralCry]

At least you have the method by your side for when the time feels right. But yes regardless of the method it can still be very difficult to be permanently free from this nightmarish world. I always envy those who are gone. They are lucky. To feel trapped in this world even know you wish to leave can certainly be awful. Peace could never exist in this life.

 

[DreamEnd]

SI - its a absolute bastard!

if you don't feel the time is right then may be it's not your time to go just yet, but whenever you take it is your choice and no one else's - with I had SN :( did you get it from the UK?

got it from IC I am in the US

 

[counting-out-time]

I agree, Ill join you and sue who ever made this prison reality.

I even had a debate with my mom last week saying it was not fair that I was born and her reaction was "well your sperm was the fastest"

I'm like well its basically a random number generator!


I will admit trying to overcome SI is hard but being dead will make me dead - no emotions no feelings no nothing, I just hope re-incarrination does not exist and I end up as a new born baby in North Korea or come back to life as a rat. just want external peace for ever. not sure what your views on re-incarrination are?

 

[NoWayOut22]

I even had a debate with my mom last week saying it was not fair that I was born and her reaction was "well your sperm was the fastest"

I'm like well its basically a random number generator!


I will admit trying to overcome SI is hard but being dead will make me dead - no emotions no feelings no nothing, I just hope re-incarrination does not exist and I end up as a new born baby in North Korea or come back to life as a rat. just want external peace for ever. not sure what your views on re-incarrination are?

I avoid the afterlife topic on here as much as possible. It could go on forever and no one on here is going to change anyones views for example if someone is an athiest no one on here is going to change it. Just like if someone thinks its reincarnation no one on here is going to change their views either.

I do have my own belief system after studying the afterlife for over 6 years now and I think the conclusion ive come to would make at least 80% on here even more unhappy or annoyed so I just stay away from it altogether.

I do wish all of our suffering, everyone on this forum i mean, I hope it ends one day for us and we are out this hellish life.

 

[Endex]

I agree, Ill join you and sue who ever made this prison reality.

Psychopathic gready power mad controlling humans invented the system we are born into in the so called developed world

 

[Nikki2020]

I know. me too. I was suppose to be gone already and its so scary. i wish it was easier. i hate that each day I wake up.

 

[makethepainstop]

I agree, Ill join you and sue who ever made this prison reality.

I'm in, let's create a class action law suit!

 

[LucyB]

Trying to drink sn but my body literally won't let me since it knows it's poison:(

Because you are a slave in a multi layer prison. These disgusting bodies are just one layer of the prison.

 

[eldiablo666]

Because you are a slave in a multi layer prison. These disgusting bodies are just one layer of the prison.

Prison? You think this is a prison planet?
Tell us more

 

[LucyB]

Prison? You think this is a prison planet?
Tell us more

It's not a planet. We are in a state of sleep so we think this is are physical form and our physical world. Our situation is much like the movie the matrix. We are asleep in the sky. We are the stars. Each ball of light is a soul asleep in the sky. Together we all power this world. Everything you have to work to pay for is created by your soul in the sky from electricity to wood. We are the victims of a war of good vs evil on the highest level.

 

[eldiablo666]

It's not a planet. We are in a state of sleep so we think this is are physical form and our physical world. Our situation is much like the movie the matrix. We are asleep in the sky. We are the stars. Each ball of light is a soul asleep in the sky. Together we all power this world. Everything you have to work to pay for is created by your soul in the sky from electricity to wood. We are the victims of a war of good vs evil on the highest level.

And how do you know this?
I know this world is a farce - from experience.

 

[Maudlin]

I avoid the afterlife topic on here as much as possible. It could go on forever and no one on here is going to change anyones views for example if someone is an athiest no one on here is going to change it. Just like if someone thinks its reincarnation no one on here is going to change their views either.

I do have my own belief system after studying the afterlife for over 6 years now and I think the conclusion ive come to would make at least 80% on here even more unhappy or annoyed so I just stay away from it altogether.

I do wish all of our suffering, everyone on this forum i mean, I hope it ends one day for us and we are out this hellish life.

You can't possibly make me more unhappy than I am, already.

My spine feels like it's trapped in an ever-tightening vise. At odd intervals, it shoots sharp, burning pains along my torso and extremities. Some of my fingers are numb, others experience the burning pains.

My right hip constantly feels like it's bathed in an open flame. The flesh feels like it's burning, and it never stops.
If I stay awake for enough days and nights in a row, sometimes I get lucky and can sleep a solid four hours out of pure exhaustion.

In short, I'm annoyed anyway. It's my default state of being.

Tell me what you believe, after 6 years of study. I can handle it.

Inquiring minds want to know.

 

[CowsAreCool]

Well, evolution mostly. A very strong, deep rooted will to live is within our physiology (and even Psychology). Why? Natural selection. Our suicidal ancestors were rooted out of the gene pool, just as you will be if you go through with it.

 

[theboy]

SI

 

[LucyB]

And how do you know this?
I know this world is a farce - from experience.

I bargained up my soul in order to obtain the freedom of everyone here. I agreed to come here live a fucked up life and when I turned 33 it would be over and everyone would be released. Except these cowards cheated and are now prolonging our release. The Jesus character that everyone thinks is going to "save" them is symbolic for me. "For God so loved the world that he gave his only son" except it wasn't a son it was a daughter.

The movie the fifth element is a joke about me. They even give the girl bright red hair like mine. Also when they tell you we "evolved" from monkeys and tell you they found the first monkey women and named her Lucy. That's also a joke about me. Our whole existence in this evil ass place is one big joke to the God running this world.

 

[Space Cadet]

I had a failed overdose attempt as a teenager and it was so painful puking and wretching to finaly 12 hours later or so admiting what I done only to be sent to hospital and having stomach pumped which was horrible, embarrassing and then to be called a time waster, attention seeker as nothing came out (I'd puked everything up in the prior 12 hours). The experience was so awful I never bern able to follow through OD'ing again.

Other options I just can't folow through on as scared of pain and heights so jumping off tall building or in front of a train at the moment of truth I just can't do it, fear freezes me. I so badly want to go but can't see a pain free way to go.

 

[Notforlong]

I had a near death experience once that would have been the best way to go. The main reason being is that I wasn't trying to kill my self, it was an accident. I was drinking and decided to take some benzos. I ended up blacking out and wandering off into a blizzard in the middle of the night with a t shirt. I passed out in a snow bank but by sheer "luck" a dog walker found me. The doctor in the hospital told me I was very close to death. The last thing I remember was drinking and talking to my friends online. I was having a great time and I wasn't scared at all, the benzos and alcohol has me feeling like I was on cloud 9 but then it was lights out. I wish I could find a way to replicate that experience, but it's impossible. I could just take benzos and alcohol recklessly but I might end up doing something stupid like driving and injuring someone else, or messing myself up without dying. I still don't know who saved me but I really wish they didn't.