Hanging is painful and will most likely fail due to SI and leave me damaged, OD fails most of the time, I don't have the money or know how to get a gun, I don't even know how to even get on top of the roof of a building because of how stupid I am, and finally trying to do most of these methods would just leave me being caught by my parents with the exception of hanging, but I'm too cowardly to even go through with it. Fuck man I wish I was just aborted or killed early on in an accident
I understand how you feel. For me it's I want certainty, high percentage success. But also, because I have kids, location. I'm not doing this too hurt anyone. I lived when others who had so much more potential died. I've failed them. I think when the right method comes along, you will know. You will have peace when you think about it. I hope you find your peace.
Leaving this cruel and hellish world is such a difficult task in our anti-suicide society we are forced to live in. There are no easily accessible methods available and all of them can fail for the one or the other reason or are painful. This causes so much additional agony and suffering to people who want to exit so badly. I wish there were easyily accessible methods available for everyone. I wish you all the best!
FuneralCry
Just wanting some peace
- Sep 24, 2020
- 38,967
I just find it so horrible how suicide is this difficult in this world, it's inhumane how we cannot just choose to exit in peace in a guaranteed way. There are just too many risks and complications involved in trying to die which of course is a reason as to why never existing at all will always be the best possibility, it's such a cruel punishment to be forced to endure an pointless and dreadful existence that we cannot easily free ourselves from.
TAW122
Emissary of the right to die.
- Aug 30, 2018
- 6,874
Finding the right method is hard due to how society, the State (government), and stigma/taboo against death in general being at an all time high and only getting worse as time goes on. In the past (several decades ago), finding the sources and drugs to have a peaceful death was more readily accessible (nowadays it is very difficult, if not, almost impossible). Then there are more invasive and aggressive CTB prevention measures today than there are over a decade ago when it comes to people attempting to CTB. With that said, this leaves people with violent, brutal, messy, and risky methods to CTB, which even then, are becoming more restrictive in terms of access, like popular bridges having barriers installed, less popular areas are less reliable (higher chance of failure), then also similar areas albeit without barriers are patrolled by Samaritans, pro-lifers and preventionists alike, and LE (law enforcement), which then leaves with the more common, but more prone to failure methods such as OD'ing and partial/full.
In terms of the right method, several factors come into play: which are accessibility, reliability, and comfort, and brutal methods while may be reliable, are not necessarily comfortable nor accessible for many people, leaving them stuck with less reliable methods or just simply trapped and unable to escape this world of suffering.
In terms of the right method, several factors come into play: which are accessibility, reliability, and comfort, and brutal methods while may be reliable, are not necessarily comfortable nor accessible for many people, leaving them stuck with less reliable methods or just simply trapped and unable to escape this world of suffering.
